Nyx's pov

The cool wind blew against against me moving my hair with it's rhythm and caressing my skin. I didn't know how long I had stood there for neither did I know when I had stopped crying.

My hands gripped the railing remembering every cruel word I had heard ever since I was born. I always thought that when I grew older, things will be different that they will change for the better but I was wrong, it only got worse.

I was glad no one had come to look for me here, not like they ever cared.

But lycus cares, A small voice whispered to me but I shut it out just like I had shut Hera out moments ago.

I stared down looking at the lawn below and then the forest in view and I wondered what will happen if I jumped down and hit the ground. It was quite really far maybe if I did, I will die and finally end the misery.

what about Amara? That voice whispered again, "Shut the hell up! Stop fucking talking!" I yelled willing it to go away.

My daughter will be better off without me, when I am gone there will be no one to cause her misfortune like I do. Everyone will forget me and eventually forget that I am her mother and she will be seen as normal.

Jump! Jump! jump! End it all Nyx, just jump and everything will be over, Now this was the voice I didn't bother shutting out, it told me what exactly I wanted to hear at the moment.

I lifted my hands off the railing, looked down to assess the long way I'd fall, satisfied with the damage it will cause me. I gulped took a few steps backwards and leapt.

I never got off the railing, a strong hand gripped my waist tightly as the familiar heavenly scent filled my senses, he was here.

"What do you think you are doing?" He asked drawing me closer to him, "Is it what i think it is?"

"No…" I trailed off as he turned me around to face him. I looked up at him and I met his dark orbs swirling with so much emotions, I couldn't tell what he was feeling at the moment but I was lost in them and for a while my problems were gone.

He cupped my jaw and brought his face down, dropping a kiss on my nose before capturing my lips with his. I tiptoed leaning into the kiss trying to receive more than he gave as his tongue delved into my mouth caressing my own tongue.

I wrapped my hands around his neck as the kiss deepened and from a soft and passionate kiss, it turned to something heated. He lifted me up, wrapping my legs around his waist and then he broke the kiss off and looked straight into my eyes.

"Are you okay?" He asked and I bit my lip looking at him, "Talk to me." He ran his thumb along my jaw, his eyes silently pleading.

"I am not." I said burying my head in the crook of his neck and the tears began flowing again, "They all want me gone, even after everything and they always keep mentioning your past that I know nothing about, who do they always keep referring to?" I asked and I felt his body tense and his hold on me tightened.

"Let's not talk about that Nyx." He said, "Let's talk about you, I know there is more to you, I saw how you were when you were asked for the pack you belonged to."

"It's no use, you will cast me away soon enough." I croaked and he hissed.

"Nothing like that will happen." He said, his voice was stern.

"It will." I mumbled and he dropped me on my feet. His hands were clenched by his side and I could feel his anger now. I looked away from him.

"Look at me Nyx." He said but I chose to do as I wish which he didn't take lightly as he gripped my face forcing me to meet his gaze, "No one is taking you away from me." He gritted, "I promise you that, I won't let them take you away and I won't let them hurt you. I won't hurt you either, I promise."

My insides warmed at his words and I believed that he was sincere, with the way he stared at me, the fierceness in his voice. This wasn't the Lycus I met months ago, this Lycus standing before me was ready to protect me, he was ready to change or has changed.

He pulled me closer to him wrapping his arms around my waist, "Anytime you feel down or you feel like you should end it all. Think about the people who care for you, me…" He cared for me? "Your daughter, my mother and willow." I gulped at his words, "I will never let anything happen to you nor will I hurt you Nyx, I promise you." He said and he crashed his lips on mine again sealing his promise with a kiss.

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I rolled my eyes at Andros as he asked me the same question for the umpteenth time that evening, "I am fine, I promise." I said to him.

"I do hope you are." He sighed, "You do not deserve all these Nyx." He said and I nodded at him in agreement.

"I can't stop thinking about the meeting." I said, "Even after all Lycus said and did."

"What did he say?"

I proceeded in telling him everything that transpired and how Lycus defended me and consoled me after everything that happened. It was obvious that Andros wasn't exactly happy with the turn of things.

"I still don't trust him." He said and I gave him the look, "Fine, fine, this isn't about the fact that you want him and not me, it's the fact that I am scared he will raise your hopes only to hurt your feelings again, aside from having feelings for you, I genuinely care about you as a friend, I do not want you heartbroken again."

"He's changed." I said trying not to yell, "He's different now and sincere."

"Fine, if you say so." He said with a shrug, "I got you something." He gave me the parcel he held and I collected it. I opened it up to see mini cup cakes in it and I almost squealed in delight.

"Thank you so much!" I said before I began to eat them right there. My mood had increased a lot and Andros just sat there smiling at me.

"I am glad you are enjoying them." He said with a smile, "I made them."

"You did?" I asked with my mouth full, he laughed at my muffled words, "Maybe you could teach me sometime."

"That will not be happening!" We heard a voice growl and simultaneously I was lifted off the floor, sparks flew up my arm, it was Lycus, "Hey love." He turned me to face him and kissed me with his hand grabbing my ass, "I didn't give you freedom just for you to lazy around, bake cakes and offer my mate cooking lessons." He growled at Andros and I gulped, Andros looked terrified and also jealous.

"Sorry your highness." He bowed before leaving the place, leaving me alone with Lycus.

"So you like cakes uhn?" He began to talk as soon as Andros left, "I am actually a pretty good baker myself!" He huffed dragging me into the pack house and towards the kitchen, I tried keeping up with his pace while I clutched on to the parcel of cupcakes Andros had given me.

We got to the kitchen and he lifted me up placing me on the countertop. He patted my face, "You will sit pretty while I bake."

Ever had something that looked like heaven yet tasted like trash? Yea, that was exactly what was happening. If all Alphas were to contend with my mate for his throne in a game of baking he will be thrown out in the first few moments. The kitchen was a mess like he actually knew what he was doing, the cake looked good but the taste was equivalent to shit.

"How is it?" He glared at me as I dropped the fork pushing the plate aside, "Tell me."

"Mmhhm." I gave him thumbs up while trying to digest the rubbish in my mouth, "It's mmmm."

He quirked an eyebrow at me, took the plate and put a piece in his mouth too. He didn't even get to chew it, he ran to the sink spat it out and rinsed his mouth, "That's terrible!" He groaned and I laughed at him, at least he found out it was awful himself.

"Well, I am good at something he can't even come close to." He came back to me leaning over the counter staring me straight in the eye.

"What is that?" I asked him wiping my mouth.

"Making you squirm with just my gaze." He said with a wink before walking out of the kitchen and damn was he right.

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