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Attention!

Some of you might have noticed that I have been gone for quite some time but there was a reason for that, in my country there was a bank holiday on thursday and my dad took friday off so I spent the extended weekend at his place, I soon enough found out that his Internet was not working so that is why I have been unable to update like I promised so to give you guys some compensation for the lack of content I decided to give you 2 Chapters today and 1 Chapter each day until friday (That includes Friday and ends on Saturday until we go back to 1 Chapter every 2 days, that means after Friday's Chapter the next will be on Sunday).

I hope you can forgive me for practically abandoning you guys for these few days but it was not willingly XD.

Anyways, hope you enjoy the double Chapter!

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Chapter 52: Two Sides

It hurt seeing him like this, knowing that Makoto would never treat her the same.

Lilliana lowered her head and her black hair successfully hid the frown that appeared on her face as she watched them both happily looking at each other.

Together with the envy that she felt for Sharon for being with the person that made her heart skip a beat, she also felt hatred.

This dark and nasty emotion had started to tear away the happy go lucky attitude that she normally showed, every time she saw both of them together she felt another sting in her heart and the hatred was once again fed to the brim.

Lilly liked Sharon, there was no denying that they were friends but this friendship was starting to feel heavy for her.

Her feelings for Makoto ruined it all.

The first time she met him on that beach she had not felt anything special, he was just another guy that made fun of her for whatever reason, another sadistic douchebag that could only think as far as his dick was long.

But things quickly changed.

Surprisingly enough she started to enjoy the little game they both played and every time he looked at her she could see the same mischievous glint in his eyes that only appeared for her, no one else.

That realization alone that he looked and treated her differently than other people brought the whole thing into motion.

Soon enough she secretly couldn't wait to see him again, every time he wasn't paying attention she looked at him, knowing that her face probably held a longing expression.

It was depressing to now be in this situation.

Especially when she knew that things would have been different if she had just taken that one last step before he met Sharon.

Her own unease and cowardice about her feelings denied any possibility to be with him now and instead she had to watch how he enjoyed his time with another woman.

Grinding her teeth in jealousy once again, Lilliana looked at the smiling Sharon, a dark voice inside of her wishing for her to disappear.

Right away she slapped herself mentally and broke off the death glare.

She felt ashamed how she had thought about a friend, especially one that was as good natured and kind as Sharon.

Didn't this just show that she was on the sideline for a very good reason when she turned out to be this kind o person?

Once again feeling a wave of depressionand a strange hollow sensation that filled her chest she looked at the happy couple.

"Coward..."

She whispered to herself, reminding herself that this was the price that she paid for her actions, or better, for the ones that she didn't take.

It was a harsh reality.

"How are you feeling Lilly?"

A voice next to her asked and without any surprise she saw that it was Sanja.

"I'm alright, bit tired really but otherwise..."

"You know what I mean."

With a glance she noticed the way she was stared at and let out a sigh.

"Can't keep anything from you, can I Saja?"

"No, we have known each other too long for that to be possible."

Only giving her a forced smile as a response, she quickly hastened her step again as to not be left behind.

They were still walking to the Stronghold and had been all day now.

For her at least it was a tiring thing but most others seemed to be indifferent to all the walking.

It was just bad luck that her Stamina as a Summoner was incredibly poor, the only stat that affected it for her was was Vitality but that was only 1 edge of the triangle after all so the boost to her own Stamina from Level 1 till now could be called quite small.

Similar to Real Life she was starting to feel a sore feeling in her thighs and her mind drifted off once again.

Lilliana was deep in thought when she heavily bumped against something.

"Watch where you are going you little shit!"

Shouted a soldier in heavy armor that nearly fell over after the previous collision.

Finally aware of her surroundings again she could see that all soldiers had stopped walking and instead started to run around with a certain haste.

Unsure what was going on she turned around and was able to see Makoto and the rest without any trouble.

"What are the Soldiers doing?"

Lilliana finally asked after reuniting with her group.

"I think they are preparing for Dinner and some rest, we have been walking all day and it is impossible to reach the Stronghold today so the commander decided to let his soldiers get some rest and arrive there at around noon tomorrow."

Farabello answered her question with a shy grin.

Nodding her head once she looked at Makoto out of an old habit and she could see how a pair of crimson eyes stared back at her.

"Everything alright, Lilly?"

Gulping down her sharp response that he could shove his concern elsewhere she decided to just nod.

In a way she was also angry at him.

It was unjust anger considering he had done nothing wrong but the thought that it was all his fault somehow made it easier to deal with.

Once again noticing the concerned gaze from Sanja she quickly looked around to flee from the current situation and was able to see a soldier that had trouble lighting a fireplace.

Confident in her magic and a fire spell already on her lips, Lilliana walked.

In a way she was thankful for having someone that worried about her but this was something she had to deal with on her own.

A few seconds later a happy soldier stood next to a blazing fireplace waving her goodbye and Lilly looked around to possibly help someone else.

Thankfully there was quite a bit to do so her hands and mind were both occupied for some time.

In the end she lit a good two dozen fires, helped build 14 tents and also carried another dozen buckets of water from a river.

Completely drained and sore all over after emptying her stamina bar she returned to her friends that also had a fire going now.

"I see the good Samaritan is back.

Farabello cooked up something quite decent, do you want a bit?"

Makoto asked after seeing her and held up a bowl of steaming broth.

Sitting down close to him with a relieved sigh after being able to rest her screaming thighs she gladly accepted the food.

It was unexpectedly good, giving a thumbs up to Farabello, Lilly quickly emptied the bowl and right away asked for seconds after licking over the corners of her mouth.

She could see Makoto smiling while he watched her and she hated herself for feeling happy that his eyes were only on her right now.

Biting the inside of her cheek to get her thought under control she ate her second serving with a dark feeling in her chest that battled with the blooming happiness that she got from him being so close to her, together with being aware that he watched her every move.

Quietly cursing herself once more for falling for him she couldn't help to glance over to him a few times and every single time he looked back at her.

It made her heart beat faster when she looked into those crimson red eyes that seemed to stare at her very soul, stripping her completely.

Once again a mischievous glint appeared in the crimson red together with a crooked smile on his face and her heart skipped around in her chest, her gaze glued to his.

If only she could just be stripped in a different way right now to justify a look like that from him...

With a lot of willpower she finally broke free from the moment and stared at the half empty bowl between her thighs.

Once again she felt shame and anger that she had thoughts like that when he was already in a relationship with Sharon.

The mood all around was quite good and they talked about a few things, only Lilliana decided to stay out of most of it, she was scared of saying or doing something stupid when her own emotions were this confused surfed the web and tuned out.

After an hour the others decided to log out for a bit as they had to wait until dawn inside the game anyways and a few wanted to quickly heat up some food in Real Life.

Lilliana soon enough sat alone beside Farabello.

The little Apprentice Mage looked at her with a sad expression that confused her greatly until he started talking.

"You love him don't you?"

Startled by this sudden question and unsure if she was even willing to talk about this with a stranger like him she decided to slightly nod, what could she really lose by admitting it at this point?

"I noticed after seeing the look on your face when Makoto talked about his past and the interaction between him and Saracesse who obviously shares a certain relationship with him."

Lilliana needed a moment to remember that Saracesse was Sharon's ingame name but after that she only looked at the NPC for a while waiting for more until she decided to talk.

"So what if I love him, as you said he is with someone else so these feelings are only in the way..."

"Do you really think so? Is that as far as your love for him goes?"

Surprised about the sudden anger in Farabello's voice she looked up and saw a complicated expression on his face.

"He already knows how I feel about him and he is still together with...Saracesse so that should be answer enough, it is not that my feelings for him aren't enough but more that he just loves someone else, simple as that."

"So why don't you then win him over? I bet if you are aggressive enough, with your beauty he would be hard pressed to resist if you tried to seduce him."

Once again she felt a wave of awe at how real some of these NPC's acted and behaved.

It took her a while to answer that and even if it hurt, she spoke the truth.

"I don't want to do that simply because I am friends with Sharon and if I was able to seduce him in that way she would hate me for her entire life... I don't think it is worth to sacrifice a friend selfishly like that."

Farabello's gaze softened after hearing her words and he nodded.

"I have to say that is very admirable that you feel this way, most people would gladly throw a friend or two beneath a carriage to get what they want."

Deeply in thought it took him a while until he opened his mouth again.

"So I am guessing he is together with Saracesse in the other realm too?"

Slightly confused about what he meant he quickly explained his last question.

"Well I am talking about the place you foreigners always disappear to, the other realm.

Are they both together there too?"

Nodding a bit unsure at what he was getting at, she could see a smile appear on his face.

"Well if it is like that then there should definitely be a way.

If he has 1 woman in his own realm, why not have 2 here were there are different laws and culture.

Trust me when I say that it is not unusual for a man to have a wife and a Concubine or two in Asuria.

This is a different realm so does it really matter if he is intimate with you and Saracesse here while being with her alone in your own realm?"

Lilliana was stunned at this incredibly bold statement.

An NPC was practically telling her to convince Makoto to two time inside the game while being loyal in Real Life, it was beyond bizarre.

The idea alone might be strange but it was something that she couldn't just forget, after all it might be her only way to actually be with him after all this time...

Slapping herself mentally once again for being weak like this she shook her head and looked at Farabello.

"I don't think that is how it works, thank you for your concern but I am also going to go now, see you at dawn."

The little Mage said something else but she had already pressed log out and with a white light disappeared from Azalon.

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Stretching he arms once, Liliane exited the capsule.

Her eyes hurt after noticing the light of a new day shining through her windows and she had to squint them to actually reach the bathroom.

It was early in the morning of Saturday, she had played all night without even noticing the time.

Scratching her smooth and flat stomach she finished her business and brushed her teeth while also splashing a good bit of water in her face to fight off a strange sense of lethargy.

Wiping herself dry with a towel she stood in front of the mirror.

The reflection showed a gorgeous woman at the start of her 20s with long and straight black hair together with a pair of deep brown eyes.

Liliane's skin was pale but without any scars or damage.

She had double D's even with her rather short height and the whole appearance was completed by naturally curved and perfect eyebrows as well as pink petite lips.

As someone who worked a full time job as a model and constantly appearing in magazines it was natural that she was beautiful but Liliane was one of the few in the business that never had to do any surgery to get where she was now.

Thinking about the crimson eyed boy she could see herself pout in the mirror and with a sigh she left to get some breakfast.

Would things have turned out differently if she had kept her original appearance ingame instead of bringing it down by so much?

Even if she didn't, would she have been happy if the man she loved only loved her back because of her appearance?

Surely not.

After all she had met enough assholes in real life already to know the hollow feeling of being with someone that was only attracted to your appearance far too well.

Throwing a glance out of her penthouse window, Liliane was able to see the sun fully rise above the horizon just in time.

Biting her lip in a way that would have men holler and whistle, Liliane's mind was occupied by Makoto once again and she could feel a warm sensation between her legs as she longed for him in more than one way...

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Quite a few things are revealed in this Chapter together with it being from a completely different POV the whole Chapter.

Next Chapter will be up in 30 min or so!