Chapter 119: ???

‘Let me tell you something, Anne. Yes, I need this conversation. Here we are on the edge of the world, prattling about. I am tired. My hand could not raise your sister again.

‘How many times did I forget about it? I wonder how many times we returned back to this place.

‘Are you still breathing Anne? Please live, do not leave me alone until I find him again.

‘It is dark, isn’t it? I wonder how many years has it been since the sun’s crown grace upon us? I remember that day of victory and the sunflowers. I remember it all Anne. Please continue breathing for me Anne, I don’t want to fight alone.

“Anyway, Anne, I could not remember how many times we have slain. We took everything for granted. We didn’t notice a grand evil hidden under some ruins. I remember the quiet night when it happened. I have never told you this but the one who unearthed that evil was Avilina’s former servant. He was taken to the mines, dug up ores only to find an ancient evil that far dates back to the age of iron, Anne?

‘Please listen to me Anne, I want to chat. The darkness that got entombed there spread like wildfire. Remember when we tried to quell it with magic? When that evil destroyed the mother tree and infected the pores of the world, only a few are able to cast magic. I was one of the few but I could not absorb any magic anymore like the usual. My powers are limited and rely now on internal energy that needs to be mitigated.

‘It wasn’t like this. I was stronger than this. I could cleaved anything in half with your sister in my hand. But that wasn’t enough, Anne. Look at us, the dark is here to stay forever and I am forever bound to kill him over and over again in this eternal loop. Unlike him, we have necessitated Anne, yet why are you pale my dear Anne?

‘Please show me your pearl teeth, Anne. Please show me that little smile of yours. I beg of you please do not leave me alone in this darkened world. I know that what I am doing is a sin against the church. But the church will not exist soon and the Empire of Light will die out. Villainy, the killing of thousands resulted in blood and soul magic seeping on that blasted tomb. “When the fields are ripe with blood and souls” what a joke—how could we not know that winning will turn out like that?

‘Anne, are you still there? Have you tired Anne? I know you are, but not until the clock turns to the thirteenth hour. Please, Anne. Ah, thank you for nodding Anne. I really like you. Thank you for being with me, and your sister too for protecting me. I may look old now, and you, a beautiful woman with beautiful eyes, a shapely figure. I wish that you would have married. I wish that I would have when I meet him in that crossroad.

‘That smile of yours, it is calming to me Anne, yet such thing will never happen. I will never be a young fool again that dawdled at the sight of a man. I was a fool, Anne, to think that a mere sight of an item would make me fall. And as if the God spat on my face for slaughtering those knife ears that I am now bound to kill him over and over again by my own hand.

‘Anne, can you recall how many times I have done such deed? You don’t know, Anne? I really don’t want to know either Anne. It is cold Anne, really cold and you are white as snow. I probably am looking worst but yet my face should remain.

‘Anne, are you tired of serving this lady? I know that we have been running for many years now. I know that all is lost and I will repeat the same mistake. Maybe a miracle would occur? Maybe I would find myself into a world where he didn’t venture out after killing all those men in the fields? Do you think that I would Anne?

“Always optimistic Anne, and even though you look tired, jaded and weary, you still have that fire in your eyes. If it wasn’t for your lap maybe then I would have given up. You have grown well and fast, your skills in taking care of your master have been perfected. All these years you are the only one that served me long enough. You are my sister Anne, my maid, my faithful companion that I rode through the darkness. Your hearth like presence, your warmth has kept me still and focuses on staying alive.

‘So please will you kindly stay alive? Please, I am crying here Anne, I really am. You are surprised that I would sob? I would, I have kept strong, but you are the last one. All of them had died. This world has no hope, and this world was lost by something.

‘I understand Anne. You will leave me alone in this hopeless world. Very well, I know that you are tired. Yes, I know that you won’t leave me alone. I am Knight, and you are a mere normal servant that somehow reach this long. So fret not, I will remember you like the others. Please sleep now, I love you Anne, my servant, my maid and my flicker of hope in this eternal darkness.

‘Anne...you left me already. Hmm, I see, the flicker of light, the portal has appeared again Anne. I could see it. I don’t even need to turn my back anymore. Your eyes, I could see it. I could see the damnable portal that would me send back to where it all began, I wonder Anne, will I possess another body? I will have to claim another soul of mine that is heading to those damnable sunflower fields instead to that golden land.

‘Enough, I shall go now. I am sorry I could not bury you, Anne. But I will buy you those candied apples and those tasty dragon seeds you always love. Goodbye. I hope I could see you again. I know I will.’