i could never quite figure out why i became attached to you so quickly

yes, i was a particularly romantic person, i believed in love and soulmates and forevers, but i never quite grew to like someone as fast as i had liked you

you had dug your way into my heart and all it took was a flash of your infamous smile and the trail of your finger up my arm

and it had hurt, but for some reason it had seemed worth it

til this day, even with the guilt of what i saw weighing on my heart, i still think you were worth it

because in the few months that i had known you, gotten to experience you, i found myself, and i know that people say that you can't truly know who you are when you're this young, but you showed me

and i thank you for that every night

except for yesterday...

i'm sorry