It's been hard without Stiles and I realised the mistake I made and I want to set it right. I head back to Beacon Hills. After a few hours I'm finally here at Stiles house. I knock on the door and wait a few minute. The door opens and I see Noah.

"Derek what are you doing here you hurt my son" he said glaring at me.

"I know and I'm hear you make it right please Noah I need to see him" I beg sadly. He sighs and lets me in. I walk in and the whole pack goes quiet. Then I smell the confusion on Stiles. He turns around and sees me and his eyes widen. I walk towards him and he back away from me making my wolf whimper.

"Stiles i" I begin to say but I'm cut off by him running upstairs. I hear him start to panic so I run up the stairs and knock on his door.

"Stiles please let me in" I say worried for him.

"Not you Issac" he pants making my heart break. I let Issac through and he shouts to Stiles but he doesn't answer. He then breaks down the door and just in time because we see Stiles pass out. Issac goes in and picks him up bridal style and brings him downstairs. He lays him on the sofa. I'm then punched in the face.

"What the fuck is wrong with you, you asshole. You can't just turn up here after a couple months you haven't once called any of us once. He's been depressed and just this morning he had a breakdown because he saw your wolf teddy and thought you've got a new caregiver" Issac screams at me.

"I didn't mean to hurt him I just though that as long as he's with me he's going to get hurt. I realised that's it's more painful without him." I say truthfully.

"You hurt him more by leaving. He's been a mess and so have I. He let Scott be alpha because he knew that you leaving would affect him and he wouldn't be able to stay strong. I've been a mess as well you know but Stiles was there he made a promise to never leave me. So did you but you broke it and now we're going to Brazil for a week together" Issac said shocking me.

"Wait what do you mean your going to Brazil for a week" I say confused.

"Me and Stiles decided to go to Brazil for a week but it kept getting delayed and now it's not so we're going" Issac said.

"No" is all I could say.

"Yes we are" Issac said back harshly.

"He's not going to Brazil" I scream angrily.

scream.

"You can't tell me what I can or can't do" I hear Stiles say and sit up avoiding eye contact with me. He swings his legs over the side of the sofa and stand up. He checks the time and his eyes widen.

"Ok we've got to go now if we went to make our flight" He said to Issac putting on his shoes and jacket.

"Please Stiles" I begs my wolf whimpering. He shake his head.

"Not a chance you left and I gave you two chances to come back but you hung up every time. I've had this trip planned for months so I'm going" He said angrily. He then hug lbs everyone in the pack making sure they're all ok.

" Well I'll see you guys next week me and Issac got a fight to catch" he said and walks out with Issac at his side. My heart breaks as I hear the car pull away. I sit on the sofa sad and angry.

"What did you expect Derek he loved you" Scott said.

"It hurts so much without him. I hate myself for making him go through this I just thought that if I stayed away from him that he wouldn't get hurt as much" I say with a tear rolling down my face.

"He's been a mess at one point he wouldn't even say your name. He pushed everyone away but Issac. He eventually let us in but we could all smell the pain and sadness coming from him. Think about it he knew what he was getting into when you two mated and he agreed to be your boyfriend" Jackson said angrily.

"If anyone needs me I'll be at my apartment" I say getting up ready to leave. I then feel someone hug me. I look at see that it's Erica. I wrap my arms around her and scent mark her once again. She pulls away and smiles at me.

"Oh and Scott congratulations on finding your mate" I say making Scott blush. I then walk out and head to my apartment. Once I get there I go to my room and see all my stuff for when I'm little is there. I then collapse to my knees and cry.

"Why did I have to leave him I love him." I sob. I then crawl into bed too depressed to change out of my clothes. I then grab the pillow that Stiles would sleep on and clutch it to my chest. I then try and ring him but it goes straight to voicemail and the same thing happens to Issac. I cry knowing that I'd potentially lost the love of my life and Issac who's like a son to me. I then get a call from Sheriff Stilinski. I answer not even bothering to hide the fact that I'd been crying.

"Hi Derek" he said.

"Hi Noah." I say sadly.

"Woah Derek are you ok" Noah asked concerned.

"Yeah I just fucked up you know" I say with tears falling.

"I know you have but your meant to be Stiles loves you. You just need to give him time" Noah said genuinely.

"Thank you Noah and why did you call" I ask curiously.

"I was just calling to check up on you" He said. I smile.

"Thank you I'm getting better but I've got to go" I say.

"That's good ok bye" he said and hung up. I then cuddle closer to Stiles's pillow and fall to sleep with it clutched to my chest.