Her whole world is beautiful.

If someone asks her how she describes her whole words, she will say that it is full of the freshly cooked bread aroma in the morning and a warm humming of a gentle voice. It will always be full of loving touches and a gentle smile that makes her feel that she is the most lovely and loved one in the world.

[ Do you know, Arisha?] and her beautiful sister, with her warm smile, will stroke her hair gently and look into her eyes. [ I always love you.] and gives her words with no sound that she could hear, but she will understand eventually, how her sister loves her.

" I love you too, sister!" and the fact that her beautiful sister will brighten her smile every time she tells her this, her heart thumping, her cheeks blushing and she thinks that she couldn't be happier than this

' I am happy if I am with my sister.' she is the beautiful world of her that she does not want to lose, she is the place where she can feel safe and comfort. She will be the one that she chooses over anything, but, why.... why are people always thinking differently?

" She is so pitiful to live that life."

" Can someone adopt the young one? It might be better if someone else takes care of her."

" Her sister is deaf and muted, what could she do to take care of the young one?"

" How unfortunate, you are."

" So pitiful."

" If your sister is not like that-"

She could not understand the adults who told her about that. She could not understand the pitiful expression when they looked at her. She could not understand why they think her sister only will give her the unfortunate. Is it because she could not talk and could not hear? Is it because she is different from the other? Is that the reason that makes everyone think that if someone like her sister takes care of her, she will only give her miserable life?

" I just don't understand what are you doing?" said Miranda. The landlord of her new house in this Empire Malum. She looked like she stood in front of her door while talking with Rosan who visited.

" What do you mean?"

" Why do you do all of this? It is not like you," she said. " You give people like them this house, you treated them so well, and I did help you until now is because you are my friend. But, many people complain about how could I let someone like her, taking care of a child."

"... If you just want to talk about this, I want you to leave," said Rosan, calmly. " There is a child inside and there is also Irish-"

" She could not hear anyway! Just listen to me and just send her to an orphanage or something-"

It is always like this eventually. Every single time, people will always say the same thing all over again while pitying her and blaming her sister who did not do anything wrong. She never does something bad. Never steal someone's food, never kick and hit someone, never get mad at her... the only thing she did was only give her so much love that Arisha always misses every day.

It is hurting her so much every time they talk about her sister that way. It is like the tears will just stream down her cheeks. She wants to cry so much and say, " GO AWAY!" onto their face but how could she do that?

[ Is it to your liking?] while her sister will always take care of her while smiling gently like this.

' sister, Ms.Miranda is talking bad about you right now.' and even though she wants to tell her so bad about it, she ended up just smiling, " Yes! It is really delicious." as brightly as she could while ignoring the conversation that she did not want to hear.

Her sister always says that in this world, there are no bad people. If they did do something bad, there is always a reason behind it. So her sister always tells her that she has to be nice to people. Arisha could say it is true, but at the same time, it is not. Because even though she might be too young to understand that, but,

' sister, there are always people who will do the bad thing even we are kind to them.'

because she saw it on her entire life.

At first, She never understands it but, recently she start to understand it quite well. Just like before back in the village when her sister toiled and did the only work she can do out of pity from people- even though her sister did it well, even though her sister did a good job, people will underestimate her as always. How hard she was for being extra careful to not mess up anything, a little simple mistake will get her blamed entirely. Because some people were seeing her as someone who will only bring the burden, then blaming her sister for everything that happened to her because of her disability.

" It is fortunate the injury is not that severe! But, how if it happens again? We can not guarantee that nothing will happen again if someone like her takes care of a child like this!" the old lady said. She was yelling back then in Pope Joseph's house, she was the old lady in her village who found her unconscious after falling down from the tree while wandering around.

" I will take her if you don't want to do something about it! she is still a child and you let someone muted and deaf to be her guardian?!"

and she was crying so hard every time she heard that. Running to her sister who is confused and worried at the same time. Hugging her with her trembling hands." Sister! Please don't let her take me away from you!" and crying it out loud to the miserable sister of hers. Who looked at her with a faint smile, who then bowed and begged so hard to someone who yelled at her. Then she was just doing the language that no one understands nor even cares too, pitifully.

She was so miserable, that her heartache so much and she cried hard.

'It was me who wandered around when you told me not to.'

'It was me who climbed that tree.'

'It was all on me.'

But, why they were angry with her sister only? Why do they give that kind of expression that looks like her life was so miserable while they were the ones who think that way? Why did they blame it on her sister and made her have to bow for forgiveness for everything she never did.

There is nothing wrong with her sister. So why people can not stop and let her be,

" My mommy said that you can come to my house to eat." said her friend from the academic.

" Ah, thank you but my sister will cook my dinner for me," she said while smiling brightly. " She will be home soon."

and her friend of her frowned. " Are you okay?"

" What do you mean?" she said while smiling faintly. " I am okay."

" Your sister is deaf and muted, what thing she could do?" asked her. " My mommy said that it is dangerous for you to live with someone like her. So, you can co-"

'Sister...I am so sorry.'

she might once again just put her in a hard situation. She might once again burden her because of her action. But, her heart is so aching, and they never stop talking even she says so. It hurts her so much as though she screams, yells, and grips her friend's hair hard- the pain in her heart will not go away.

" APOLOGIZE TO MY SISTER!" and even she screams it out loud, everyone will just look at her in such pitiful expression.

and just when she looks at her sister, who runs over with worry. The tears that she holds burst eventually. " I am so sorry." and she said to her miserably. " I am so sorry..." and repeating her words even she is now in her embrace crying so hard. Hugging her tightly so that she will not out of her sight. Hugging her tightly so no one tries to take her to go away from her sister.

'Sister, are you now bowing again to the people?'

'Sister, I am the one who did something bad so you don't have to ask for forgiveness.'

'Sister, I am so sorry...but my heart is so aching, I don't think I am strong enough to see you begging to them.'

She is so sorry, she still not strong enough to show people, how the world is beautiful every time she is in her embrace. She is still not strong enough. So please,

'Forgive me.'

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