Keep looking at my reflection cause i think

it's gonna change one of these days

I'm not any better than before

was it always like this?

is this that bad?

I feel so unbelievably lost

I don't understand

I don't know if i want to understand

my own thoughts fall silent and empty

my heart races with fear like im being hunted

I don't know what is happening

I still hear a song in my head

something there, quietly playing

I should have never opened the door.

(February 2021)