The Bastards Pov

Do you know what to do when you fall in love with someone?

…Again, this is a subheading.

So, what’s that got to do with my question, I’m talking about that stupid word here!

I hadn’t known that over three months, I had slowly increase the value in my heart of my little fox as much as I had.

Slowly, I started thinking that a month with her wasn’t enough, then two months wouldn’t be enough…Now…I’m starting to think that even a year wouldn’t be enough!

That my desire wouldn’t be sedated, I had completely never known that I had already started to fall in love with her.

Suddenly, having grown to know my feelings, I started to panic!

What the hell, she was my captive!

Such a sweet, hot, sexy captive…But still a bloody captive!

Shit!

I looked at the sleeping fox beside me and realized we had missed dinner again. But, I hadn’t the heart to wake her, especially since I had not been able to stop myself for the third time, again.

I knew things had changed slightly in the past couple of weeks, as at first, I had wanted to make the sex last, then, I wanted to be gentle, then, I liked how she reacted while I was gentle…But the last time, I knew I was cherishing her like a first time. She was just so damned perfect!

I felt so great in this room, but then, I felt great outside when she was with me out there too!

I guess I had, for some time now, been making love to her…It wasn’t just sex anymore…I…

When I looked at her sometimes, I just couldn’t help but show that I was valuing her more and more and suddenly, bam!

Now everything makes utter and complete sense!

Probably as early as seeing her for the first time, I was infatuated with her!

What an idiot I’ve been, to not even know until now!

Well fuck me!

Looking at her again, I felt that normal feeling I’ve had for awhile now. My heart was beating radically, and I had the simple urge to reach out and touch her…

I, for some time, had sorta forgotten about my plans uh…

That’s right! I was going to impregnate her and send her back like what happened to my mum…How could I forget!?

And all this time…I’ve been walking raw inside her…Hell, she’s probably already pregnant!

With all the sex we’ve had…It would be more surprising if she wasn’t pregnant…

What am I going to do now!?

I already knew, that I didn’t want to send her away. I wanted her by my side! I want her pussy here every day!

With my feelings the way the where…How could I get over that in a month, what a dickhead!

What would be the best way to keep her?

Well, since we hadn’t talked about kids…Hey, what if she…Right now…

If there was someone tiny, already there…

I looked at her exposed stomach and desperately wanted to touch it.

Prior to this moment, I hadn’t given kids a thought. Not that I didn’t care, but more so because I had made the choice that I didn’t want too…I wore condoms, so I didn’t have to think about that kind of future yet.

But now…If there was a little one there, what would I do?

I just felt like she would hate me if she ever found out that I had done this on purpose as it was a part of one of my plans…

Right, from now on, no more awesome rawness…I must use condoms…But…What if she asks why I suddenly started…

Putting both my hands to my face, I rubbed my tired eyes.

After I tried to calm my thoughts, I couldn’t help but think and feel for what her thoughts were about children.

If she were to want one, then hadn’t we already started that journey then…

But what if she said no.

I sighed, knowing two lots of ‘no’s’ that she does.

I know a few ‘yes’s’ too!

Ah! She filled my head way too much!

Work, ever since my fox has been in this room, had been more of a hindrance then normal. I couldn’t wait to return, I couldn’t wait to bury myself inside her!

Nowadays, I’ve added a few more ‘can’t wait’s’ but it’s just way too embarrassing to admit!

How could a guy freely admit that even just eating and watching a movie with their woman seemed to be satisfying!?

Enough of that!

Sighing, once again, I just didn’t know what to do. All I knew, was that right now, I wanted her in my arms and to fall sleep.

So, I did exactly what I wanted…

Upon waking, I felt the absence of the bed beside me and slowly looked around.

Where was she?

Rubbing my head, while sitting up on the side of the bed, I heard the toilet flush and then the shower running.

Smiling, I couldn’t help but be happy that she was awake before I had to go to work.

On the rare, selfish occasion, I would wake her up before work, but most of the time I would let her sleep.

This time, she had gotten up all by herself. Wasn’t that a good sign?

Was I on her thoughts as much as she was on mine!?

Could it be…That we wreck each other’s day?

That would be great, right?

If she was in love with me, then she should just stay here!

Despite myself, I couldn’t help but be happy with the idea of her willingly staying with me, but, how was I to know?

Do I really have enough balls to just pop the question?

Are you freaking kidding me!?

Hell no…Why can’t she do it? That would ruin my pride, wouldn’t it!?

Well, shit…

Breathing out a deep breath, I couldn’t believe I was having this type of conversation in my head when I was still half asleep!

Ok, time to take a shower with my woman!

I let out a small chuckle to my inner words.

I liked the sound of that, my woman!

Walking into the bathroom, I stepped straight into the shower and planted a big kiss on her exposed, naked shoulder.

Encircling my arms around her, I sighed.

I felt her bend over and my god, she was so damned hot!

Desire, in the form of blood, started to show itself in my prized possession and I banged it against her hip.

“Do you remember?”

“…Uh?” I looked at her, having been completely transfixed to the idea of having sex with her. “Remember what?”

“I wanted to go out today. You said I could.”

How could I forget…Now that I knew that I was in love with her, it only made sense that I wanted to make her happy.

See! It’s this kind of embarrassing shit that should never get out!

“Yeah.”

“Then here.” She said, handing out to me, to what she calls her ‘precious’.

It was all her idea. This thing was so that she meant that she was coming back. It was an exchange of hostages…

The ‘precious’ always made me curious and now that I had it in my hands, I didn’t want to give it back!

Haha! I have the power now!

“Right!”

I saw her look then, it seemed like she was not calm, not like her usual self…

“What’s wrong baby?”

I had to admit, I was worried, because she hardly ever showed any other expression while they weren’t having sex…Hehe, but she showed a hell of a lot more while they were having sex!

She smiled lightly at me then and got out of the shower.

I frowned and grumbled, knowing I should finish before I followed her out.

But dam, she was so tempting!

Quickly, I soaped myself and got out to dry myself, seeing her getting dressed next to the bed.

I didn’t know what it was, but something weird was going on. Was she going to leave this early? Why did she have her back to me?

So not cool!

I rushed to finish, only to see her leave and get stopped by a man outside the door.

Yeah, I did remove one of the guards, but…

She turned back to me, as I was putting on my watch and I nodded at the ‘guard’.

I quickly picked up my jacket and rushed out to meet back up with her again.

“Which car can I take?” She asked me.

I don’t want you to take a car, I want you upstairs, in that bed, naked!

I coughed back my thoughts and pointed, “…That one. What time will you be back?”

She shrugged, “I was just going to have a picnic and then come back, maybe go for a walk or something.”

Dam, even though that sounded a bit boring…Why did I wanna go with her!?

“Ok.” I gave her a kiss on the forehead and stepped back.

Watching her drive off slowly…Was it ok for me to regret?

Regret letting her leave that room, or was it regret because of not going with her? Or both?

I sighed and then turned towards the reception desk…