Adrian told me he would tell me later since it was a more serious thing to talk about. But not serious in a bad way since "every mated couple does it at some point."

I just wanted to know what it was. I wanted to fit in as normal as possible, but I guess that wasn't going to happen anytime soon. For one, everyone sees me as Alpha Adrian's mate and their future Luna.

Our shopping spree was over and the whole time Adrian seemed like he was in a way dreading something when we were leaving. Was he mad that I asked him about being marked? I'm just curious and he has to understand that I'm new to a lot of things that have so drastically barged into my life.

The drive back to the house was filled with anticipated silence and the music softly playing from the radio. I was looking out the window, appreciating my freedom, taking in everything I missed. Eventually, the house came into view and Adrian put the car in park. He got out and opened my door and walked me in like the gentleman he is.

"You can go ahead and go to your room if you want too. I'll bring you're bags up," he said softly, tucking a piece of hair behind my ear. His touch was comforting that I leaned into it. The urge to be embraced by him the rest of the day was strong.

"Okay."

I went up the stairs and went to my room that was near his. Walking by his made me wonder if I'd ever be comfortable enough to be with him like that. I mean I would eventually right? The smell was intoxicating .

His smell was intoxicating.

For some reason, my feelings for him are getting stronger everyday. It's harder to keep my guard up, but I think that I've come a long way since I was with Sir. And compared to other wolves (and the fact that I haven't even shifted yet) mates usually do everything very quickly. And that's what everyone probably thought about Adrian finding his. This pack knows that they don't have an official Luna yet. And they probably know why too. That's what makes me feel worse.

Walking into my room, I immediately slumped myself on the bed. We were at the mall for a while. Being around so many people in a long time was nerve racking. Especially since they know who I'm supposed to be.

A couple minutes later, Adrian walked in with the bags of the clothes we bought for me earlier. He laid them near the closet, ready to put them up. I walked over behind him to help. I was still waiting for him to answer my question.

"I just didn't want to lay everything on you all at once," he started off. He must've felt the vibe I was giving off. I'm pretty sure anyone could tell how anxious I was becoming for him to tell me.

"I think I can handle it," I countered. I've already been through so much. I just want to know everything that I need to right now.

He sighed. He brought me to the end of the bed where we both sat down. Putting his hand in mine, Adrian turned to me, but didn't look me in the eye. Instead he looked away from me with a far away.

"Being marked.. is like saying that you will be connected to me in every way."

"What do you mean?" I questioned. Urging him to continue.

This time he looked at me, "It means that after I do it, you will start to go into heat. You're going to want me in that way."

It took me a minute to process what he said, but I eventually got it. My cheeks went red with the thought of it. I would have to have sex. And he and I both know I wouldn't be ready for that. I trust him but not completely. Besides that point, I haven't been with anyone before. Let alone kiss someone.

But Adrians not a random person my heart keeps telling me. And as bad as I want to believe it, and put all my trust in him, I can't. I can't let my walls go down all the way.

"I didn't want to tell you so soon about it because I know there are many other things that you have to adjust too. And if that means I have to wait to do things the normal way then I will. I care about you, love." He caressed my face and cradled it. I couldn't look him in the eye. I've already told myself so many times that I can't change fate. I can't change the fact that he's my mate. Every time things like this happens, when i'm not aware of things because of how long i've been locked away, I wish that he had a normal mate. I don't deserve him.

A few minutes had passed. His hand was away from my face and we were both looking at the ground. Me specifically, was looking at our feet. His were longer touching the floor while mine were barely touching. The silences we had were becoming less awkward.

I decided to ask what was on my mind for those few minutes, "Well," I started. He looked at me. "How would it work?"

"How would what work?"

And I'm the one that doesn't know anything.

"You marking me. How would like.. the process go?"

He smirked a little bit, " Are you trying to tease me sweetheart?" He had a little grin too.

"U-um no, I would never," I stuttered out. Here he goes again. Making all these butterflies appear in my stomach. I shuffled a little bit away from him so he couldn't hear how hard my heart was beating.

"Relax," he assured me, " I'm just messing with you. I know you're just wondering," he said with a laugh. I joined him just a little bit. I was embarrassed that he took it that way.

"With your approval of course, I would kiss down your neck like this," he suddenly scooted closer to me and put his head into my neck. He left a trail of butterfly kisses right down to where my collarbone and my neck met. He gave me a lingering one there.

My body was on fire. I couldn't move at all and there were tingles running all throughout my body. He most definitely could hear my heart beating now. I didn't want him to stop. This mate thing really does some things to you.

"Then i would do this," he lifted his left hand to cradle my face again. I leaned into his touch. Welcoming every bit of it.

"Then," he paused, " I would bite you here," he kissed that same spot again giving me and instant rush of butterflies. "It's going to hurt though, for a little bit. It'll get better at the end," he concluded.

He rose up to kiss my cheek and then backed away from me. He stood up to go to the door. I was still staring at where he was just sitting.

Wow.

I looked at up at him to see him with a grin on his face. He knew what he did.

If that was him teasing me, I have a lot to learn.