I opened my eyes. I huddled in the blanket that covered my naked body. My whole body hurts. And my head still feels heavy. I looked at the clock, it was 7 in the evening.

The image of what Leonard was doing to my body made me shiver, angry and terrified. Forcing me to close my eyes again and feel myself utterly ashamed, hateful, angry, annoyed mixed with a moment of remembering his touch that my body couldn't resist and the primitive urge of satisfaction that arose made me disgust myself.

I don't know the feeling I feel now, it feels numb, my tears flow again and I sob so badly hours later, I cry until my tears dry and I can't cry anymore. I hated myself very much, cursed my own foolishness, which let me let my guard down in danger. And I accept the consequences now.

I just lay in my nakedness. I wanted to die, but my blood drained as I remembered that bastard Leonard's face. I won't die before I can make him beg under my feet. I couldn't move, letting myself drown in a long cry in this dark lonely room.

Several calls came from Daniel and Alexander I ignored. I can't talk to anyone yet. Even I can't face myself. I was pensive for a long time. Think what happened. And how do I now understand what Alexander said to me.

"You are the source of my strength, but you are also my greatest weakness."

Beside the bedside table I found a letter. My blood boils as soon as I read the contents.

'Dear Alexa. I leave you here, I have to say thank you for our memorable togetherness. If you say a word to Alexander about this incident. Your video will spread throughout the world. Destroying everyone you know, including your family business and Alexander your future husband. So for your own good. Follow my words. I'm going to keep this video a secret. Do you want to see it? I'll leave it with you on this USB. And in exchange for this secret I was keeping I will ask you something later. Don't try to fight me. Leonard. '

I tore the paper to pieces. I want to kill that man right now, with my own hands. But I realized I didn't have the strength for that.

I have to do something, I can't allow myself to be the source of Alexander's weakness again. I can't lose to that jerk Leonard. And I know how to be strong. I put my clothes back on with trembling hands.

I grabbed my cellphone. Line of calls coming from Alexander, Mother and Daniel. What do I have to answer? I thought for a moment. Before I called my best friend Louise.

"Louise." My voice was still shaking from crying too much.

"Alexa? What is wrong? Why are you calling me at night like this? " It seemed that Louise had fallen asleep, it was one o'clock at night.

"Can you help me? I need your help. Can I open a vortex to your apartment? " I started sobbing again.

"What happened to you? Are you crying? Come here. " Louise panicked at my sobs.

I stood up and opened the vortex. It seems that my aura is not affected by the condition of my body which is a little messed up due to the influence of the drug.

I walked into the living room of Louise's apartment. Louise, who seemed to have fallen asleep, widened her eyes when she saw me enter.

"Oh my God Alexa, what really happened?" He hugged me and I cried again in my best friend's arms.

"Louise, can you return the calls of Mom and Daniel? Say I fell asleep at your place. I can't face them now. "

"Okay, I'll get you warm milk. You have eaten?" I shook my head.

"Wait a minute"

Louise brought me warmed milk and spaghetti. Before she left, call Mom and Daniel in the other room. I forced myself to drink the fermented milk and eat. But all the images of what happened this afternoon continued to spin in my head. I gave up eating.

I replied to Alexander's message. Saying that I was tired and fell asleep at Louise's place. An incoming call rang a second later as soon as my message was read.

"Alexa?"

"Yeah sorry I fell asleep, can we talk back tomorrow?" My voice choked. I almost cried again when I heard his voice.

"Where are you? You are okay?" Alexander seems to have realized something was wrong.

"I'm at Louise's place"

"Why are you there?" Alexander is after me.

"Can we talk tomorrow Alex? Please. " I have to put this call to an end before I sob again.

"I'll be in London tomorrow night. You're clearly not okay. "

"No, I'm just tired. I'm leaving, tomorrow we talk again. " I immediately turned off Alexander's phone. And sobbing sadly again.

Louise who came immediately hugged me.

"Alexa, what happened to you?" I kept crying and haltingly told what happened to me. I don't think I have the energy anymore to tell a story. Louise hugged me tightly hearing my story which was mixed with my sobs. My eyes are already swollen from crying too much. Even without realizing it, I fell asleep while crying because of the fatigue and the lingering effect of the drugs.

***

I woke up with a nightmare and Louise woke me up forcefully. My breath was raging and my body broke out in cold sweat from dreaming that Leonard came to me again and I couldn't fight back again.

I couldn't sleep anymore even though I was very tired, I sat looking at the dim morning sky from the large window of Louise's apartment. Forcing myself into the bathtub and cleaning myself, and then sobbing again because I remembered what I'd been through. I don't know when I can forget it, maybe it won't be for the rest of my life, it will remain in my memory leaving a trauma for the rest of my life.

"Alexa, are you okay?" A worried Louise knocked on my bathroom door to confirm my situation.

"I'm fine, I'll be out in a moment." I lifted myself out of the bathtub. Trying to switch worlds. I have to support myself. Trying to fight against the people who want to destroy me.

"Louise, can I borrow your clothes? I don't want to wear my old clothes. I'm going to the Pyrenees to prepare a recovery squad. I need to take my mind off. " Louise immediately gave her legionary clothes.

"You sure want to go there. I can accompany you today, we can take a walk. "

"I'm fine it's already the last week of battle preparation."

Alexa, you have to tell Alexander. You can't be quiet and hide this incident. " Louise stood looking at me at the door of the room.

"I know, I'll do it after this war is over Louise. I don't want this problem to split Alexander's concentration and if my family finds out there will be clan wars. I have to finish this myself until this war ends Louise. "

"How did you solve it?"

"By becoming much stronger"

"How?" Louise urged me. I looked at him uncertainly. Maybe I know how. But I'm not sure I can do it without good reason.

"I'm not sure."

Alexander is not as weak as you think Alexa. He's been through a lot. You have to let him act. " Maybe Louise was right. But I will jeopardize this war if I tell her, she will go on a rampage and someone will die.

My thoughts are divided all day. Half of my work isn't going well. Finally, I gave up and started meditation. I've learned mind magic, I'm able to influence a person's mind to obey my orders. I have to meet Leonard again and force him to obey me. I decided that was the best I could take.

Isn't it dangerous to see him alone? Obviously dangerous, physically stronger than mine. I would even lose control of the mind spell if she could avoid my mind trap by turning it into physical strength. I have to be physically strong. Dead end! I have no way of dealing without relying on Alexander's help.

I got to the Alexander Mansion at nine in the evening. He hurried from Grenoble to meet me in London.

"Alexa" He said my name and I hugged him when we met. It felt safe in his arms. For a moment like the burden of sadness on my shoulders lifted.

"We have to talk, have you eaten?" I nod.

"Tell me what happened?" He didn't waste time asking me when we were alone.

"Alex," my tears immediately flowed because I remembered what happened last night.

Alex quickly hugged me.

"I want to ask something, you promised to grant my two wishes!" I spoke with a sob.

"Say"

"I want a blood exchange and blood pact before the war starts." Alexander stares at me. He was silent for a long time.

"Why are you asking for this now?"

"Because I don't want to be your weakness." I looked at him, he shook his head.

"What happened last night Alexa? Tell me now, what made you think you were my weakness?" What happened?" Alexander holds my arm tight and shakes my body. He was very curious about what happened. But I won't tell him until he fulfills my wish.

"I want a blood exchange, Alex, I'll talk if you fulfill two of my wishes. Don't you love me? " I emphasized my sentence once again. This is the only way to face Leonard.

"I love you, you know very well. But it is a decision for life. You can't do that because of an emotional impulse like this. And obviously you did it because something happened yesterday, not because you decided to live with me. What if you make it up? " I immediately burst into tears because of his words.

"Please Alexa, don't cry anymore." Alexander hugged me,

"Whatever happens you have to believe I can solve it. I will never leave you alone. " He looked me in the eye as he said it.

"You won't leave me alone?"

"I swear by the spirits of my two children. I won't leave you alone. " Alex took me into his arms again. I hugged him tight, and he kissed my forehead and stroked my back.

"Now tell me, what really happened?" He looked me straight in the eye. I'm looking for the words I have to say.

"Yesterday Leonard… he… he…" Alex's grip on my arm tightened when I heard Leonard's name.

"What about Leonard? Say it! "

"He took me out to lunch, he put something in my drink and ..." My tears spilled beyond me, Alexander stared at my words.

"He .." I could not continue my words. My tears have broken. I smacked my face against Alexander's chest which was frozen for a moment, before he hugged me tightly.

"That bastard touched you?" I can only cry at Alexander's words.