AN: Thorus might become too op but I will try to balance it out so that it will be still interesting. Thanks for reading. If you have suggestions please feel free to tell me.

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After I killed my self, my soul strengthened a whole lot. The problem is though I still don't know the effects of having a stronger soul.

"Urkrass, do you know what benefits I gain when having a stronger soul?"

"Ofcourse, having a strong soul has many benefits. For example your spiritual sense would be stronger."

"Spiritual sense?"

"People with a strong souls can cast their spiritual sense outside their body. It allows them to perceive their surroundings.The stronger the soul, the more space you can cover. This is a technique thatis long lost."

"I see, that means I could detect enemies within my spiritual sense, right?"

"Yes, also having a strong soul strengthens your body and your magical power. Normal elementary spell will become much more deadly. Also by having a stronger soul you will be able to resist mind manipulating magic and attacks to the soul."

"There are soul attacks?"

"Yes, there few mind magicians that specializes in soul attacks. They don't invole their soul though."

"Is there anything else?"

"There is a way to use your soul force as attacks but I wouldn't recommend it. It is only as a last resort method to stay alive. After using your soul force directly, depending on the amount used, you will lose a part of your soul.

If you use to much you can damage your soul. After using your soul force it will renegade to its original state.

This however take a lot of time. Don't ever think of using it causally. If you exhaust your soul to much it can shatter and you will truly die, no after life."

"I see. Can you teach me to use my soul force?"

"Didn't I tell you it would be much to dangerous?" Urkrass frowned.

"Don't worry. I found a way to strengthen my soul without limit. I can be a bit wasteful."

"Right your soul strengthened just a moment, care to explain it to me lad."

After that I told him about my new invention.Wow I can kill myself and send my soul back in time and merge with my past self.

"Whaaat.. I thought I was mad and crazy but compared to you I am plainly sane."

Urkrass tone changed having hint of admiration and reverence.

"Thank you very much,it wasn't much."

"Knowing you this far I think you will kill your self countless times to gain huge power right?"

"Hehehe, you saw through me."

"That is not good."

"Huh, why?"

Urkrass sighs and continues.

"You are merely a mortal, there is a limit how much soul force your body can hold. If you have to much soul force you might explode."

Explode? Well that isn't good. Nice job Thorus, you thought it through.

"If you were to teach me to control my soul force would I be able to condense my soul force outside of my body? Making more room in my mortal vessel?"

"Hmm, that might be possible but controlling your soul force is no easy feat."

"Don't worry. I am a genius. if I don't grasp it in few hours I would rather commit suicide."

I can't die so I can kill myself without worry. How cool it would be if I did Harakiri in front of people.

"Hahaha, I don't know whether to laugh or cry. I like your way of doing things lad. I will assist you. But don't blame me if anything happens to you."

"Only myself is to blame."

"Okay than I will inject the soul controlling technique in to your memories. Explaining it to you is too much of a bother."

Various information flowed in to my mind. Pictures of meditating stances appeared in my mind.

"Such profound technique."

"It is indeed, this technique is long lost and you might be the only mortal knowing of this."

"Nice."

"I won't disturb you any further as this practice method is a delicate process."

"Thanks Urkrass."

"I have to thank you instead, I wasn't entertained this way for ages."

Because Urkrass injected me with information. It is as thought I known this technique all along. I just need to master it.

I sit down crosslegged and begin to mediate as described in the soul controlling technique.

Closing my eyes I focus on my body. Freeing my mind of all thoughts blue and red lights appear inside my eyelids.

It is similar to the meditating technique to feel the mana in the air. The only difference is that you don't try to perceive the outside but rather the inside.

You have to blend out your mana and imagine a third eye between your eye brow.

After an hour of thoughtlessness and disregarding my inner mana a black dot appears between my eye brows.From there I have to focus further. The black dot grows bigger and is expanding. The expanding blackness however is not as dark as the black dot.

The black dot is the core of my soul. The black core is surrounded with my soul force.

You can imagine it like that, the core is the nucleolus, the heart of the soul. While the soul force is like a filler material. The properties are similar, you can lose some of your soul force and would be still okay. But if the core of your soul were to be damaged or destroyed your soul would shatter.

The core of your soul is the foundation. Because I died once and merged with my soul my foundation is much stronger. The core of my soul should be as big as a hazelnut as described in the technique. Mine is however roughly twice its size.

Having a stronger foundation means that my lost soul force would regenerate much faster.

That doesn't mean that I can be wasteful with it. It won't regenerate in an instant, doesn't matter how big my core is.

Exhausting my soul force even for a moment would mean instant death.

Having a strong foundation means that I can exert more of my soul force without destroying my soul. My soul force would be much purer and of much better quality.

After being to able to feel my soul it is time to practice control over it.

Now comes the tough part. Since having the soul outside of your body is unnatural it takes great afford to make it leave the body.

I try to cut my ties with my body and try to think myself as the soul. My body is only a vessel, I am not my body but my soul.

After ten minuets of utmost concentration a part of my soul force flickered. That's it !

I try to hold on this feeling and more of my soul force is being affected. My soul begins to shake.

Slowly I begin to feel my soul as my own body making my body feel foreign.

"Now!"

With a force full shout I open my eyes and will my soul force out of my body.

I stretch my right hand and a black soul force leaves my right hand.

It is still connect to my soul, what I have to do now is to serve ties with my soul core.

I clench my fist and the connection is tied.

A black mist like soul force floats in the air. And my body feels a bit dizzy.

"This... this, impossible, it hasn't even been a day and you managed to force your soul force out. This... this is unheard of. A genius.

You are a genius lad. Normally it would take at least 20 years to reach that level and a life time to master it." Urkrass is excited and shocked in the same time.

"Hehe, didn't I tell you that I was a genius?"

"You are a genius of geniuses. Try to manipulate the soul force. It is still a part of yourself don't. forget that."

"Okay."

Looking at the black soul force it feels kind of strange. I have a sense of familiarity with it. I focus my mind on it.

I imagine it taking it the form of a sphere. The black soul force changes its form in to a sphere.

"Such control, unheard of.... unheard off." Urkrass is panting heavily.

After two hours of control training I can pretty much control it perfectly. I never doubted my self, but seeing this much progress after a short while, I begin to fear my self. Just kidding, I am awesome, that is expected. But I wonder why I am such a badass?

I take my soul force back in to my body, don't want to waste any.

"I think I am ready to grind like hell, now that I don't have to worry that my body explodes."

I take my revolver and blow my head off. The screen appears and I go back in time one minuet before I kill myself.

My soul merges with my past self and my soul further strenghtens .

"You begun your "training"?"

"Yes."

"Becareful, don't over extent your self. You could explode before taking out the "pressure."

"I'll be careful"

After 250 times of suicide I get used to it.

"I feel.. goood."

This sure is addicting.

After 250 times merging with my soul it doesn't grow steadily, it grows exponentially.

“I wonder what my limit is. I think thausend times should be doable.”

1000 suicides later I notice a difference. Every time I merge with my soul my body becomes stronger.

That is to be expected but after 500 times I noticed that my senses became much better.

I can smell, hear and see much better. Also, mind is much clearer. I can think much faster and am even able to to multi task much better.

I tested it out, I can divide my mind and do things separately. I have come to the conclusion after I wrote with both my hands different things.

I think this is is enough for today. I don't want to be careless and explode. It is time to test things out.

Now that I have unmeasurable amount of soul force I can be a bit wasteful.

Thinking of what to do with my soul force, I wanted to know whether I can condense my soul force.

That would be cool.

I will my soul force out of my body and shape it like a sword. The soul force takes shape but is still like gas. I think I need to pour more in it. After pouring in lots of soul force it looks more like a sword.

Still it won't condense. Hmm, how about I pour some mana.

My red black purple mana mixes with my soul force.

Bang, after a loud explosion some of the remaining mana disperse in the air and a sword has taken shape.

The blade is black and has a red-purple hue to it. Holding it in my hand it is as it weights nothing. It is about 1,20 meters height and has a width of 12 centimeters.

I causally swing it around a bit and the space seems to distort.

The sword leaves black-red-purple afterimages and a high pitched shriek like sound is emitted.

"What is this? What have I created?”

“I can't believe it, you condensed you soul force in to a weapon. I didn't even know that it was possible. It is so strong that it distort space.

That sword is so powerful not even legendary weapons can do that. Only weapons of gods are able to distort space

“Woah, nice lets see how sharp it is.”

To do that I better go outside, I don't want to destroy my tower accidently.

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Arriving at a mountain range it is time to test the power of the sword. The whole time I was careful not to cut myself.

“Let's do the drop test first.”

I let the sword fall, the space distort and a high pitched shriek can be heard. It is like the sword is cutting space and wind.

The sword penetrates the ground effortlessly as if it isn't there. It cuts through the ground like a hot knife cuts through butter. It stops at the hilt.

“Okay it is sharp as hell I get it.”

Since it is condensed from my soul force I wonder if I can control it.

I focus my mind and the sword comes out of the ground floating in mid air.

“Nice”

I will the sword back in to my hand. Holding it in my hand it is time to test out one thing I had in my mind since creating it.

What would happen if I poured soul force in to my sword.

Without further ado I will my soul force in to the sword. A black aura coats the sword.

“It looks so sinister. Before I accidently cut the mountain in half lets swing it first. The elves would be pissed , when their nature gets destroyed. Such hippies.

“I still have shits lot of soul force left lets pour in some more.”

The sword trembles slightly and a pushing force like a strong wind is emitted out.

I point the sword in to the sky and slash down with all my might.

A ear piercing shriek much stronger than before can be heard. The space distorts a thausend times stronger.

ripples appear in the air and space itself seems to bend.

“RUUUN” Urkrass yells.

“What.” Before I can react a tear appears in the space. A strong suction force is sucking me towards the hole.

In side the tear chaos resides. Countless lightning strikes of all colors strike in all directions

I try to resist with all my might. I am barley able to hold on. After a few breaths the space tear repairs it self, the suction force becomes less until it vanished.

The space tear is no more.

“Puuh, what the hell was that?”

“Lad, you tore space apart creating a space tear. How the hell....How.... I am speechless.”

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POV ???

“What was that?”

“What is the matter big sister?”

“In my realm someone managed to tear space.”

“What... how can this be. No mortal would be able to do it, unless he or she has a god weapon.”

“I wonder myself. What is concerning is that I can't figure out who did it. Something is blocking me from finding out.”

“What are you going to do big sis?”

“I am the goddess Chadera I will tell my children to find out. If he or she is endangers my world he or she will pay for it.”