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As expected for a child's body, my head is immediately heavy. My eyes are slowly shutting as if I had used all my vigor after chanting a spell. Right, I have forgot my body's capacity. It is different from what I used to have before. I should be careful next time...

My younger body back then used to become elegant and noble. Only few moves should have been done or else I would get punished. That's why when I was abducted and lost my memories, it took me so many months to recover.

My mental state may be different now, by my physical state is surely the same.

My body cannot handle so much stuffs that I did not pay attention before.

Even if my eyes are already closed, I managed my balance as my pony is carrying me. I did not fall down and Chompie secures me safety either.

It did not take long when Chompie had reached the forest. The thunderstorms were heard and it was striking in different direction as if it was so angry. The deity, Sanda, must have been angered from what our small kingdom had done. Full of greed and lust for power; surely, Sanda is punishing us with thunderstorms.

Sanda, is the deity of Lightning. Though she is always known for being angry, the deity is fair and square. She is good with her judgments and surely, she is aware that what my kingdom had done is wrong. Harmonia is wrong as well. It is difficult to side with the two kingdoms.

Could Sanda punish all the people from the two kingdoms for their fault? or is she only giving a warning about what disaster could have my kingdom and Harmonia will bring?

I don't know...

All I know is that after this, I will suffer a lot.

Maybe, she did not strike the lightning directly to us, but a lot of people had surely lost their lives during this war.

When will these wars end?

Why do the kingdoms always have them?

Even if it is already dawn, the forest is still glowing. The magical trees and plants are seen everywhere. The Nymphs and Faries' dust are everywhere. It was glowing with different colors. Fireflies are everywhere and the sky is so romantic.

Whenever you go, the stars will always follow you...

The forest may seem alluring as it should be, however, behind on its beauty, there are so many wild creatures hiding. Such as serpents, snakes, wolves, lion, scorpions, or some dangerous flying creatures. If you can defend yourself against them, and your will to live is strong such as mine, you won't be harmed by them.

My younger self had so much fears but after losing her memories, she lost her fears too. She also wished to live and nothing else. That makes the other creatures stopped attacking me before.

I heard the wolves' howl.

I may have used by these voices before, but my body is not comfortable with it. I felt the cold breeze hugging me. My anxiety is flowing through my blood.

My pony is a coward ones. Even we were once comfortable to each other, she left me. She ran away making me fell from the bumpy road ahead.

I let out a tear and almost screamed in pain. These were once nothing to me. But right now, the pain is starting to kill me. I felt the flesh coming out from my wounds. I immediately cried.

Chompie is a tall pony so I fell from a high impact. I also fell in the wrong ones. Instead of a grassy road, I went into the rocky road. Several wounds appeared before me.

The howling of the wolves became louder making the other wild creatures growl too.

Is that their calling for having a dinner?

The road is not flat, it is full of steep roads. I rolled over and over on the cliff.

I had several wounds on my body and I stink a lot of blood over me.

These wounds are very similar to that day.

Does that mean... I cannot change my fate?

I immediately got my head dizzy from the wounds I've had. My body rolled over on the rocks and I am not able to stand or move myself. I can no longer have my voice to scream in pain. All I can do is to cry silently.

My eyes became blurred and I immediately passed out.

It was so dark and I could not see anything else. I only hear some unfamiliar sounds and some of them are not even clear.

But I heard a conversation that was very familiar to me... It was once I had heard before I lost my memories.

"This kid will be useless. I should torture her in this forest." a voice of a man I had heard.

I couldn't see anything clear. He poisoned me. What a pity! I am dying already.

"Why don't we do it together? We don't know if we'll came out alive this day. At least before we die, we satisfy ourselves, right?"

"Right. No one should know about this..."

"I'm good at secrets!"

"She is still alive... Bang her head on the rock!"

No! Don't kill me... Don't....

If I was given a chance to open my eyes and live, what kind of live will I have?

If I had lived in the kingdom, I would still suffer. Now that I am lost, abducted, and have nowhere to go, I am still suffering.

When does my innocence became a sinful act for me to suffer this much? I did what the Queen and King said. I am obedient to them.

But why is the world forbidding me to live?

"Finally. She lost her consciousness. We can do it now!"

"Isn't it better if she's alive?"

"Well, we don't have more time to choose the person we'll do for. Let's do it now!"

No. Stop! No!

I want to live. I still want to live. I was only given a 10 years lifespan to live. I can't die like this. I won't die like this!

I won't die....

Wake up! Open your eyes!

Natha---!

"Are you alright?" after hearing a voice, my eyes suddenly opened.

I found out that my eyes are unconsciously shedding tears.

The voice came from a lady who wears a white dress and her eyes are blue as mine. Her hair are gold too but has the shade of darkness and silver. She is like the moon, at the same time, she also shines like a sun.

Who is she?

"Are you okay?" She repeated.

"W-Who are you?" I asked. I manage to move my body but I moaned in pain.

She smiled at me. "We met again..."

My head began to hurt again after hearing her words. I have no memories of encountering a different creature like her.

"Are you a fairy?" I asked.

"I am a deity." she corrected me.

I began to frown. Did I die? or what happened right now was only an illusion? Did I already die when James stabbed me, or did I die after falling?

I don't know!

this is such a mess!

I am feeling sores and pain throughout my whole body. I couldn't be dead, right?

But if I am not dead, how am I possible to meet and see such a deity with so much clarity?

"You are not dead. The reason why you are seeing me... is because of the powers you have inside you." She replied.

My eyes widened to my surprise. I moved my body backwards though it is painful for me. How did she know I have powers inside me?

Are deities like that? Viewing mortals as if they don't have any privacy?

I immediately felt uncomfortable after seeing my dress turning into red because it is already soaked in blood and my hands are full of wounds.

Unlike when I went here alone, I have so many companies. Such as soldiers and warriors who died. Full of them are wounded. Barely of them made it alive.

My body shivered in fear immediately. It is reacting opposite on what I am thinking.

I just lost my consciousness not for too long ago? How could it be, soldiers went here already and died? If they went here, they could have seen me and killed me!

But... what if the voices I heard through my head is true? It happened again?!

I immediately touched my clothes and I sighed after finding out that I am still fine...

The deity smiled at me again, "I protected you." She replied.

"How could I see you through my powers?" I asked in curiosity.

"I thought you had your memories before and remembered them all? Did I not give you my divine powers before?" She answered.

My eyebrows furrowed as if I don't understand anything she is telling me.

If I knew I was given something like that from a deity, I could have been happier. Maybe my life would not turn into a mess and miserable. Maybe, I could have escaped the fate I had before.

But this doesn't make any sense. Just who is she?

"Maybe your consciousness is not yet alright. But before that, you should go somewhere else first. You have someone to save. If you don't hurry, your fate might not be changed anymore." she replied as if she knows everything what's going on my mind.

"Who?"

"You'll know later. Since you have made an action to change your fate, it affected someone's fate and the impact is stronger that what did you do." she replied.

She gave me her hand and I immediately stood up. The pain and sores I have felt all around my body were finally now healed. The wounds are still visible but it is not bleeding anymore. My heart says I could trust her.

She brought me the direction and I immediately followed her. My body is still shivering in fear but I managed to walk with courage through the help of my other memories.

Whoever that person is... I wish... my fate to be changed....

All I want is to be loved and be happy. To live peacefully and no more wars.

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Words and Terms:

Scorpion - a terrestrial arachnid with pincers similar to those of a lobster and a poisonous sting at the end of its jointed tail, which it can hold curved over its back. Most kinds live in tropical and subtropical areas.

Serpents - a large snake.

Flying Creature - A number of animals are capable of aerial locomotion, either by powered flight or by gliding. An example of this in the story are the Griffin, Garuda, Perytons and etc. Dragons also exist in this novel, you might encounter them soon.

Nymph - a mythological spirit of nature imagined as a beautiful maiden inhabiting rivers, woods, or other locations.

Fairy - a small imaginary being of human form that has magical powers, especially a female one.

fairy dust - (uncountable) a magical powder that would give the power of flight to whoever it was sprinkled on. (by extension) any apparently magical ingredient or effect.

Deity - a god or goddess (in a polytheistic religion).

Kingdom of Fiderecio - A small kingdom located in Mystica, known for their talented army and assassins. This kingdom is being ruled by King Bartolome and Queen Deoria.

Kingdom of Harmonia - A kingdom that is quite huge and located in Mystica. They are known by their armory, wealth and wide population of aristocrats.

Vigor - exuberant and resilient strength of body or mind; vitality. substantial effective energy

Spell - a state of enchantment caused by a magic spell

Assassin - a murderer of an important person in a surprise attack for political or religious reasons.

????????????????????????❜???? ????????????????: To avoid confusion, I will summary today's chapter. Nathalia successfully went to the forest she desired to go to however due to the frightening thunderstorms of the deity Sandra, the pony she was riding on immediately ran making Nathalia fall and roll to the steepy road until she fell on a small cliff. After that, she lost her consciousness. While losing her consciousness, she suddenly remembered the voices of the two men who were talking on how they will take advantage on her and torture her until she dies completely. That was her memories in the past timeline. When she woke up, she immediately saw a beautiful lady. This lady was a deity and wanted to help her.