xx48.11.21 / 10:03 / Still Monday

Free study again. This morning I was late for class, but nobody even noticed. The mood today is 'agitated', everyone's jumpy and on-edge and really touchy. I'm keeping to myself and out of everyone's way. Oh, the reason I was late for class is that I went into town and managed to get the stuff I need to make a barricade for my door. The hardware store I went to had a perfect bit of metal I can use, it's actually a really nice weight, I had fun just swinging it around like a sword for a while, probably for longer than I should have. That got me thinking, maybe I should get some kind of weapon. Not a gun or anything like that, obviously, but even just a good stick might be nice. But then, where would I keep it? And it's not as if I ever did much weapons training, just disarms mostly. If I was fighting someone with a knife I could probably get it off them, but my next move after that would just be 'discard it immediately'. I hope I don't have to fight anyone with a knife. I bet getting stabbed isn't fun at all.

Well, anyway, I spent half an hour this morning going through all of my basic hand-to-hand moves, mostly punches and power-throws and, yes, some disarms. I also did some visualisation exercises, if I actually have to fight mind controlled students then I'm going to have to be resolute about it. I can't think of them as innocent victims, even though they would be. I have to think of them as dangerous enemies who will be trying to hurt, capture, or even kill me. Of course, I don't really want to hurt them. But I don't have super-strength, how much damage could I actually do? In any case, my first choice has to be 'avoid fighting altogether', for MANY reasons.

Anyway. I'm meeting up with C2 at lunchtime, we're going to another one of Veronica's stupid self-improvement classes. (They're actually not stupid.) (You know what is stupid though, my stupid honesty curse is stupid.) I'll write more after that.