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Chapter 904

Chapter 904: Chapter 904 – I’m Very Happy, I Do Not Blame Anyone

She could not do it . So, no matter what she had to go through, she was going to have this baby .

Feng Tianlan looked up at Xi Lin, who wore a firm, loving smile on her pale face . It was unlike that languid but elegant young woman . She radiated the glow of maternal love .

She suddenly understood that Sister Lin, who seemingly cared about nothing and was extremely languorous in doing things, had her own tenacity and stubbornness .

Sister Lin’s feelings for He Lianhuang were similar to her decades-long unwavering trust in Feng Tianlan .

“I’m sorry . ” Feng Tianlan looked down . Her voice was full of guilt . If she were not just concerned about Xi Jin that night, she would have stayed by Sister Lin’s side and such a thing would not have happened .

Xi Lin felt bad as she held Feng Tianlan’s hand and said, “Tianlan, don’t say sorry to me . This matter really has nothing to do with you . I did it willingly . He Lianhuang was still rational at the time . He told me to go, but I didn’t leave…”

Xi Lin slowly described what happened that night . Her tone was very calm and happy .

That night she went to the West Partial Palace . Everything was normal when she saw He Lianhuang . And after checking with him, she realized that it was a scheme and the two of them would separate . But she found that something was wrong with him .

Although she was well protected deep within the palace, she had still heard about some crafty plots and machinations, so she guessed something was up .

He Lianhuang wanted her to leave but she was reluctant to . She did not feel reassured . She was the one who made the first move . He Lianhuang was still sensible at first . Then he lost all reason later and the two of them joined together as one .

“Afterwards, He Lianhuang said he would go to my King Father to ask for my hand and marry me . He said he would be responsible for me . ” At which point, Xi Lin smiled a bittersweet smile and continued, saying, “But I refused, because I think for two people to get marry, ‘being responsible’ is not enough . What I want is to get married because of love . No matter how much I like him, I will not compromise and marry him for political reasons or out of responsibility . Some things cannot be forced . ”

Not to mention, even if she could force him to marry her, it would not be sweet . It would be torture to both of them and increase each other’s disillusionment . So why should she do so?

It was better to stay like this . In any case, she would still have good memories . Good or bad, they would not dislike the sight of each other in the future . She could at least still retain a trace of self-esteem . And no matter what, she still had a friend like Tianlan .

She was also afraid that, if she got married, she would no longer be able to hold on one day and would be blinded enough by jealousy to harm Tianlan .

Therefore, it was best not to get married .

Feng Tianlan quietly listened to Xi Lin’s words . She had her own determination and she also had her own pride . But her feelings for He Lianhuang also gave her a sense of inferiority .

“Tianlan, I really don’t blame you for this matter . ” Xi Lin held Feng Tianlan’s hand tight . There was a hint of a tender smile on her face as she said, “Don’t blame yourself for everything . We should blame the people who hurt us . Whatever happens, we cannot blame the victim for being careless or for taking care . We can only blame the perpetrator . ”

Xi Lin knew that Tianlan would easily shoulder the responsibility as her own . It was what was good and bad about her . The only people at fault were Shen Yunya and herself because the former had set the trap, and the latter was the willing party .

This matter could not be pinned on Tianlan no matter what .

Feng Tianlan’s still felt uncomfortable and her chest was tight as she said, “Sister Lin…”

“It’s an incredibly happy thing for me . I wasn’t going to marry anyone anyway . Now, I don’t have to grow old alone . I have a child of my own . It’s really a wonderful thing,” Xi Lin said .