Merry Christmas and hope to you a wonderful time.

This chapter was supposed to be posted earlier but it got deleted and so I had to redo it...

Well anyhow I'll just do it again and give you nice reading

Sherah's POV

I kind of feel sad as to how Saladin has still only one arm and so he can't eat properly... but at least I'm here to help him.

Yurnixa was talking to me about what happened after I got teleported, which was quite tragic for them.

Not only was she really saddened to my death which they thought but also really lifeless.

I remember something and that involved my princess younger sister mentioning that she loves Sal...

Did I took him away from her but if that is truly true then why would Sal ask me first.

Does it mean that Sal doesn't feel the same about that person or maybe he does but is still confused.

Though I really don't know what is going on in his mind especially when he agonized a lot just a week ago.

Will he dispose of me if he meets up with that girl called 'Nyorin' or 'Laura'?, I really hope not...

I might be useless in showing my emotion and I might be terrible in having a relationship but that doesn't mean that I'll not try.

Its best that I don't think and more as I need to do something first.

I talked with Yin regarding where is my Mother location which might be the first time I seen her in maybe years.

Though the promise I made with the Head of this castle may have incinerated already as I didn't protect my princess in this past month.

So maybe the money I'm promised has been declined and so I may have to work another three years or more...

I told the group about how I'm going to visit my mother and Sal wanted to join but I declined his offer as I really don't want him to see my state if I meet my mother....

Yurnixa didn't question which surprised me but... I have a bad feeling about something as she has been looking at Sal with those fuming eyes.

Kioni made a joke stating that I'm lying and I was hiding my menstrual cycle to them which made Sal face bright red as he averts his away from me.

This made em annoyed as I pull Kioni cheeks hard which made her plead to stop while still laughing at the same.

Anyhow, that was before already and now I'm darting my way through the castle halls as I remember where my mother's room is located which if my memory serves me right, then it would be two floors up and the first room to the right.

Guards are supposed to be eating lunch by now and so there would be less than usual in the castle.

As I was moving upwards the brick spiral stairs that contains loads of windows, I noticed from looking outside that it was getting cloudy.

Well some time later, I finally reached mothers room and so I opened the door to get in.

The first thing I saw was my mother, she was... in a horrible state as I notice the cold sweat just under her once completely violet hair.

Her face was not showing any relief while her body is really skinny like.

I sat down beside her on a chair which then I hold upon her hand and felt the coldness with her slow beat.

She's not dead which I really am happy about but I really-really can't stand to watch her suffer.

My tears were falling from my eyes and I can't help but cry while muttering out loud enough so she can at least hear her daughter.

'Please wake up mother!' was what I kept on repeating for a long time which jogged some of my memory when I first so her in this state.

I remember that I was already in a bad state from losing my friend and father but when she collapsed in front of my face, it was devastating.

I blame myself as... I didn't kept my cool at all ever since my friend died.

My mother tried cheering me up which annoyed me greatly and so I shouted at her... and at that moment, was the only time that I wished I didn't exist for saying that.

I didn't want to remember it as my heart can't take the intense pain from knowing on what I did.

Did I mention that I was never the good type of person, well maybe I did or not.

Even now I'm still having this lingering feeling that Sal was my friend from before which was maybe the main reason that I loved him...

Call me a scum, but I won't ever leave my mother as she truly cares about me.

Saladin's POV

I really wonder if Sher doesn't want me to meet her mother for a reason...

Well it is something that I should not pry on and so I decided to follow Kioni back to the room as she says that there is something she needs to know from me.

But I was stopped by Yurnixa as she needs me for not much time which Kioni understood and said that she'll be waiting in the room.

The princess face was showing annoyance with a tinge of anger in her eyes when she looks at me.

She then asked to follow her which I did but I can't help but notice as to how the breeze coming from the window, blows her auburn hair which was completely different from Nyorin's color.

After following her into a balcony, she then looked back at me with a fearsome eyes that actually showed that she is a princess that suits her age.

She then asked me

"Why are you acting so carefree and not even caring about the ones who are sobering to you as we speak?" - Yurnixa

I then replied while having a puzzled expression

"What do you mean by that?" - Me

She then snickered and then yelled

"Don't play foolish!, I'm talking about Nyorin and Laura!, they are completely devastated from knowing your not in this world which I can tell clearly as to how they care about you. But look as to how you are right now, not giving a damn about them while even having another pair of girls to follow you, if I knew your personality was similar to a playboy then I wouldn't even dare give you any of the girls!" - Yurnixa

She's right about that, I really do sometime tend to forget about them while not even caring to know what they're feeling right now... but that doesn't mean I don't care about them...

My true personality everyday is seeming to disappear which gives fear into my body every time but I'll never forget about them as long as I live.

I then replied back to her while making sure that I'm serious

"I really do care about them and Its not your damn choice as to what they feel about someone!" - Me

She then yelled back at me

"Then tell me this!, if you truly cared about them then why are you not desperate to ask me about what happened to those girls but instead you act nonchalantly with Sherah!" - Yurnixa

She then grabbed my collar while pulling me up which surprised me as to how strong she became once her eyes turned bright yellow.

Her eyes was water and her face was showing anger towards me.

I can't help but accept my defeat as I really don't know why I act this way in this past month.

Even though I know on how Laura and Nyorin feels about me.

I felt sadness towards myself as to what I become.

There was nothing to say but I at least told her

"I really don't know why I'm like this... I really don't know why I don't care much about them even though they really made me happy before. Now I have some one I love and another one I loved as much but that doesn't give an excuse to why I acted like that from before." - Me

I could hear her say 'tch' as she stops holding upon my collar.

She then tells me

"If you dare leave Sher alone and don't care about her, then I promise you that the last thing your dead self can see is the head of yours in a pike" - Yurnixa

I was left to look at the balcony as she leaves while giving me a change to what I must think.

On how Nyorin and Laura gave me a kiss while truly showing their affection towards me but instead I made out with someone else leaving them with a hollow feeling.

I hit myself in the face while I really don't know as to what the fuck is going on with my life.

As I punch the wall and don't care about the bleeding coming out, I tell to myself as to why I keep on changing to the worse or better.

The promise I made with Nyorin as she just wanted to hear about my feelings but why... did I forget about it.

Why am I not in a hurry to meet them again!

Is it plainly because I'm living peacefully right now or is it because of that weird teleportation from before.

I don't know, I really don't know...

After some time, I stopped being pissed at myself and returned back to the room which made Kioni worried as to why is my left hand bleeding.

I just told her that its none of her business as I go inside the bathroom to wash my hand.

My mood was really horrible right now and I can't help but still feel anger to myself.

When I exit the bathroom, I saw Kioni wiping her tears which made stunned as to why she is crying.

I asked her on why she is in tears which made her look at my face while shivering and then said

"I really am no where in your heart right?..., I'm someone close to a stranger and someone that begs for your affection..." - Kioni

At that moment, I knew that I messed up again.

Even though the memory of her is still minor but she was still someone who cared about me.

She then continued speaking

"I tried learning on how to be use for you but there seems to be nothing that can open a bit of your heart towards me.." - Kioni

There is no words that I can think of as she continues speaking

"You give kisses to Sherah than nothing to me unless I show that I want it... I'm nothing but a pest to you, right?.... you're just pitying me as to how I have no one now..." - Kioni

I can't do anything but try calm her down by hugging her but she resisted as she stops me from doing so.

"I don't want your false affection!, and I'm fed up with your pithiness..." - Kioni

She kept on resisting me as I try hug her.

Kioni's right about as to why I'm showing much more favor towards Sher than her which I can understand her feelings right now...

Her eyes were teary as she takes a bag which is hers from the shelf.

If I don't stop her now, it will be the last time that we will meet again.

She was going to exit the rooms door until I grabbed hold into her arm.

Her sadness were showing and her hands were shaky as she says

"Let go Sal..., I'm nothing to you..." - Kioni

She kept on repeating 'let go' but I didn't.

Tear could be seen dropping as it hit the ground.

She then says one last time 'let go' until she falls to the ground on her knees.

I pulled her up and made sure that she looks into my face.

Kioni looked upon my eyes as I tell her

"I would never let you ago away from my life until I die" - Me

She made a surprised face but averted from me as I make my face closer to hers.

The resisting was lighter than before, and so I gave her a kiss on the lips.

It was nothing but a small one but then she kissed me also which lasted longer than before.

That kiss was enough for something to change in me.

Memories came flooding into my brain which were related all about Kioni.

Though some where kind of disturbing to see my past self being quite perverted.

But never the less, I remembered her completely and I can't help but hug her tightly as she drops the bag she was carrying.

The memory about her getting killed was the most horrible one.

I can't help but cry also as I tell her 'Welcome back' and kept on hugging her.

She was surprised at first but also hugged back as she says 'You finally remembered'.

I now knew as to how precious she was to me and how she changed me ever so slightly from before.

"I'm so sorry that I forgotten you and on how I threated you..." - Me

"Not your fault Saladin as you encountered a lot of problem just because of me and without you, I would not be standing here right now" - Kioni

I'm not a man if I don't at least give her something that she will remember.

I then carried her into a princess carry and then placed her onto the bed which brightened her face the whole time.

She then uttered

"Don't tell me were going to..., but Sherah will be mad..." - Kioni

Her face was really red and she is so cute right now.

The door then opened and Sher entered which I expected.

I then did the same thing with Sherah as I carry into a princess carry and place her in the bed but she was more shocked than Kioni.

They were both red as they look at each other.

Sher then said to me

"Aren't we-we suppose to do... this stuff after marriage?" - Me

I then became baffled as to what they are thinking and then I said while being blushed slightly

"We're not doing that... as I thought that we'll celebrate for something"

Kioni made a pout while for Sher, she made a relief sigh.

Sher then said

"So what are we celebrating for exactly?" - Sher

Kioni then asked also

"Yeah Saladin?" - Kioni

I then told them

"Well since I finally got my memories back completely which regards Kioni,-" - Me

Sher made a puzzled expression and Kioni just blushed while making a downcast expression.

I then continued

"Lets enjoy our selfs by getting wasted on some good wine!" - Me

Sher stood up from bed while having a flustered face and then she smacked my head while yelling out loud

"We're too young for wine right now!" - Sher

I then replied back while rubbing my head as to how she hit hard

"It doesn't matter, its not like we will do anything wrong right?" - Saladin

I then pulled out a champaign under the bed which made the girls shocked as to why the hell am I having one under the bed.

They didn't ask why which kind of relieved me.

There are already glasses on the mini kitchen in this room.

Sher declared that she wouldn't drink any which made Kioni tease her by saying that she is still a child who sticks to juice.

This made Sher change her mind and told me that she will just take a sip.

****Thirty Minutes Later*****

Oh hell man, remind me to not drink ever as the first time I took a sip, it destroyed my stomach while burning it to ashes.

Kioni is on the bed sleeping while having this happy face as she drunk a lot..

Sher is drunk and is now asking if she can have a baby which is utterly cute.

I swear the more she drinks, the more I see her other self.

Right now she is poking my cheeks while undressing herself.

I tried stopping her but every time I do, she gives a kiss to me.

Good thing she slept before she could work with her... undergarments.

*Sigh*, I'll never bring wine again...

Look at the mess they made in the room.

Kioni's pantie is on the chandelier, Sherah's clothes are all over the place and wine is spilled in the floor!

Looks like I have some work to be done...

Nyorin's POV

Today is the day where we would leave this town which is called JlineZukra(Heaven's Doorway) if you didn't know already.

We had to stay for extra time as Jentun has some work to be done.

Right now, I'm looking for a good wand for Laura as she needs it in order to make some spells accuracy perfect.

Laura changed for the worse ever since Saladin died which I really can't blame her.

The way she talks and how much she usually eat was way lesser than before.

Her hair became long and she doesn't even care to comb it unless I do it for her.

As we walk through the shop district, a group of guys came to us and one of them asked

"Why are cute girls like you, roaming around this place, you should really join us and will make sure that you'll enjoy it"

We tried ignoring them and leave but they blocked our path which so I then yelled at them while pulling out my sword

"Do you want an extra hole in your ass?, if not then move aside filthy rats" - Me

Some of them shivered from what I said, but one guy came while pulling out a dagger then replied to me

"What's a girl doing with a sword like that, perhaps you should hand it to someone that knows how to use it like me as girls are only meant for-"

Before he could finish his words, an ice spear appeared from the ground and stabbed the guy from his jaw until his brain.

The cold ice was dyed in blood red as the people around felt shocked from what happened.

Laura's eyes were lifeless, she can't see anything but she knows as to what is right to do.

She really did change..., not only is Laura not hesitant on killing but also doesn't care as if they are bugs pestering her.

The other guys were drenched in fear as some fall down in their back, a guy pisses in his pants and another one running for his life.

I told her that we're causing a commotion and so we decided to move through the nearby alley as quick as possible.

Laura doesn't need to chant any longer as she was training the entire time since we traveled.

I don't even think that I'll survive if I fight her seriously as she can... summon icicle creatures that will give anyone nightmares.

If only Saladin was alive, then this might have never happened...

Thank you for reading!