《Leslie's Poems》DESIRE
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dwelling forever in the hearts’ deepest desires
recall now what you said to me all those years ago
do you want?
Do you yearn?
Did you ever care?
Recall it again and again and again
You could scarcely remember
Something burning on the back of your throat
who do i go to where am i oh god oh god what do i do
who am i
Thoughts surge endlessly on the fingertips of your skull, pushing and brimming and overwhelming and you forget how to breathe
I can't I can't I can't take it anymore
Push on further and twist like a sphere turned inside out
Recall it
Again and again and again
No monsters here there are no monsters here only a prisoner of your own making tormented by your own mind
Discuss and rattle on with the old one
Splitter splatter and shatter my bones
Stick her in the tub and let her thaw out for a moment
Thieves thick as thorns thought of a clever way to steal a darling rose
Keep her up
keep it up
keep it
keep
kept
Me
no one kept me
All imagined all imagined
all alone you wanted all alone you just wanted to see her face again
I pity you, but should I?
That's the way it is
oh
that's life
The blood dripped quick and fast
How did we get here?
Quicker faster pouring out of the wounds
You wanted to feel the right way
oh please
let me feel the proper way
But you grinned and laughed
(May 2021)
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