Today I decided to make a list, a list of all of the things I want to accomplish. Here is that list in no particular order.

Grow my grove into a forest

Perfect my puppet

Acquire new plants

Learn how to manipulate other creatures the way I can manipulate plants.

Create a tiny self-sufficient biome

Learn how to cook

Learn how to control more than one puppet at a time.

Why I decided to make this list? I’m not entirely sure, but hopefully, it will come in handy. Today I mostly worked on the first one, gowing my grove.

Last nights sparring matches got me, heated, for lack of a better word. Instead of being a fun distraction or helping me vent frustration I just got angry. I was making obvious mistakes to the point that I felt like diving in and just fighting myself, it wasn’t until Tiddol pulled me away and forced me to calm down did I start to feel a little better, though even then I was angry at my own failures. So I fed the trees, it’s very relaxing, very meditative.

I didn’t sleep last night, nor did I do much of anything other than feed the trees today. And it gave me time to think, about myself mostly but about a couple other things too, I actually made that list during this meditative feeding session. I asked myself why am I getting so worked up about not being able to improve? Well I mean obviously it would frustrate anyone, but not like this. I guess I just feel like like when I don’t improve that I'm failing on some very basic level, like, I don’t know, emotions are complicated.

Anyway, I haven’t slept in two days, it's going to sleep now. Good Night Diary.