POV Rere

Crazy! This is really crazy. What did I dream of such an embarrassing scene? Why do I become paranoid? God… because I am too scared that Dino would touch me last night, I even dream of that erotic dream.

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It was so embarrassing and I would never admit it. How could I tell him that he forced me to make love in my dream? How could I be so stupid? My mind is so messed up. I'm so paranoid. This is how it is when something is forced. I'm only 24 years old and will turn 25 in a few months. I married a man who was 14 years older than me. Even though his face is younger than his age, our feelings can't be forced.

Rere cursed at herself under the shower. She could not even feel the cold water because she was thinking about a lot of embarrassing things now.

It's not even a week since we shared the same room and my brain had started to think about that lewd dream. I must be too scared to dream such an erotic dream. In the dream, Dino broke his own word and almost made love to me forcefully. I'm afraid if he asks for his rights as a husband. I'm not ready to do it yet. I can accept Hanin, Dino's child from his first wife. Hanin is very adorable and funny. Hanin can also help me raise Leon. The child is very beautiful just like her mother. I can only imagine myself as her sister, not her stepmother.

Have I made the right decision to marry Dino? I understand that Bara is worried about Leon's future. He's a good uncle. Even though I'm only his stepsister and Leon is not his biological nephew, Bara loves us very much. If mom and dad did not marry, maybe Leon and I would be on the streets.

I need to shower quickly. Although I am taking a cold shower, I can feel my body getting hot from my dirty brain. I need to sing under the shower to relieve my nervousness. I won't be going for a damn honeymoon. I do not want it. Being alone with Dino makes me nervous and scared. What if he asked me to serve him as a wife?

Taking a bath really makes me feel great, I feel fresh. Bara is really smart in choosing this location for the wedding. I'm sure he won't miss the chance to go on another honeymoon with Dila. I know how much Bara loves Dila and is very crazy about his wife. He can be a fool in front of his wife.

What is he doing standing in front of the balcony? He seems to look at something? I wonder what kind of interesting thing he saw.

Whatever, I need to contact Tia and ask her to bring me some clothes. How could I wear those 'cursed' clothes?

"Tia," I called the woman's name as soon as the call connected.

"Hey, newlyweds. How are you? How is it? Is it fun? Is he taking it slowly?"

"What do you mean? Slow what?" I really don't want to hear Tia's dirty talk. Why is she talking about that?

"Stop pretending to be innocent. You know what I mean."

"Is that important?"

"Actually, it doesn't really matter. I just want to find as much reference I can find for my marriage with Daniel so I won't be too scared on my wedding night later." Tia said as she whispered on the phone. Maybe Tia doesn't want other people to hear her words.

"Why don't you watch a movie for your reference?" Tia's unreasonable reason started to make me angry. Why is Tia's being so annoying lately? She always teases me whenever she has a chance.

"The movie is not real, Rere. It's been through the editing process. So it can't be used as a reference."

"What nonsense are you talking about! Just bring some clothes for me."

"Just wear the lingerie. You must really like it and make your husband happy."

"Are you crazy? I want to have breakfast. How could I wear that damn clothes? I can't even wear that in front of Dino, how could I be so shameless to wear that for breakfast?"

"What are you going to wear then?" Tia sounds confused regarding my answer. Tia seems to be curious about my wedding night.

"I am naked, girl! Are you Satisfied?" I finally snapped.

"Exactly. In front of your husband, you don't have to wear any clothes. Why do you need to wear one?" Tia giggled. It seems like teasing me is a lot of fun for her.

"Hurry up and bring me some clothes."

"Okay."

A few minutes later someone rang the bell. I rushed to open the door and Glad to see Tia came with clothes for me.

"The new wife truly has a very different aura. Where's Mr. Dino?" Tia tries to peek inside but I stop her.

"What are you trying to find?"

"Where's your husband?"

"Why are you looking for my husband?"

"Is someone jealous?" Tia keeps making fun of me.

Lately, that kid really likes to tease me. If I don't regard the girl as my best friend, maybe I would've pinched Tia and thrown her into the swamp.

"Where're my clothes?"

Tia gave me a set of floral dresses.

"Thank you," I quickly closed the door after showing my gratitude. I can feel Tia's curiosity about my relationship with Dino.

I immediately went to the bathroom and put on the clothes. I actually didn't dry my hair intentionally so my family wouldn't suspect anything. If my hair was wet, they would think that Dino and I had done our duty as husband and wife. She wants them to think so. I don't want to be scolded by my mother if I don't become a good wife for Dino.

I rubbed my chest as I came out of the bathroom. I can see Dino standing in front of the door.

"You surprised me." I said as I started to nag my husband. Eh... did I just think of Dino as my husband.

"Do you have a history of heart disease?" Dino asked lightly.

Why did I feel annoyed when he said it? Dino seemed to be teasing me. If I did not regard him as the father of my child, I might have slapped him on the forehead even though he is older than me.

"No. Why do you ask?" My voice sounds a little annoyed that he started to talk about heart

problems.

"It looks like you are easily startled. That's why I asked. If you really have a history of heart problems, I want to take you to the doctor."

"Do you want me to get sick?" Suddenly I couldn't control my emotions.

Dino stroked my head like a child, "Kid, why did you always get angry? Being angry could make you have high blood pressure. Later it developed to start diseases."

"Don't call me kid. I do not like it."

"So, do you want me to call you a mother of two?"

"It is better. I am a mother, a young mother." I waved my hand proudly. No one believes that I've ever given birth because of my great shape and my baby face.

Stop objecting! That is the truth.

"As a good young mother. It would be best to stop watching a lot of drama. Children need attention. It is bad if the children spend more time with a babysitter than their mother. You need to take care of them by yourself."

I'm too tired to argue with Dino. I walked away from the man and sat on the balcony. The man followed me.

"Rere, we need to talk," the man said quietly.

The man looks at me with a smile. I don't know why but his smile calms me down. Calm me down? No!! You need to wake up, Rere! Why am I even fascinated by Dino? Is it because of last night's dream? That man raped me in my dream. What's wrong with my brain?

"What do you want to talk about?"

"Sit down first." Dino patted the chair next to him. The man asked me to sit beside him.

I hesitated to sit next to him. I don't know why but I'm not ready to be close to him. He started to ask me to sit down with body language. I did what he wanted.

"What's the matter?"

"As a wife, you need to talk sweetly and softly to your husband." Dino smiled at me. I hate him when he smiles.

I don't know why but I am tired of seeing the man's sweet smile. His smile changes my world. But I can't give up. I have to stick with my stance. I'm still hurt by his humiliation that night. Even though the man had apologized, there was still something that stuck in my heart.