Chapter 112

Chapter 112 Something unshakeable

Under the weak light of the oil lamp, I scribbled furiously .

I felt that these few days, I keep hearing the same voice .

“…Hm…”

After I finished writing, I set the pen in my hand down and stretched . It wasn’t a creaking sound, but something slightly heavier than that, resounding through my body .

The moment my arms extended straight, my body relaxed against the chair, my arms lazily dropping to the chair’s arm . Although it was quite an uncultured way to sit, right now since I was alone it was fine .

In this position where my field of vision had become lower, I picked up the document I had just written and stared at it .

…Yep . Today’s work was finished as well .

Speaking of which…right, thinking of the fact that I hadn’t taken a single step out of this room since I entered it brought a bitter smile to my face .

If Tanya hadn’t reminded me, I probably wouldn’t even have remembered to eat .

When I was concentrating, I had the habit of ignoring everything around me . This was a trait that I shared with the previous version of myself before I had recalled all the memories from my past life . To say that it was imprinted in my soul was not an exaggeration .

“…Excuse me . ”

A knock at the door . Tanya walked into the room .

“I saw that the light was on, so I guessed…you seem to still be working . ”

Tanya looked quite concerned and let out a sigh .

I laughed at her reaction .

Coming back from the capital, I felt that Tanya had changed . In a good way, of course .

Should I say it was as if something troubling her had disappeared, or something tense inside her had relaxed…there was a certain gentleness to it .

“Please forgive me for speaking out of turn, but you should rest . Perhaps I don’t understand how important your duties are…but what I do understand is that if you collapse from exhaustion again, that will cause any progress on them to slow down . ”

It’s just that she spoke in pretty much the same way .

“Heh heh heh, you’re right, you’re right . I was thinking that it was about time to rest as well . ”

“That’s good to hear . ”

“But before then, I want to hear your report . I was thinking that you should have finished up by now, so I was waiting for you here . ”

“Then…I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to make you wait . ”

“I was the one who insisted on waiting . It’s fine . Show me the report . ”

As I read the file she handed to me, I listened to her explanation, which was filled with personal insights not recorded on the page .

“…I see . ”

I burned what I had read in the fire of the oil lamp . If there was a fireplace I would have used that, but unfortunately in the mild weather of this place, there was no such thing .

Even so, there were plenty of files that couldn’t be read by anyone else . Especially in my study, where I carried out most of my work .

That was why I poured some coarse sand into the vase that was set up at the front end of the desk, and threw the burning file in .

“So it seems that there are people with those views…after all…”

“…It’s a pity . Humans are such capricious creatures . If they don’t have something unshakeable holding them down, they are even more so . So even the most uncorrupted organizations will have members who waver . There’s nothing we can do about that . ”

“Yes . I know that all too well…that humans are capricious . No matter what, I’ve experienced that myself . But it’s more than that, isn’t it, Tanya? You can say it out loud . When a little girl like me takes over, I’m likely to be looked down upon . ”

“That…”

“Whatever, forget it . It’s not something we can solve by talking about . All right, Tanya . Go and gather everyone up . Location…hm . How about the newly constructed church?”

“Understood . Do you really mean everyone?”

“Yes . To be honest, after hearing your report, although I can guess what kind of actions those people will take in the future…I still want to see them again . Well, they probably won’t show up anyways . ”

“Understood . ”

“But either way, Tanya, it’s quite impressive that you could go into so much depth with your research . Have you been improving your skills?”

“Of course . For you, milady . Plus, information is ultimately just information . It’s only because you trust me and use the information I bring to you that they realize their ultimate value . ”

True . Information is intangible . If it’s mistaken then it’s just a regular rumor, or a result of wishful thinking . To filter the truths from the mix and trust them is very difficult .

“…Tanya, to you, what am I?”

“You’re the ‘unshakeable part of my existence’…my pillar, my support . ”

“Is that so? Tanya, you will not waver . Because I can sense that, you’re as good as a second pair of eyes and ears . That’s why I can trust and use the information that you bring me . ”

“I am highly honored, milady . ”

“…All right, I’m going to bed . Tanya, please help with cleaning up . ”

“Understood . ”