Jason and Behati officially started dating two months after they first met.

And one of the hardest things I had to do up until that point was keep the commitment I made to myself that night to let Jason go.

The first months of the process that I called emotional maturation was painful, and the mere joy of the new couple made me want to cry. But that process was necessary. And after a time I started to be happy for the happiness of my best friend.

But besides accepting that who you liked did not like you, what was really hard was getting close to Behati.

She was a really kind and sweet girl, but every time I was alone with her, I felt extremely uncomfortable. For this reason, whenever I had a conversation with her, I did my best to have a third person interacting with us. That behavior was horrible, and she did not deserve those embarrassing moments, and much less deserved the deafening silences that were our attempts to approach each other. She was a nice person that just fell in love with a boy whose best friend was also in love with him.