xx48.11.27 / 13:02 / Sunday

I forgot about these 'no-energy weekends'. Even before my date with Ray was over I was feeling wiped out. He got a little bit weird about it when I excused myself early, he said he had some plans and would it kill me just to stick around a bit longer? But I really was so tired, I barely kicked my shoes off before I collapsed on to my bed and slept until Saturday afternoon. I managed to stay awake long enough to make some proper food and call C2 back (she left a message on Opal checking on me), and put the bar across my door (I was too tired to do it Friday night), then I slept again until now. I'm still really sleepy so I think I'll just give in, but I wanted to write this now. See you tomorrow.

xx48.11.28 / 07:45 / Monday

Feeling good today! There was a message from C2 and another from Ray when I woke up, both of them want to see me after school. I'm so popular! I'm going to meet Ray first right after class, then C2 and I are going to have afternoon tea here in my apartment. She's bringing the tea and biscuits, I just have to provide the kettle and teacups. I bought some nice ones when I was out with Ray last week, it'll be fun to use them.

Time to get ready for school!

xx48.11.28 / 12:54 / Still Monday

Mood of the student body: 'bright'. My mood: also 'bright'. When it makes me feel this good and energetic and positive, I'm almost happy about this whole mood control situation—of course I still have to investigate it, but I might as well enjoy the benefits, right?

Pretty usual morning, interesting discussion in Literature about free will versus determination, kind of appropriate considering the whole mood control thing. Most of the students took the position that free will was an illusion, that choices aren't really choices because everything has to start somewhere. At least I think that's what they were saying. It was one of those discussions where all the points got muddled and at the end nothing was really resolved, but it was fun anyway.

Interesting encounter with Veronica, too. I'm starting to think that she might not be a part of this thing, I mean maybe she's being 'controlled' too rather than being a 'controller'. She was really bright and chirpy and nice and friendly, she even asked about me and Ray in a totally unjealous way, she said it was nice that the two 'new kids' were getting along so well and that we must be good for each other, although she also warned me not to just focus on one person. I really got what she meant, it'd be easy to just ignore everyone else, but I told her that I actually already had another friend. She was surprised but seemed happy, although she didn't know who C2 was. I guess she's not that noticeable, she does try to be discrete, but at the same time she's pretty distinct. Now that I think about it, it's kind of weird that Veronica doesn't remember her. Maybe part of the control thing? It'd be weird if the reason Veronica was so horrible to me to begin with is because she was FORCED to. Maybe she really WAS nice to me that second day, maybe that was the real her and the horrible Veronica Flux was the result of sinister manipulation! That'd be terrible! Okay, for her sake as much as anything, I've got to get to the bottom of this!

First, though, afternoon class. It's maths with Ray so I'm kind of looking forward to it. I'll write more later!