Chapter 39 – An Awkward Kind of Love

Aiden and Lia lips touched slightly.

Sensing the feeling of Aiden’s lips against hers, Lia blushed deeply, surprised.

But after the initial surprise, she closed her eyes and lost herself in the novel sensation.

For a few minutes, the pair kept the kiss without stopping even to breath.

It was almost as if both of them forgot about all the things with exception to each other.

Then, after what felt like an eternity, their lips parted.

Aiden looked towards Lia softly and saw the intoxicated expression in her face.

Before he could enjoy the sight of Lia blushing with an enamored face though, he felt her closing again.

This time, it was her who took the initiative to kiss him.

Lost in the sensation of the last kiss, Aiden was unable of react before the kiss of Lia reached his lips.

Still, even if he could have reacted, he probably would have accepted the kiss without hesitation.

This time, the kiss was even more intimate that the last one.

Both Lia and Aiden were pretty inexperienced in things like it, it was because both of their lives before it were pretty complex.

Aiden was always obeying his family and concentrated in training. And though he had a fiancée, he only saw her once, and the memories of it were not very good.

Lia, for her part, lived a childhood with only experiments in her daily life, reason because she didn’t even know about things related to the opposite sex before meeting Aiden.

And though their relationship was pretty good during the last three years, tonight could be considerate the first time they were beyond hugging and holding each other hands.

For this reason, though their kiss was pretty intimate, it was also a bit awkward.

Of course, neither of them cared about it.

Aiden put all his mind in feeling the lips of Lia. In his back, he could feel the heartbeat of her beloved increasing furiously.

In reality, his own heart was also beating at an incredible speed.

After another few seconds, the second kiss finally reached to an end.

Aiden wasn’t sure, but he thought that his face was probably burning even more than Lia’s.

After breathing for a moment to calm his breath, he looked towards Lia face and saw her eyes looking fixedly towards him.

Then, he unconsciously moved.

Lost in the green eyes of Lia, Aiden didn’t notice exactly what happened. When he reacted, he felt the weight of Lia’s body in his legs.

Hugging her body against his, he inclined his head and looked toward her eyes before smiling and kissing her for the third time.

This time, the kiss was even longer that the two of before.

Aiden only felt Lia’s hand hugging his back with strength. His own hands, unconsciously, were moving all around the body of Lia, feeling the delicate curves of her without any restrain.

For a moment, the mind of both of them became a fog, and the pair was lost in the sensations they were feeling for the first time.

Aiden felt an incredible excitement bubbling from his insides with every second that the pair hugged. Lia, for her part, was making an even more intoxicated expression, making the contrast with her usual gentle self even more erotic.

Feeling the scent of Aiden body against her, Lia lost herself even more in the world being constructed between both of them.

After a time, Aiden even found the clothes between them a hindrance.

But in the moment when he was prepared to take them off, a thought entered at his mind.

Instantly, it was like if a bucket of cold water were thrown in his head.

Looking towards Lia’s face, he kissed his lips softly one last time before hugging her strongly and putting his face over her shoulders.

Then, in a soft and caring, but also apologetic voice, he muttered at her ear.

“Not yet…”

Lia was surprised for a moment, but after a second, she smiled sadly and only nodded with her head.

“Hmm…”

Despite the pain in his heart after hearing the tone in Lia voice, Aiden concentrated all his mind in resisting the desire to continuate, and at the end, only continued hugging her.

“… Lia, let me remain so for a bit more. Only for this night.”

“Yes, young master…”

Aiden sighed softly hearing the pain in Lia voice. Then, after thinking for a moment, he spoke resolute.

“I’m sorry Lia. I promise you that one day it will be different.

“Hmm…”

In the night, the hum of the girl voice sounded strangely desolate.

Aiden love for Lia was truly great, and in normal circumstances he wouldn’t have doubted in take their relation a step forward.

But in the end, he was unable of doing it.

It was precisely because he loved her so much that he was unable.

Because he didn’t want to become the weight dragging her down.

Lia was very talented, and Aiden knew it well. He knew that she would eventually became someone great; perhaps able of overseeing a part of the continent based only in her strength.

But, what about him? At the end, he was someone without a spirit.

Even though tomorrow he would realize the ritual to create an artificial spirit, how could he to be sure of succeeding?

Because of it, he was unable of taking the last step.

He was unable of ridding himself from his insecurity.

Because even though he knew of Lia deep love for him, and that he loved her with equal fervor, he could not endure seeing Lia living all her life like a nobody only to remain at his side.

Even after hearing her words of before, no, precisely because he heard her words, and even after the oath she did tonight, he was unable of allowing himself to potentially destroy her future.

He knew, in the moment when they take the last step, then it would be truly impossible for them to be separated in their entire lives.

You could say that for Aiden, they were not completely tied together until taking the last step.

So, until the moment when he become someone worthy of her, he was determined to restrain himself.

Even if he knew that it was hurting Lia’s heart.

Of course, Lia didn’t think so.

Lia was able of feeling Aiden’s thoughts, and it was probably the reason of her sadness.

After all, for her it was a bit insulting that Aiden thought that her resolution would waver simply for something like having relations or not.

She also knew about Aiden’s insecurities. The reason because she came here tonight was precisely because of it.

But at the end, she was unable of doing anything to change it. No, it was more that she wasn’t willing to shoulder the possible risk of it, at least not yet.

At the end, the barrier impeding further progress of their relationship was the same thing plaguing Aiden from four years ago.

At the end, everything was down at his spirit.

Aiden sighed softly knowing it, then, he closed his eyes and thought about many things.

Now, he was even more determined to succeed tomorrow.

Not only for him, but also for the girl now resting in his arms.

Feeling the sweet aroma of her body against his, Aiden increased his resolution even more.

So, hugging her even more strongly, he let the time pass slowly.

Tomorrow, I must succeed.

With that thoughts in his mind, the night slowly passed by.

Only the moon was able to witness the complicated thoughts of the two.

But even it was unable of noticing the glowing seal* in Aiden’s pouch.

*Note: The seal appeared the first time in the chapter 18, during the arc of the giant boars.