District M.

Walking in the middle of the city, amidst the hustle and bustle of the autumn air, there was a voice calling me out.

"Hey, Chunghee! Is that you?!"

Hearing someone called me from a distance, I immediately stopped walking. I turned around and saw a woman walking hastily towards me. When she was near me, I asked, "Senior, don't you work?"

It was Go Hyunjae. We had not had a say in a long time since I resigned from the company about a month ago.

She caught her breath when she was in front of me, then put both hands on my shoulders. "Huh, finally, I can see you again."

I smiled and asked once again, "Senior, don't you work?"

Before answering, he pulled me to the bench in front of one of the shops, then we sat down there.

"Huh, Mr. Kim asked me to buy stores for his father's birthday next week. But, when I saw you, I immediately approached you," paused for a moment, she continued, "Hey, Chunghee, I really miss you. I have no friends to have lunch together."

I smiled. "Sorry, but next time, maybe we can have lunch together."

She lifted her eyebrows and leaned slightly towards me, with both hands gripping my arms. "Chunghee, tell me your reason now, why did you quit your job? Are you having a problem? Is it because Mr. Kim always ordered you to do many things? But, I already helped you, and it should make your work easier now." Her face looked a little annoyed. "Huh, Don't tell me that you don't feel good to me! I'm really going to pinch you!"

Hearing the joke, I chuckled. Go Hyunjae always put a joke in the middle of her words. She was still like someone I knew.

It seemed that I also missed our break time at the company, where jokes and laughter often interrupted in the middle of our conversation at that time.

I took a deep breath, then said, "I can't be that busy. I have to focus on another business from now on."

She narrowed her eyes, looked at me with her sharp probing eyes. "What is it? You seem to hide something from me. Now, tell me the truth. I promise I won't tell Mr. Kim."

Somehow, when I heard the word of 'promise', it made me feel even more frustrated and disgusted by that word.

This is traumatic!

I sighed slowly, and said, "I mean it. I have an important business that I have to do."

Her face still looked sullen. She replied, "Hmm, actually I can't believe it yet, but if you say the truth, then I want to ask, what business led you to leave your job?"

I smirked. "It's secret. I don't want to tell you. Sooner or later, you will find out even though I don't tell you now."

The business I meant was my condition. However, even though I said my words earnestly, it wasn't the truth. I didn't even care about the disease or the medication.

Death? I felt that dead early would be better. It made me look forward to meeting someone who gave me genuine affection. I couldn't wait to tell her about many complaints when I lived.

"Huh! You're stubborn. Chunghee is so stubborn."

I smiled and stunned to hide my face, covering up the many heavy things that I had been through. There was nothing wrong with saying 'stubborn' to me. The nickname suited me perfectly.

"Hey, Chunghee, you know, after you resigned, Mr. Kim was rarely seen in his office." Go Hyunjae said again.

I was startled as I heard those words, but I still tried not to show the shocked expression on my face.

"Huh, the staff and employees are difficult to show their works." Even though it sounded light, there were complaints that she couldn't hide. "Never mind them, Mr. Hye and I also had such a hard time meeting him. Every time we wanted to have a meeting with him, we had to talk to his new assistant first to ask Mr. Kim's approval. So, after seeing Mr. Kim's sudden behavior when you just resigned, I thought that there was an issue between you two."

I shook my head lightly and pulled the corners of my stiff lips to cover the startled that grew even more after hearing those words. "No. We're fine. I don't know why he's acting like that. It's probably because he's really busy. He is the owner of the two huge companies, isn't he?"

Even though I looked quiet, I felt very restless inside myself. I kept asking and thinking that Kim Daehyun changed because of me.

In the middle of our conversation, Go Hyunjae's cell phone rang. "Heh, look! We were just talking about him and he called me."

She showed the ID that was calling her now, 'Boss Kim'. Before answering the phone, she spoke, "Chunghee, I have to go now. Mr. Kim must be waiting for me right now." She then picked up the phone, then immediately left in a hurry.

I pondered for a moment when Go Hyunjae left this place. Thinking about Daehyun who acted as if he was losing something, made me jittery. But, I didn't want to think into it deeply. I didn't want to feel guilty that his change was purely due to me.

I immediately stood up, then walked to the hospital. But, accidentally I saw a church which was quite magnificent. I didn't mean to step inside, but my two feet unintentionally and lightly took a step, bringing my body inside.

I saw that only a few people were praying in here. Quite lonely for a large church like this.

I sat on the bench at the back, bowing my face so that God wouldn't see my gloomy face.

The impulse of my heart made me close my eyes, then began to raise my hands on my chest, holding my hands together by hooking the fingers to each other.

When I did it, my eyes stung with tears that had been wanting to escape. Until I couldn't take it anymore, I let it drip and flow more and more profusely.

Amid my tears, my heart slowly began to speak, "I'm sure that You saw everything that already happened in my life so far. I'm sure that You know exactly how our relationship has been. I know that I was making a big mistake all this time. But, if I ask for Your protection and pity, will You be willing to give?"

"I know that I will see You soon; following them who faced You first. And, I'm certainly sure that You know how I feel all this time. Even though I often ask for a faster time and say that I'm quite happy to welcome the death, you must know my true heart that I am so scared right now and only lied all this time. But, it isn't a complaint that I want to say to You. I'm also sure if you already know what I want to ask You as someone You are wrath with."

"Please, when I die, give happiness to someone that I love so much. Don't make him cry for me. Don't make him sad because of me. I don't want to feel guilty. I don't want to die regretfully for leaving him alone with sadness. Please, God, hear me. Amen."

After saying a prayer, I opened my wet eyes, then wiped the tears in my eyes by using a scarf.

I stood up, then stepped out of this place, continuing my steps to see Dr. Jeong in the hospital.

I hoped that God would answer my prayer. I knew that I was ashamed as someone who said inappropriate prayers. But, I also knew that God was very loving and wise in answering the prayers of people who need help from Him.