The video is almost two hours long. It’s almost like a movie, almost like a documentary, but definitely a nightmare.

Titled, ‘The Elizabeth Truth’ the video is already been seen by everyone in school and shared outside the group where it’s made its way public. Grace is the first one to ask me about it but I don’t know what to tell her. I give her the record and go to my room to watch it. Andrew is already midway through.

The video itself is very simple. Bo explains that this is his life’s work that took him months to complete. Through this video he hopes that he found the answers we all been looking for: the reason why Elizabeth killed herself.

Bo recaps who Elizabeth was. She was the queen bee, the top dog, Ms. Untouchable. This wasn’t anything new, no, Bo went into detail who Elizabeth was going down to who her mother and father was and even mentions the divorce and remarriage. Bo has done his research and concluded that everything started when she began to date Cody. This is where the video clips that Bo had captured started to play out. It’s terrifying, really. Bo depicts Elizabeth as this girl who got drunk at every party to escape this dread she had. Through the clips he exposes Elizabeth the friendship she had with us that she never really made public. There’s clips of inside Emily’s house that were taken from outside of the times we would all get together. They’re creepy. Bo was stalking her all along, but the comments never focused on that fact. The clips show Elizabeth smoking weed with us, and even doing lines with me at parties where we thought it was private.

There’s interviews with her former friends and everyone that wanted to be in the video. They either praise the girl or hate on her. Either way the entire purpose is to get to know who Elizabeth was. I remember I was onced asked but declined because I thought it wouldn’t lead to anything and quickly forgot about it.

Then there’s this scene that has never been on any of Bo’s videos. He must have never made it public because of this project. I skip over the video every minute to see if the party changes. It doesn’t until the last fifteen minutes. I go back and start watching again. Bo has Elizabeth alone during the Jana Kramer party two summers ago, a party people still try to recreate. They’re both outside near the streets.

“It’s all bullshit,” Elizabeth says, well I guess said.

“What is?”

Elizabeth is clearly drunk. I can see her mascara running and she’s a complete mess. “Living,” she laughed. “It’s just one big joke. It doesn’t mean anything.”

“What do you mean by that?”

Elizabeth takes a drink out of her cup and then throws it on the ground where the rest of it spills. I don’t even think she’s conscious. “What I mean is that, uh, um,” Elizabeth is hard to understand, she’s slurring too much. “It’s bullshit. It’s just. Meaningless. What’s the point when everything around you is shit?” Elizabeth is frowning. In the short five seconds that the camera focuses on her, I can clearly see her pain. It’s familiar. I can’t put words to it yet. For now all I can think of is suffering but it’s not the right word.

No. It’s dreadful suffering. Elizabeth hides it well, but so do it. Maybe that’s why I can see it.

Bo said, “I still don’t get it. Are you okay?”

Elizabeth laughs a little bit. “Everyone around us is bullshitting each other, Bo! Everyone’s a snake! Nobody is ever real.”

“And that’s a bad thing?”

The camera shifts focus to the people behind Elizabeth. Two randoms girls throwing up. Elizabeth looks over and scoffs. The camera focus back on Elizabeth. “He called me blue flower…” there about ten seconds of their silence as the music filled background.

Bo stops the video to add his own commentary. “I found her words to be creepy and unsettling, like she had lost her mind. Of course she was pretty drunk at this point so at the time I thought nothing of it. I looked up the meaning of what she meant and a blue flower represents peace and tranquility. Did she mean she was at peace with her suicide at that point? To be honest, I dug to deep into this and it didn’t really make much sense. However, I noticed she mentioned the word ‘he’. He called me blue flower. There’s only person Elizabeth was seeing at that point, and that was Cody. Cody has now long graduated and trying to reach out for a comment was nearly impossible.” The video cuts to The Crocodile’s entrance; A venue where artists play live.

Bo buys a ticket and there are several cuts of crowd and eventually of Cody performing on stage. The video doesn’t focuses on it as much and then it cuts to Bo catching Cody outside. Cody refuses to comment.

The video cuts back to where it was left off. The scene repeats itself, with Elizabeth saying, “He called me blue flower…” and again there is the five seconds of silence.

“How much have you had to drink?”

“A blue flower,” Elizabeth laughs, then sadly throws up shortly after.

The video cuts to Elizabeth and her friends teasing a girl I don’t know, causing her to run away inside the woodland forest of Darkwood. We’ve all seen this part. Elizabeth and her friends come back twenty minutes later like nothing happen but this time Bo points the blood on Elizabeth’s shoe. Nobody actually knew what happened to the girl although there were hundreds of rumors. Bo confirms who the girl was and how she moved towns shortly after.

With the video only having twenty minutes left, the video only has two major things to show as Bo states out. One is the follow up video he made with Elizabeth after she bullied the girl.

“Why did you do it?” Bo asks.

They’re inside this time. Elizabeth is nearly passed out on the couch in the living room with Bo standing in front of her. The party has died down and on it’s last legs. Bo spent this time mostly observing the room. All the comments around this time noted how Jana Kramer's house had a lot of religious imagery.

“Because I’m a piece of shit,” Elizabeth laughs. “Because I’m a piece of shit,” Elizabeth repeats again, but in a soft whisper this time. “Why does anyone even like me?”

“Because you’re insanely hot?”

“Bo, are you hitting on me?” Elizabeth’s drunk laughter is distracting. It sort of hard to watch because it feels wrong, like she dead now so it feels taboo.

“Uh, no?”

“Why do you like me then?”

“I don’t know. You’re popular. Everyone wants to be your friend.”

“Those are all superficial reasons.”

“Then…” Bo pauses. In the video I notice my brother is making out with some girl in the background. Elizabeth looks over for a second. “You’re pretty. That’s why.”

“And if I were to die tomorrow, would you be sad?”

“Of course.”

Elizabeth looks over to my brother, then back at the camera. “And if I had a kid, would you still find me pretty?”

This confirms that Elizabeth knew then that she was pregnant with Andrew, something we never found out until much later. Bo questions this, making a theory that Cody was father but her odd glances at my brother changes his theory to him. I don’t think anyone besides my group knew, and now it public knowledge.

“Why are you saying all of this?”

“Because my angel in the white dress is disappointed in me.”

The last scene is of her final hour. I think this the hardest thing to watch. Not only because what it contains, but that I was also responsible. I can’t ever deny that fact. I gave her the drugs.

Bo this investigation on what exactly went down at our party. First, Eli got fucked up. Second she told everyone either she loved them or hated them. Third, she disappeared for ten minutes. Bo later finds her sitting with us and records the last moments we were all together. She leaves and goes to the bathroom. Elizabeth leaves and is clearly not conscious at this point as people try to talk to her but she never responds. Bo catches her leaving the house and coming back five minutes later. He notes that this is where she got the gun as this is the only time she has her purse.

Elizabeth looks catatonic, or apathetic whichever fits better as we all try to interact with her but she just shrugs us off. Out of nowhere she starts calling the name of one of her friends but it takes a while for her to get there. “Girl, you’re a mess, let’s take you home.”

“No.” Elizabeth visibly takes hold of something inside of her purse.

Then Grace out of nowhere turns around and hurls on Elizabeth, causing her to run out to the woods where eventually, everyone found her dead.

Bo stops the video here and says that all this footage has been shown to the police although it never really lead anyone. Bo proposes his theory. Elizabeth, in a state of insanity due to the drug addiction planned on killing her friend for all the bullshit to reset. This all came from the newfound stress of finding out she was pregnant and her own loss of control. He blames me and my brother, and Cody and everyone else who was involved with her discovery of said drugs.

“I can’t confirm that everything shown in this video is factual, but it’s my best hypothesis on the suicide of Elizabeth Wilson.”

The video ends.