Day 58

I spent all day feeding my grove, I just can’t bring myself to care about anything else.

I created a wall around myself out of trees, I don’t want to interact with anyone right now. My children come say hi to me from time to time, I know I should be happy about that but I can’t bring myself to care.

Anyway, I’m probably going to go back to sleep now.

Day 59

It was my fault, wasn’t it? If I had worked harder or done something different to help out Thes both he and Mest would still be alive. If I had paid more attention I would have realized that we were closer to the edge than I had thought. I could have done something, it would have been enough if I had just done something about Thes.

And Talus as well, I messed up. I’m not entirely sure how I messed up, but I know I did.

I haven’t eaten in days, whatever, it’s not like I’m hungry.

Day 60

I have done little other than sleep today, it’s been the same for the last couple days. I wouldn’t be sleeping so much if I could actually sleep well, but not even my sleep aid is helping much.

I can’t think of anything else to say so I’m going to try to sleep again.

Day 61

I think I might be dying.

No, I’m not. This is something very different. Something is changing, I’m not sure what but I think I’ll find out very soon.