Nyx's pov.

I leaned against the wall of my room with my heart drumming fast and lips still aching, not in a bad way this time but in a very, very good way.

My hands came up to my face and I touched my lips, they both felt swollen beneath my finger tips as a reminder of what had just happened.

feeling like this after a kiss? Hera chuckled mockingly, what happens when he finally fu…

Hera! I stopped her before she could finish her words as I blushed crimson.

I walked to the bed and sat on it trying not to wake Amara.

Did he like the kiss? I wondered, did I kiss him well? Was he going to kiss me again? Would this change anything?

Don't get your hopes high Nyx, My subconscious reminded me, he clearly said this meant nothing, he is going to mate with the Beta anyway.

Tears welled in my eyes as the realisation dawned on me again. I felt stupid for letting him kiss me and touch me like that, I felt used.

Anger surged in me at the fact that he thought he could just use me and get away with it, with the firm resolution to give him a piece of my mind, I stormed out of my room and straight to his office again.

I was going to let him know that he can't just use me or try to manipulate him into kissing him.

I reached the door and slightly pushed it open without knocking, I poked my head through the crack and all my anger melted into full blown sadness at what I saw.

Laya, the Beta was in his arms the same way I had been there minutes ago, he was leaning against the opposite side of the table with her arms draped around him casually like he had done with me. His back faced me and I could see her face. She raised it up and our gazes met.

I closed the door back silently not being able to stare any longer and raced back to my room faster than I could ever have.

Immediately I got behind the closed doors, the tears fell, I couldn't hold them back anymore, I cried at my foolishness.

I am such an Idiot! I groaned inwardly as I got on the bed trying to silence my cries so as not to wake my baby up, I have got to be the most stupid wolf to ever exist!

Did you see that Hera? I sniffed, She was all wrapped up in his arms like he hadn't just kissed me few minutes ago.

Hera whined in pain, It's okay Nyx, it might not seem as what we think.

What else do you want to see Hera?! I practically yelled at her she was pissing me off, I bet he is already balls deep in her by now.

Don't say that Nyx, if he was, we would have felt the pain.

She was right, if he was sleeping with her, we would have been in pain just like in the past. I shut her out and got on the bed to sleep. I laid on the bed pulling the covers around me crying as the image of my mate wrapped in another woman's arms was imprinted in my memory.

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I could get up the next morning and got through with my boring routine with a very heavy and broken heart.

I was currently bathing Amara, she said she had a play date with other kids from the pack and she had to get ready on time.

"Do you talk to them much?" I asked lifting her from the bath tub and wrapping a towel around her.

"No, I don't." She said skipping out of the bathroom excitedly, "I just play with them."

"Don't you think it will be nice to talk to them?" I asked as I applied lotion on her body. I helped her put on the pretty blue dress she had chosen to wear.

"Not all of them like me." She said and my face fell at the fact that my daughter was experiencing a childhood like mine, "I want the blue ribbons too." She pointed at them and I put them in her hair.

"You are all set." I patted at her back as she got down from the bed.

"Later mommy." She kissed my cheek, grabbed fluffy and left the room.

I smiled knowing she was going to have a bit of fun despite the fact that not all the kids liked her. At least she wasn't stuck in here always like me.

Hera? Hera! I called trying to see if she was ready to talk now but I guess she was not due to lack of response. She was just as broken as I was from yesterday.

I walked into the bathroom, took my shower and got out. I went to the closet to get an outfit to where, I settled for a white tank top and jeans not like I had lots of options.

I put on the outfit and walked to the mirror to look out myself. Seeing my reflection, I really wanted to take off my jeans. I looked super skinny in them, they showed off my thin legs making me feel worse than I already was.

"Don't you think that Tank top reveals too much of your ugly scarred arms?" I turned startled to see the Beta in my room glaring at me.

I hadn't heard her get in, how did she get in? could she teleport like Lycus too? That would make her awesomely perfect for him.

"Go..od m..orni..ng." I stammered not knowing what to say as her glare on me didn't get any less contentious.

"What is good about the morning when I have your stupid ass in this castle?!" She growled at me moving closer as I backed up against the table, "You still don't want to leave uhn?"

"Leave me alone." I mumbled.

"What was that you said?!" She grabbed my hair yanking me from the table, "You have got quite the mouth uhn?"

I whimpered as her grip tightened.

"I saw you last night and saw how heart broken you were seeing Lycus and I together." She smirked, "He is mine, know that for your own good, so stay away from him or better still leave this place with your useless pup!" She grinned, "You can never take my place, you can never be good enough for him nor will you ever

be accepted here."

I snapped!

I reached out a hand slapping her hard across the face as I felt power and confidence like never before.

She let go of my hair reeling back in shock at what had just happened. I too was stunned myself.

She held her pained cheek looking at me with blazing eyes, "Did you just slap me bitch?!" She shrieked.

I backed away in fear at what she might do as her wolf was surfacing.

"What is going on here?" A voice asked. It was Helena. I sighed in relief, never have I been so happy to see someone in my life. She walked through the open door and Laya quickly straightened her self glaring at me.

"Good day to you both." Helena smiled, "What is going on?"

"I was just greeting the Alpha's special guest." She said with contempt lacing her voice, "Isn't that right Nyx?" She asked and I nodded in affirmative as a gaze bore holes into me.

"I will take my leave now." She bowed her head to Helena and left the room but not before sending me a glare that said 'I will deal with you later, bitch!'

"Good morning ma'am." I greeted Helena as she walked towards me.

"Oh come on Nyx, you can call me mother." She said dropping a kiss on my cheek leaving me dumbfounded at what she just said, "You look lovely."

"Thank you." I blushed at her words, "Mother." I said and she smiled widely.

"Come, you have been in here for long, I will show you around." I nodded silently and followed her out of the room as she began chatting about stuff.

"I have a question." I said drawing her attention.

"What is it dear?" She turned to me.

"What rank are you? I saw the way you were treated with utmost respect at the dining hall the other day."

"I am one of the members of the wolves council." She said, "I am the head of the wolves council." and my jaw dropped in shock.

I couldn't believe it.

"Shocked?" She chuckled as we continued the walk.

"So you are like next to the moon goddess?" I asked.

"Yes." She nodded.

"That is amazing." I smiled, "It would feel great to be beautiful and also powerful." Unlike me, I reminded myself.

"Unlike you?" She said with a raised brow and I felt embarrassed that I had said that out loud.

"Don't think so lowly of yourself Nyx." She sighed, "You are beautiful and much more, most importantly you are a silver wolf."

"Yea, an abomination." I gave a dry life at my pathetic state.

"You are not an abomination." She said, "You are much more than you think."

"I do not understand." I was confused, "Why do you say so?" I asked her as her words were mumbled up in my head.

"You, my dear." She turned to me with a smirk halting me in my tracks, "You are among what we call 'potens lupi' "

"What does that mean?" I still didn't know what she was talking about.

"Powerful wolves."

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