It was now the next day, around 12 pm. Gilinsky was still asleep, after getting up each four hours to throw up. My poor baby.

I was on my phone still in bed as well. I already took some Advil for the headache i woke up with, yet I was still pretty tired.

Vanessa arrived home just now, yet she went straight to her room to sleep. With Josh, I think he was by the pool? I don't exactly know.

I decided to post a photo of all of us last night at the club, it being my first ever picture with gilinsky. It was of us all taking a shot then one of us just all smiling. I know update accounts are going to find me and repost the picture, so cool to see that G has a new friend. Friend boyfriend whatever you name.

It still picks at me. It slowly takes over me. The fact that we haven't came out yet as a couple. Yes he's bisexual now but I know there are going to be people who think i'm not good enough for him, too skinny, using him for money, or just for fame.

I brought it up to him the day Josh moved in and he said don't stress it. I just know when we come out together people are gonna try to stan me but i don't do shit, or they are gonna try and say they know me when frankly everyone i went to high school and community college with kind of hated me. But hey i'd rather be loved and spread kindness than be hated and spread negativity.

This type of shit can trigger my anxiety and I really hope my depression stays out of this. I'm with gilinsky because I love him and he knows that. I fell in love with Jack, not his dick or abs. He always does the best of comforting me after an anxiety attack or day when I just feel under the weather, such an amazing boyfriend.

I know we will come out one day, I just wonder when you know. I'd feel better is revealing this secret than a paparazzi one day catching us holding hands or kissing. That's also the thing, going out in public can be a stressful time, we just end up acting like best bros or something, not "I love you.".

I decided to start up a bath for gilinsky since he's probably aching at the moment. Trying to relax will for sure help the hangover and it does something like cleaning your ora or some shit. Plus we got extra bath bombs and bubbles for christmas, so we are gonna put them to use.

I would totally use them and go in with him, he fully reeks of tequila and imma take the dogs for a walk, i'm not in the mood for sex.

I get up from the bed and put on boxers to fill the bath. Yeah my head still hurts when walking quickly or standing up very quick, but i should be fine by tomorrow or this afternoon.

I walked over to the bathroom and at the tub, I turned on the faucet to fill with warm enough water for gilinsky.

I left the bath bombs and fizzers on a tray so he can pick what to put in the tub, I just set the warm water.

As the waters doing that I'll just start my day. From my phone I ordered Ihop, gilinskys favorite hangover food cure, and chick fil a for me. I brushed my teeth and did my hair as well, even though i'm seriously doing nothing all day.

I put on joggers and a black long sleeve, along with my rings and dog tag necklaces.

As im putting on cologne, I here groaning coming from Jack. Laughing to myself, i put the bottle down and walk over to the bed to him.

His face is buried in the pillow and the blankets were piled on him. You can really only tell a person is there from his one arm hanging down the bed and the groans.

I kneel down in front of him, grabbing a hold of his hand and kissing it.

"Damn where's the 'We live once guys let's take more shots!' or the 'I won't be hungover it's just tequila!' Gilinsky?" I tease giggling.

He now faces me, his hair wild and plump lips. God this man is still so beautiful, the things i would do to protect him.

"Im never drinking again. Well I am but not as hard. I feel like the definition of death." He groaned, ending with a slight chuckle.

I caressed his face and laughed along with him. "I hope you had fun JJ, I know you've hung around with the guys before but they take getting used to. For when I wasn't drunk we all seemed to be having fun." He explains now with a less groggy voice.

"Oh yes of course hun. Seriously you guys are such a fun and bright group of friends, it's an honor to be able to hang with you guys." I nod my head and smile softly. He gives me a toothy smile and grabs my hand to peck, then puts it close to his face.

We are so fucking in love.

"I created you a bath by the way, I left the bath bombs and bubbles out so you can decide what to put in it." I say getting up and fixing my shirt.

"Babe really? Thank you, my heart is in complete awe." He beamed, now laying on his back.

My cheeks grew a rose tint and i turned to open the curtains.

"Anything for my love. Now quickly i don't want the water to get room temperature." I say turning away to get my shoes.

About two minutes later when i'm about to walk out to go downstairs, I feel arms and bare body wrap around me.

"Thank you again JJ, I love youuu." He long's the y against my neck, followed with a kiss.

I'm so whipped for my boyfriend.

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It's now around 8:30 and Jack and I were in his office, I was throwing grapes into his mouth while I just ate them. He was answering emails about this year's agenda, and I was just sitting on the chair across his desk doing a word search.

He was still a bit hungover, a slight headache with droopy eyes but overall okay, I was okay as can be. Of course still tired.

"Damn the amount of security we gotta get this tour is wild. 800?" His eyes widen looking at the computer. I raise my eyebrow, this boy.

"Jack you are playing in all theaters, You are getting bigger each single from already being pretty big. We just want you to be safe." I reply, eating a grape.

"I know I know. I can't wait for you to come on tour with me, plus it's gonna be during the summer months, so more fans, more hypeness, and more great unforgettable nights. you are gonna love it." He beams.

I wanted to ask if we were going to be out as a couple when that happens. But i didn't.

"I'm ready hun! Speaking of security, last night was a bit strange when we got home." I acknowledged, scanning the word search.

Gilinsky looked up at me from the screen with a questionable face.

"What do you mean? Did I do something embarrassing?"

"No no Jack you were okay just drunk haha, it was Josh. While we were in our room on the bed messing around, he just, opens the door and peeps his head through. Plus told me how he spent his new years, and it just sounded a bit fishy." I explain, now tapping the pencil on the word search.

"I don't know I found it kind of weird, but that might just be me, maybe i'm overreacting." I shrug.

"No no baby you aren't, I'd feel the same way. Just this time let's give him the benefit of the doubt. He's knew and still getting used to things around here. Maybe he doesn't know the boundaries. I'll talk with him about it sooner than later. Plus maybe he just has a different routine for his types of new years, who knows." He reassures me with a smile.

He's right, I shouldn't think so much of it, I made mistakes when I was a cleaner so has Vanessa. It's a part of life to grow.

"I still like him and all he's a great guy. For sure we will talk to him about that." I nod, feeling a bit more comfortable.

But not fully.

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