Today I worked on redesigning puppets for use in sparring. I don’t really know what is important in a fight so I am basically just going through and improving everything I can more or less equally. It will probably end up not being very effective at first, but hopefully, it should get better as I figure out what is necessary and what isn’t.

As for what I did in my downtime, I mostly just sat down and thought for a while. Being alone with my own wandering thoughts. It is still difficult to let my mind wander, but I am getting better at it.

It was during this time that I realized something, the emotions of the masses are somehow reflected in me. The reason why I got so angry and violent towards the other empire is that the people are feeling angry and violent, or at least that is a big part of it. The only explanation that makes sense to explain why this is happening is my hivemind, maybe I’m not as well insulated from the minds of the masses as I thought. At this point it would be impossible to fix that. And I’m not even sure I want to fix it, my forest has been influencing me just as much as I have been influencing it from day one, why should my people be any different. I don’t normally like acknowledging it but I could shape the lives of my people just as much as I could mold a tree to suit my needs, it might even be easier, requiring just a word to turn over someone’s entire life.

Of course, I don’t actually have proof that this is actually what is going on, but I’m not sure it matters if it is. I’m not sure how I could go about testing it either, so unless that changes it will probably remain a mystery.

Anyway, Good Night Diary.