Betrayed Instead of dismay Courage is displayed I been killed and wayliad Still living another day to their eventual dismay When i find out where they may lay Ima hit they ass like ray of destruction Ima cut and stab till they no longer function I was on a mission, till they gave me disruption Now ima be a sav Cut stab till they no longer function I spoke aloud the words that connected to each other in my head. Just to taste them on the winds Morbid little brother but i like that - Eldest tweeted in my ear. It was good to hear any voice i guess. Even my older brother. I was slowly being consumed in rage. Someone, for whatever reason shot me with unerring pricision. One hit one kill Eldest must have felt my vibe. Because he got my attention. Then started speaking: "Let me tell you something about your new monster life little brother. Monsters, unlike human do not cultivate, i mean they do but only Real monsters. Its hard to explain but what your fighting are nothing more than animals. Some of them can think. Some of them can speak but honestly to me. They are little more than livestock. A real monster on the other hand has a Monster Core. Eldest made us come to a stop and became a different Byrd. His antics were gone. His eyes were severe as we made eye contact. His mannerism matured. His speach was to the point. Even his voice seemed different vibrating deeply in my soul. "Very soon little brother your gonna be caught up in a viscious cycle of killed or be killed and the only way to get out of that loop is to grow stronger. So strong that you....Reach the apex of this world You Break the whatever binds your flesh to mortlity" "Real Monster need to eat other monster flesh and consume their cores. Until you body reaches a Certain standard any cultivation techniques i have would make you explode or kill you forever." "In this wild world where man may fear to tread Where dread may tear down even the most Stalwart, battle harden soul. your Humanity may be your undoing. " "Listen well little brother for you have grown dear to me very quickly. Im not telling you to throw that part of you away. For you will always be a Phoenix trapped in a mans body. But i am warning you that it is the weaker side." "Heart and courage are all you can keep. The feelings and thoughts of your past will only get in the way. Soon you will think different and act differently. Not all negative but what im getting at in each person in this world seems to have a learned self and who they really are. The real you. Discard your learned self. Where you learned you were weak and ineffective. You must learn to become someone else, strong and effective. May the effects of your very existence spread far and wide" "Let your real self become one with your Phoenix self to be reborn as someone else. Someone who can conquer the world!" Inspired yet mortified i was lost in my thoughts for a while. Humans grew stronger from just working out. Be it physical, mental or the strength of force. All those things grew stronger through stress. Practice, Repetition, Dedication, Devotion, ephinay. If i wanted to get any stronger than i was now. Ever. i had to wade into them waters. To me this way a radical way of thought. Right now i couldn't wrap my head around it. To escape death, become death. So i would never have to die again? That thought defeat the thoughts of what a hell my life could become. If i stayed human instead of embracing myself. I'd live a life of only dying and running from death. If I was a true coward...i could live peaceful from now on with out a care, at least till my time ran out. I couldnt fathom how many deaths and near deaths id have to face before i got to that level of lifeform. It would be unrealistic to say i wasnt Hot (highly upset) as well a little afraid. I felt like an 18 year old kid who was amped up to become an adult only to find the real world full of dark unknowns and there wasnt no such thing as a free lunch. I had to support myself if i wanted to live how i wanted. Free and unhindered. Hopefully not always alone but completely self reliant. I hard to work or i'd only being embracing the void earlier than expected. Seeing that his words might have unnerved me Eldest tried to comfort me. " Brother why don't you smoke one of those smelly leafs. Break down those nuggets, roll it up and get your smoke on. Im not trying to bring you down. Just wake you up a little." " All the Realms can be harsh but maybe my own experiences have jaded me. They can also be beautiful. Even the struggle to exist can be a lovely thing. Some of the best things is life can only be acknowledged after you fight for them" I nodded. He was right. Maybe i was already changing. I know i needed to i couldn't be the man anymore who was naive enough to not realize he got himself maimed and his bestie dead. I turned to my new brother. He couldn't replace my old brother, no one could. But at least i was never alone. I smiled, smoke going through my lungs, then back out my mouth. Eldest brother i need a new name i dont want to be my old self anymore. Thinking about it he spouted out a name with a giggle. "How about Feni x?" I gawked at him "Da fuc? Whats that even about? "A Feni X. " "its the ultimate code name Hidden and plain sight type shit Deeply psychological" I looked at him from the corner of my eyes and just went with it. I asked for it.