Chapter 872: I Don’t Want to Let You Go

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Xuanji and Mo’er’s personalities were actually similar, but what differentiated their lives was the existence of Gu Mohan.

Although Tang Mo’er had a bumpy childhood, she had found Gu Mohan in her life. Gu Mohan loved her for who she was entirely, he hadn’t given up on her at all. Even though they had all of the obstacles surrounding them from Huo Yanmei and Gu Tianling, Gu Mohan was willing to trust Tang Mo’er and he stood by her side to support her all along. Through it all, Gu Mohan would always have Tang Mo’er’s back, he would never let go of her hand.

But Lu Jinwen was different.

Lu Jinwen and Gu Mohan were completely different. Though Gu Mohan had grown up in a broken family, he was resilient and had an encounter with little Mo’er. Gu Mohan was loyal, steadfast and unwavering.

While comparatively, Lu Jinwen truly was blessed. He was the young master of the Lu family and received all of the love from everyone. He had listed his own business empire at the age of 16 and his life was only one of smooth sailing, he was haughty and self-centered. Love? He did not know how to love someone.

They faced the same situation, conspiracies and misunderstandings but they both made different choices, which resulted in different destinies.

Lu Jinwen suddenly recalled a saying, a woman’s personality was determined by a man.

It was him. He was the one who slowly pushed Xuanji to become this way.

A memory appeared in his mind. It was the year that she got pregnant with Chenyi, her bump had started getting bigger but she lost a great amount of weight. She would always be in a daze while alone and not say a word. Even if he hurt her in bed at night, she wouldn’t even make a single sound.

He remembered the fact that her tolerance for pain was low.

Which girl on earth wouldn’t be afraid of pain?

In the early stages of their relationship, her finger bled after being pricked by a needle and she ran over to him with tears welling up in her eyes, her lips pouted while she demanded that he blow the wound for her to soothe the pain.

But later on, she had already sliced her tummy open to give birth to Chenyi. They had already been together for almost eight years by then.

Perhaps… perhaps, if he had just given her a smile when she was giving birth to Chenyi, just a faint smile. Just… something. If only he had just stretched his hand out to her, even if he did it far, far away, she would have run over and come with him.

If only.

As long as he just tried, she would have been pulled out of the endless darkness and despair.

With every bit of stubbornness she had when she was pregnant with Chenyi, she had the same amount of fragility and despair.

Why?

Why didn’t he go over to help her?

Why was he so selfish, so heartless?

Why couldn’t he see?

“Xuanji, I…”

“There’s no need for you to say anything else, Lu Jinwen, I don’t need your explanation so let’s not mention matters of the past from today onwards. It’s pointless for us to continue talking about it after so many years. However, I can’t figure this out. I could never figure it out at all. Why didn’t you just ask me about it all? You clearly went to Bangkok No. 1 and thought that I wanted to harm you.

“You didn’t even ask me about it and just gave me the death sentence. You held Sister in your arms and watched the dandelions fill the entire Capital, you continued going astray, torturing me endlessly. If it weren’t for Mo’er who saw the note, I never would have known that you actually came. Is it that hard for you to just have asked me?”

It was only after Mo’er handed the note to her that she finally figured everything out.

If it wasn’t for that, she never would have known.

Why didn’t he just ask about it after the entire incident at Bangkok No. 1 happened?

It was only because he didn’t ask, that everything escalated and Old Master Lin’s ways turned for the worse.

Old Master Lin had so many life experiences, he was simply brilliant at judging one’s personality. He had managed to grasp Lu Jinwen’s personality, that heartless king had feelings for Lin Xuanji and was extremely steadfast, but he hadn’t learned to love.

He would never back down.

He would behave all proud and almighty, to wait for Lin Xuanji to chase after him. Even after Lin Xuanji cried bloody tears, he still assumed that she would never leave.

But his love was too much for her, she could never afford to fight for his love.

With his clenched fingers becoming loose, Lu Jinwen slowly let go of her, before he clutched her shoulders tightly again, till his palms were all sweaty.

Right. Why didn’t he just ask her about it from the very start?

If he had asked her about it, their destiny would have been totally different.

They would all hear about the stories of their future generation later. When Mo’er became blind and didn’t want Mohan anymore, Mohan barged into her home at night all drunk. When Shi’shi was about to marry Fu Jingtong, Qinglun was beaten up by a group of men for her, he even climbed up to give Shi’shi a ring made out of a green foxtail. When Master Yan was already 40 years old, but he made the 21 year old An’an pregnant. They had a pair of twins, one boy and one girl, becoming the legend in the army.

1There came a time where there were two rulers at the same time, and Jun Xiqing took the world by surprise. The dignified King, Tang Chenyi had only a cape on while he stood in the snow for an entire night for her… Look, the stories of the later generation were so childish, yet so heart-warming at the same time.

There were many different forms of love on earth, but there were also many different couples who eventually parted. Only those who fought and chose to hold each other’s hands forever would have an ever-lasting relationship.

What about them? They have never held each other’s hand at all.

Lin Xuanji then stretched her arms out to push him away. “Lu Jinwen, let go.”

Let go, Lu Jinwen.

She wanted him to let go.

Lu Jinwen only clutched onto her shoulder even tighter, he didn’t want to let go. He knew that if he let go, she would really leave him forever.

He wouldn’t let go, he couldn’t.

Hiss.

Lin Xuanji suddenly whimpered, he had hurt her with his vice-like grip over her shoulders. Lu Jinwen was stunned, he subconsciously let go of his grip.

Jun Mosheng then took the chance and pulled Lin Xuanji over, looking at her with concern. “Xuanji, are you hurt anywhere?”

Lin Xuanji shook her head. “No…”

Jun Mosheng then touched her wounded back.

Her face instantly blanched, Lu Jinwen had pushed her against the dresser earlier on and her back was injured.

“Xuanji, let’s go. Let me check on your injuries.”

Jun Mosheng wanted to take Lin Xuanji away. Rushing over, Lu Jinwen blocked them from leaving.

“President Lu, what are you trying to do? You’re planning to hold us captive here?”

Lu Jinwen’s bodyguards and Jun Mosheng’s underlings swiftly whipped out their weapons, the atmosphere instantly tensed up.

Everyone in the lobby gasped, they were horrified after witnessing the scene. The party was carrying on well until they witnessed Lin Xuanyin’s death, as well as the fight that they had currently been entangled into.

30 years had passed, the overlord of the Capital, Young Master Lu as well as Second Young Master Jun had broken into a fight all because of Lin Xuanji once again.

Lin Xuanji glanced at Lu Jinwen. “What do you want?”

Lu Jinwen’s eyes were bloodshot, his anger had already dissipated and his face was devoid of any expression. His entire aura was cold, nonetheless, and it spelled danger. “I don’t want you to leave.”

COMMENT

He didn’t want her to leave with Jun Mosheng.

Lin Xuanji’s gaze was cold as she replied, “What if I insist on leaving?” She then stretched her legs out, walking towards the door.

Butler Ye quickly looked at Lu Jinwen, consulting him silently, do we need to keep Madam Xuanji behind forcibly?

Lu Jinwen didn’t say a word, Lin Xuanji had already arrived by the door. But then she heard the sound of someone pulling a gun out…