Before I started refining I had a rather big breakfast consisting of five mana berries. That was probably my first mistake. My second was forgetting to tell someone to wake me up at a certain time.

When I started refining I worked at pushing the number of times I can run in parallel as high as I could. I got to six, and then seven, and then it slowed down for a while, and I could feel myself thinking slower. And then, like a dam had burst I shot up to ten, and then twelve, and then sixteen, before stopping at twenty-four. I managed to push it up to twenty-five before it refused to budge any further.

So I started improving my efficiency with each parallel. It was a slow and laborious process, that felt like it took days, and it probably did take days. In the end, I managed to get every process running at a fourth the efficiency I was capable of. The first tenth was easy, the rest really started to slow down, like I was hitting some kind of mental limit. At that point I started hoping for another breakthrough event like what happened earlier, but in hindsight, I’m glad it didn’t happen.

After getting it that far I felt my stomach roar in pain, and I woke up. When i first woke up I was really confused because I couldn’t see anything at all, not even the incredibly blurry vision i usually get coming out of this. After who knows how long I was able to see again. First I looked up and saw the sun high in the sky, then I looked down and saw a puddle where most of my body should be.

It was terrifying, I tried to scream but I didn’t have a mouth. After trying to scream for a moment I noticed that my body was reforming itself, with my mouth reforming faster than anything else. By the time I was able to scream I was more interested in watching the sickening sight of my body reforming itself out of a puddle of Erica sludge. It was super surreal.

When I stopped to think about it what happened even kind of makes sense. The part of my mind that usually keeps my physical form intact stopped doing that and instead started helping me refine Luck Blossom. I mean it isn’t that different from managing my body if you think about it, both processes involve repeating a very complicated series of magical patterns over and over again, and it wouldn’t be an exaggeration if I said that I’ve done particular pattern more than a million times already, so it is incredibly routine. It would at least explain why my body turned into a puddle at least.

As for why no one woke me, that is Kaire’s fault. He stopped anyone from disturbing me, saying that if I was really in danger the trees would know, and if the trees knew then everyone would know very quickly. And I mean he is kind of right, they are very sensitive to my well being, and there are enough creatures able to communicate with them around here that everyone would know very quickly if I was in danger. If the trees don’t think I was in any real danger then I am probably fine.

When I finally recovered enough to move around I went to make sure everyone knew I was alright. I was almost turned back into a puddle on two separate occasions, the first by a very large belly, the second by a very fiery fox. Apparently watching your best friend/girlfriend turn into a puddle is disconcerting to many people.

Anyway, I’m exhausted. I have been awake for days, and that kind of meditation is very taxing. On top of that, I haven't used my sleep aid in days.

So Good Night Diary.