I'm a tired but a happy man in the evening. It has been a good day with rifle tests, gifts and other stuff prepared and invitations made etc. Before Caecilias joins me in my bed for the night, I give Caecilia a simple little desk lamp made of a single white LED, and I do the installation in her room. There is already power, so quick work. Caecilia loves that I pamper her and almost treat her like the others, which indicates how important she is to me. Honestly, it was because it would be practical for her and reduced a fire hazard, but I don't say that.

After that we just sit on the couch, and I have Caecilia in my arms snuggling up against my shoulder and listening to some music while we cuddle. It just feels wrong that I find myself thinking I would rather sit here with Iselin, or Ciara. Caecilia is nice, charming and knowledgeable, besides beautiful and sexy, and I don't appreciate her enough for who she is. Before we go to bed, Caecilia plays music and sings for me. I like her singing voice which reminds me of some of Eivør Pálsdóttirs songs or Sissel Kyrkjebø, although Caecilia of course does not have such control and training. How was she taught?

Even though I still believe I don't really need a personal maid, or a courtesan, I can't complain about any of the jobs Caecilia does. It's not even certain there is anything every day besides making my bed because I've been banned from doing so, but Caecilia does a good job of keeping my rooms clean, and making sure I have clean clothes hanging in the closet, and my office and workshop is in some order. Caecilia knows that I don't want her to touch certain things, and Ciara tend to be the one to make sure that every tool is back in its spot. Caecilia reminds me of things, and always tries to accompany me on trips on the island if I don't ask her to not come along, which is pretty much like Ciara. I'm trying to get used to it, but it still feels weird going for a walk with Ketill, and have Alith, Gunhild, Caecilia and Ciara following along. Sure, I 'need' a guard, and it's practical that Caecilia always make sure to bring her shoulderbag with a water bottle, slate board, notebook and other useful things. But there is no real reason Ciara needs to come along except she really dislike not knowing where I am, and try to cover it up with always being eager for a walk. It's just that bit of a extra hassle as both Caecilia and Ciara have to make sure they look pretty, and it all becomes so... Official. Instead of two blokes walking and talking, it's the Lord with his entourage making a tour and showing a guest. I miss being a nobody.

Caecilia is quite bad being an assistant as I work in my office or workshop, as she just doesn't have the understanding and interest. Iselin and Ciara still helps me a lot when it comes to my work, but we'll see if it changes when I marry Iselin. I've told Iselin, Ciara and Kari that they don't have to be interested or helpful when it comes to my projects. They are my sambos, not my assistants. But Iselin is usually interested and wants to help and learn. Ciara just wants to be helpful, and seem to be most pleased when she do something tricky that takes time, and I am happy with the result instead of doing it myself. Kari prefer to make sure I have time to do what I want by taking care of the rest of the household. I have not understood what really interests Caecilia yet - except sex and music - although she seems genuinely interested in the greenhouse. I didn't expect thermometers to be interesting, but that might be Caecilia taking the opportunity to be 'available' when Iselin isn't here helping with projects, and Caecilia may also be trying to make herself more interesting to me. We all have agendas.

But I should appreciate Caecilia more for the person she is, and not just because she's nice to cuddle and snuggle with, and damn nice to have sex with. Iselin is still the nicest in bed but Caecilia is second and together they're unbeatable, and not only because they are two bisexual young women who love me and each other's company, but also because I don't feel such pressure on me to satisfy them both and be fair.

My plans for testing at the Academy selection next spring, have led Jane to create other tests, including one with several questions for sexuality. Just to place everyone on a scale 'for fun'. I seriously don't get that, but most women in the building seemed interested in it. But, on a 1 to 7 scale with hetero at 1, gay at 7 and bisexuality at 4, Iselin ended up at 4-5 while Caecilia is 3. Which both agree with.

It feels weird to know that the sweet young woman in my arms who sings a beautiful love song to me, also shares a bed with my future wife, and my female friend. I see nothing wrong with that, but I'm still not really used to such a flexible sexual relationship. As far as I know, I've never had a homosexual or bisexual friend before, even though the odds are that someone should have been. Definitely no one who has been as open about sex as Caecilia is. Then again; I'm a man, and we don't talk about stuff like that.

It is just 'different' to have Caecilia near me most of the time, especially knowing that unlike for example Ciara who just wants to be close most of the time and be useful, and sex might happen every two weeks, Caecilia would prefer if we spent an hour in bed, every day, and it's not limited to the bed. I do not think any of my sambos would say no, or say they have a headache etc just to avoid me. I'm honestly more likely to do so if they gets obviously seductive or ask. But Caecilia is still different, because it's like she's never satisfied. I know she can go from just sharing Jane's bed and having sex with her, to immediately being hungry for more with me, or Iselin, and she's so open about sex that I'm careful about accidentally giving her ideas. Definitely a sex bunny. I'm glad Caecilia is there for Iselin - and Jane - because I'm not man enough to have that appetite, and it might help Jane's loneliness.

But my morale in some areas is clearly negative nowadays and continues to fall. I who was anxious to have sex with Iselin when she in the beginning were my 'employee' and young, now have much more sex with my 3 year younger and still 17 year old courtesan. I still feel dirty about that when I actually think about it, but often I simply don't think about it. It's been a hell of a transition to going from living alone, to having three girlfriends and a courtesan under the same roof in just a few months, in addition to all the other casual sexual partners I've had, and the attempts to make Liv pregnant. Has Liv become pregnant? I may be a on my way to become a father. That is a though I havn't really accepted.

I want radios or telegraphs. I need to finish my simple 'crystal' receiver and test a complete 100% Alfheimr system. Considering how that radio will be able to be made by more people and is easy to explain, I should probably call the receiver a diode radio, and mention that future crystals work as a diode. There is literally some that acts as LEDs and give tiny glowing points. It's just stupid to use two different names. Such a receiver will only work at close range from a transmitter in AM voice mode or spark gap transmitter that is not pure sine wave, but it proves that radio doesn't require any 'magic' components at all - the magic components only make the radio better. Maybe make a coherer receiver instead so I can test without anyone's assistance?

Caecilia brings my wandering thought back as she plays with her hand in my hair on my chest, arms and legs. I feel sorry for Jane when Caecilia talks about how hairy Jane's arms and legs are starting to get and how Jane feels like an interesting mix of masculinity and femininity, especially with how much hair she has between her legs. Humans are definitely very hairy, and it's mostly just problems and can get stuck in teeth, but she likes to feel my hair. And play with Jane's vagina hair and it smells different.

That's a tactical TMI, as I really didn't need that mental picture of Jane. Jane drops tactical TMI's intentionally, but Caecilia does it in for her normal conversation.

That's enough for tonight so I take Caecilia in my arms, and head off for bed.