[Warning: Below 18 you might want to skip this... Parental Guidance highly recommended!!! ]

As I have said, I was a fearful moth being drawn to the fire… Jacob's eyes being the fire! So, before I knew it, my feet found their way in front of Jacob's room. It was past midnight and everyone was fast asleep, even the night shift. I knew his door would be unlocked because that's how he wanted it to be. So, with heart racing and hand shaking, I turned the knob and went in.

The familiar arrangement of his room reminded me of the last time I was there... when I was drunk and the morning of his confessions. I quietly closed the door behind me and walked to the sleeping Jacob. I smiled as I stared at his peaceful and handsome face. I placed my hand over my heart and admitted again to myself that I love this man so much!

I sat down at the side of his bed and my movement immediately woke Jacob up and took the gun under his pillow and pointed it at me. I gasped. He quickly lowered it down after seeing it was me.

"What are you doing here?" he asked me right away as he put his pistol away.

"I haven't talked to you for the whole day," I began. "I think I miss you."

Jacob took a very deep breath and covered his face with the palm of his hands. "You're really making this so difficult," I heard him groan.

"Is everything alright? What is difficult?" I asked worriedly. I took his hand and pulled it off his face so I could see his expression.

He gazed at me again. This time with such a painful expression.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

In response, Jacob grabbed the back of my head and pulled me into a heated kiss. This time, his kisses reminded me of our first one. It was wanting! He needed me so I kissed him back. When I did that though, he harshly pulled me away from him and hissed.

"Don't do that!" he said sternly but quietly.

I furrowed my brows, "Why not?"

"Editha, I… I .." he said and stopped.

I was getting irritated, "What?!"

He sighed and gazed upon me, "I want you… I ache for you."

"Well, I'm here," I said, quite oblivious to what he meant.

He hissed and looked away. "I'm losing my self-control," he said and turned back. He held my face.

My eyes widened finally realizing his struggles. He had been controlling himself! He needed something to happen between us but he was avoiding me so it wouldn't. My heart skipped. Then, I remembered the last time he had a woman. That was a long time ago, it was still in Iwahi.

I took a deep breath. I did not know what to do. Heaven knows I want Jacob and I love him with all my heart… and we got married in Palavana. I looked at him again and my heart ached after seeing the painful expression on his face. So, I held his cheek and I smiled.

"Jacob…" he looked at me. "... I do not know what goes on between a man and a woman but if you need me, I think… I'm willing… You do not need to hold back," I whispered.

Jacob planted a kiss on my lips, "Are you sure about this?"

I nodded, "We got married at Palavana after all. So, considering that, I am already your wife, though it's technically null and void elsewhere."

Jacob chuckled and kissed me again. This time, he did not let go. He pulled me to him closer and our kiss deepened. I felt his hand on my lower back as he gently supported me to lay down on his bed. I was not sure what to do so I just responded to his kisses and wrapped my hands around his neck… Then, I continued to feel and to anticipate what would happen next…

One of Jacob's hands, the one that was behind me began to move. It traced the curve of my waist and continued its quest lower. His touch turned my skin warm with delight underneath the fabric of my dress. His other hand began to trail the bare skin from my neck down to the collarbone. I gasped.

His lips let go of mine and began to follow the trail that his fingers left. He kissed me on my cheek, then my jaw line.. down to my neck where he nipped and supped.

"Oh my goodness!" I gasped softly as I felt the bliss of a new tingling sensation that Jacob had brought me.

From my collarbone, his hand slid to my shoulders and pulled the sleeves of my dress down. His lips followed and I could feel not just his lips but his tongue as he tasted me. I closed my eyes. What should I do? What should I do? I wanted to give him the same pleasure that I was feeling but I am clueless as to what to do.

Before I knew it, his other hand was behind me and he undid my dress, baring my upper half for his eyes to see. After that, his hands were unfixed. Their quest continued, exploring places in my body that were untouched by any other man. Then, he cupped my bosom. I instantly opened my eyes. I was shocked. I took a deep breath. I was nervous… anxious… a bit uncomfortable… but his touch was .. was, for lack of better word, glorious!

He paused and looked at me. I stared back. "Are you alright?" he asked me softly.

"I don't know," I answered honestly.

"Do you want me to stop?' he asked again.

"NO!" I answered quickly. "I do not want you to stop… I just… I just… I don't know what to do. What should I do?"

He smiled and tangled his hand with mine. Then, he brought it to his lips and supped. "You're doing perfectly... perfect..." he said.

Jacob gazed at me as he left a trail of kisses from my hand up to my arm back to my already bare upper half. Then, he looked at me as if asking permission. I gave him a small smile and I watched him as he lowered his lips to where his other hand was.

A sensual sound escaped my mouth as I felt his lips… tongue made contact with the sensitive flesh that was there. He was gentle… slow.. patient… His lips kissed all of my skin that he bared while his hands stroked my lower half this time, looking for something. When he found what he was looking for I could not help but call out his name.

"Jacob!" I gasped.

His hand was still on top of my undergarments but I could feel how my body was responding to him. I wasn't aware my body could feel this way.

Then, Jacob took a deep breath. He withdrew his hand from that part and pulled my sleeves back up to cover my bare flesh. I scrunched my forehead as he got off of me as quickly as he could and went to his desk to get a drink of water.

I sat up and watched him. I felt somehow worried and disappointed at the same time, "Is everything alright?" I asked.

Jacob turned to me. He went back and sat at the side of the bed. "Yes.. you're perfect…" he said and tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear.

Jacob cut me off, "I had to. I want to make this right. Marry me," he asked.

I was surprised by his sudden proposal.

"We will dock at Ithaca at noon. Marry me there. We'll find a minister or a priest. Be my wife, Editha. Will you marry me?" he asked me again.

I smiled and nodded, "Yes, of course I'll marry you."