Chapter 253

Koushaku 253 – After his death

(TL: From Tanya’s side)

I enter her room after knocking a while without answer .

" . . . Tanya . ”

She barely elevates her head to see me in .

“Lady Iris . . . how are you?"

She lowers her head at my question and in a low voice mutters .

"I’m okay …"

“You can’t say that . It’s so painful to see you, screaming every night his name while suddenly waking up… . I can’t even say that you sleep, it’s just fainting from time to time .

If this condition continues, my lady will fall ill soon . "

“My condition will become better with time, no worries Tanya”

“It's my responsibility . I shouldn't have told you the information that Dean died . . . ”

I still regret that time .

…… It would have been good if I didn't report it .

Even if it's just a postponement of her suffering .

I've never seen her like this before .

Whether the man named Edward abandoned her or when the church accused her .

At any time, the young lady worries and immediately takes action .

She shed tears and continued to run looking forward .

. . . but now . . .

She was like an empty shell of her former self .

She sheds tears, faints, sheds tears . . . and the cycle continues .

I feel like her strength is sipping out until nothing is left .

But I can't do anything to help her .

This is terrible and frustrating .

. . . . . . Instead of protecting the lady, I can only look at her suffering like this . . . !

But she shakes her head quietly at my words .

“I would have come to know sooner or later anyway . . . . Because he is the first prince of this country . ”

She sighed at her words .

“But . . . I should have been more careful about the moment when to say it . You were very tired after all that happened and I brought in the news that your most loved person had died . Moreover, I was not able to comfort my lady . I couldn’t say otherwise when you asked me too . . .

It seems so painful . I can’t even imagine your suffering and I don’t know how to comfort you or help you . Losing someone I love is unimaginable . ”

"……Love?"

I suddenly opened my eyes at the unexpected words I said .

In response, Iris is surprised for a moment . . . but the next moment, she smiles sadly .

"Oh, didn't you realize until now?”

Iris reaction makes me think that I was correct at my statement .

" . . . Is that right? No, that can’t be . You really were in love with the first prince all this time?"

I wanted to cry at the thought of it .

"Tanya . You must take a break . "

It seems she used all her strength to utter those words .

"No . . . ! My lady you’re in such a state, I can't rest now . . . "

"That's why . Tanya . If I fall ill or end dead, who will continue leading these people?"

"but……"

"You are going now . This is an order . Rest . "

She reluctantly speak those enraging words .

“ . . . The orphanage children have visited several times . ”

She told me with a particularly gentle voice .

“Orphanage? From the territory?”

"Yes, yes . . . I hoped for the orphanages to be better places than before, and our efforts are bearing its fruit . So Tanya… please think of them… they’re awaiting our visit"

Iris laughs softly . . . Incredibly; she was able to smile, though it was awkward .

“Next time, I'll talk to him when I gather the strength to visit his tomb . We must close the curtain to our history and memories in a time of sadness . ”

I was relieved to hear that .

I think… my lady will recover… it will take time but she can! …