When I was inside, an aura of sorrow immediately grabbed my heart as soon as my eyes saw a coffin with flowers on it. My body instantly went limp and almost fell to the ground. Luckily, Daehyun was near me so he swiftly grabbed my body.

I lifted my gaze slightly, and accidentally saw a photo of a smiling man in which the curve of his smile seemed to be mocking me, located not far above the coffin, which made my head stop thinking in an instant. Even though my vision wasn't very clear, the facial contours of the person in the photo resembled Donghwa's.

I was silent in disbelief. I didn't feel my body for a moment as if being numb before the various feelings flowed with my blood and gathered at the same point, like a countercurrent of electricity that stung my heart with a high voltage.

Without thinking any further, I immediately threw Daehyun's hand that was holding my hand at the moment, then ran towards the black coffin to get a better look.

When I was a meter away, I suddenly stopped with a doubtful heart and pursed lips. I stared at the black coffin with a lot of feelings in my chest, which seemed to be stirred up by a big and cold hand at once.

I was afraid to step. I was afraid for the truth. But, beyond all that, I was eager to see it; to confirm that this must be just a joke.

Yes, I still thought this was a joke from him even though it had made me cry many times.

During this silence, the air suddenly became colder and colder than before and made me shudder strongly, like a cold wind that blew into my empty heart as if to erase all the happiness between me and Donghwa in the past and not leave any of it behind. Then, when sadness almost overtook my heart, I immediately hit my heart with great force as if I was guarding something.

However, in the end, it was just a waste, and only left a deeper wound and a more heartbreaking sadness.

At the same time, my weak and misty eyes lifted slightly as if they had lost all strength and light in them, staring at a minimum-sized photo with a smiling man in it, right in front of me. That said it all — that it was a photo of Donghwa with a smile like ten years ago.

It's just that, at this moment the smile showed something deeper that made me feel like I wanted to be buried with him.

With a trembling body and tears welling up in my eyes, I slowly took a step, and step by step made the sadness and the pain seemed to pierce the tips of my feet, penetrated my head.

While at the side of the black coffin, I sat slowly while stunned for a moment. The coffin was tightly closed so I couldn't see the face of the person laying in it. Out of the craze, it also made me doubt again and thought that Yunhee was just boasting with the news. Even though tears were currently filling my eyes, my heart wasn't ready to accept the truth and give stupid suggestions to my head.

However, that thought immediately changed in an instant when I saw the face of the man in the photo again.

Suddenly my whole body went limp and the sound of a strong cry that I had been holding back came out like it was tearing my dry throat. My heart that was in my chest had also fallen at my feet and instantly shattered into pieces, destroying hope and the remaining memories that could make me smile into sorrow and pain that made me cry profusely.

My body immediately fell, hugged the coffin, and kept crying over it.

I hoped this was all a lie. I didn't care if Donghwa tricked me with this news and promised to forgive him. But, the more I pushed myself to believe in my thoughts, the more I couldn't hold back this cry, then broke out with my voice.

Now, my heart was also crying because of pain. This was the most painful pain in the thirty-two years I had lived in this world. It didn't kill me immediately but tortured me mentally very cruelly.

"Donghwa ...."

"Donghwa. ...."

"Brother Lee...."

With quivering lips, I tried to say his name a few times, hoping he would hear me and whisper the words, "Don't cry, I'll be with you. I was just joking for you to come home", to comfort me.

However, the more I wished for such a thing, the more this pain gripped my chest and the more reality ripped my heart out brutally with madness.

I never thought that something like this would happen one day, thus making the guilt even bigger and bubbling in my dead mind.

I had lost many things and I had lost many tears for a sacrifice. Enduring the pain, then backing up, and falling with a hard slam. I had accepted everything with a smile despite being seriously injured and dying.

However, it seemed that God had punished me for years until this moment, he was still punishing me mercilessly and had no mercy for me.

"Why did you come back? A murderer like you doesn't deserve to be in this place, you know."

In the midst of my sobs, a voice that was quite familiar sounded like the painful sarcasm of this mourning day.

A murderer like you doesn't deserve to be in this place ....

Murderer ....

Did I kill him?

The words kept repeating in my head several times.

At first, I felt dazed, but gradually I could feel how they pierced my wounded heart and it hurt even more.

The words were like accusations in my sorrow and made my situation even more depressing.

Maybe there was some truth in that saying. I knew that I had acted cruelly when he begged to reconcile with me.

I slowly lifted my body, then looked back weakly. My tearful eyes tried to focus on the person sitting behind me, who had just sowed a needle in my heart.

I rubbed my misty eyes to clarify the figure. But, after I could see the person clearly, there was a fit of anger tucked into my sadness that I couldn't express in words.

Cho Sunyeon looked at me with hatred in his eyes. Even though his eyes also seemed to have shed a lot of tears, the hatred was still clear as if what had happened today was entirely my fault.

"You don't even respect him as a mourner who comes dressed like that — leave — get out of—"

"Sunyeon!"

Another voice cut off Sunyeon's words — it was Bae Yunhee. He walked over to me, sat next to me, and touched my arm as if he was comforting me. He then turned to Sunyeon who didn't show his friendliness at all sarcastically, then spoke in a cold tone that sounded cruel to Sunyeon who was acting indifferent.

"Hey, kid? You know who he is, right? How dare you say that to him." Paused, he continued, still in the same tone, coldly, "If anyone has to leave, it's you, brat. Lee would say the same thing if you dared to say such a thing to his husband."

Sunyeon was silent, turned his face sideways without giving any further comment. He also didn't look sorry at all for what he just said.

At first, I thought no one was in this room. But, seemingly, due to some sadness, I didn't notice that several people dressed in black were standing near the wall, and what surprised me even more was that Sunyeon was also here, and probably from several hours ago.

Continuously crying, when I looked back, I accidentally saw Daehyun who was still standing in the same place, near the entrance.

When our eyes met at the same spot, the look in his eyes showed a different kind of sadness, and it wasn't a sorrowful sorrow, but rather like there was deep jealousy but it couldn't make him angry, so there was the only disappointment in his jet black and dark eyes.

Daehyun looked at me deeply and had a bitter smile on his face. Witnessing that obvious concern also made me know immediately that he really felt pain in his heart because, in the end, I returned to someone I should have dumped.

However, I couldn't feel sad for him, and my heart seemed to die for someone else right now. I could only feel the sadness of losing someone I had left behind.

I thought back to Sunyeon's words and was sure that what he said was absolutely true. I was the cause of everything that had happened up to this moment.

Daehyun was still looking at me deeply and still smiling bitterly.

Yunhee suddenly spoke breaking the silence, "Park, thank goodness you still want to come to this place. Lee will definitely be happy because you want to come to see him."