They opened the door. They opened the door and led me to the reestablished ornate door that leads to Grays office. They treated me kindly because they were scared.

They opened the door and walked me in. He dismissed them, and they looked at him like he was crazy. "Sir, she is dangerously hostile are you su-" One of the soldiers were trying to warn Gray of a mistake he is most likely going to make by asking to be left alone with me.

Gray shot him and didn't even flinch while he did it. There is blood splattered on my face. I go to touch my cheek, but my hand is blocked by a servant rushing to get it off my skin.

I am confused because I had never seen someone get shot. He is just lying there dead. I watch as the other soldiers leave the soldier lying there in a puddle of his own blood.

I can't speak. How can someone die so quickly? So easy. I don't even realize that my legs have moved me towards Gray. I go to grab his gun, and he pulls his arm away. "What are you doing?" He asks in surprise. I wanted to see if it could kill me, is what I wanted to say. Instead, I answered with, "I wanted to hold it. I have never held a gun before." I smiled and walked backwards.

I turn and walk back to where I was standing. The servant lady finished cleaning the blood that had splattered on my face and dress.

I devised a plan to steal it from him. I stole this notebook, I can steal a gun.

He put his gun up and motioned towards me to come closer. I walked towards him. I stopped two feet away from him. He stepped a foot closer. I was very aware of the distance between us. One foot of space between us.

My heartbeat started to go faster. I thought I was going to have a heart attack.

My breathing was quicker. I didn't understand what these symptoms were. I had never experienced this before.

Everything was hot, and I felt light-headed. Dizzy. Everything was spinning.

He grabbed me before I was on the floor. He looked concerned. Was I the only one experiencing this. Were my feelings onesided?

He was saying something. I couldn't hear over my heartbeat. I look up and see him screaming at me. I read his lips that say "Astrid! are you okay?!"

I nod. He looks at me like I am crazy. What did I do? Then I understood. He asked a Rhetorical question. He knows I am not okay. I said the wrong answer, and now he thinks I am crazy.

I think I said I'm sorry. I think I cried. I think I did all the things I have mentioned, but it is all a blur.

I fainted at one point. When I awoke, the windows were black. I assumed that meant it was night time.

I was on Grays office floor. Gray was sitting at his desk writing.

I sit up and look at him. He doesn't seem to notice that I am awake. I look beside him and notice he set his gun on the shelf beside him.

I look at him and see him still writing. I take this time to try and conjure my powers to retrieve the gun from the shelf.

I get it to float up and towards me, and then it is in front of me.

I take the gun in my hands and aim it towards the side of my head. Gray looks up and sees this. He is yelling my name. I ignore him and pull the trigger.