He suddenly stopped, no longer continue, a pair of black horses like the deep sea general, dark cold, "so, in your opinion, I painstakingly to find you, carefully close to you, because not reconciled?"

Touching the pain in his eyes, I bowed my head and didn't want to see him any more.

Watching him leave, I lay on the bed with tears running down my cheeks.

"Good!" For a long time, he spit out a word, clean and sharp.

There was a chill in the air. His hands on both sides were clenched into fists, and the veins on the back of his hands appeared.

I breathed, bit my lip slightly and said, "if you can, I'd like to go to the Civil Affairs Bureau together and get the divorce certificate."

He stopped, slender spine a little stiff, did not look back at me, just shallow should be a, "Hmm!"

"Fu Shenyan!" I said, stop him.

He put down his bag, put it on the bedside table, took his cell phone and car key, and then turned to leave.

I lay in bed, he stood by the window, voice low introverted, with a sense of powerlessness, "clothes here, since then, I will not pester you, you are free."

When he came back, he carried two bags in his hand. He did not shy away from me. He put on his clothes in front of the bed and dried his hair.

Before long, he came out of the bathroom, the door of the room was knocked, and he went out with a bath towel on his waist.

"Chen Yi, send me two sets of clothes." He hung up and went into the bathroom.

For a long time, he got up, went to one side in silence, picked up the phone and dialed out.

So, I chose to leave him.

I am a human being, not a beast. I will be tortured by memories. Once I see other people's kindness and filial piety, I will break down and my inner resentment will devour me. I can never love this man calmly. I will only hate him more and more.

But fate makes people, I just can't give birth, which means that my whole life will be involved by the dead child, and I will bear the past all my life.

I've tried to let go, and I've also tried to forget all the hurt in the past. I used to think that as long as I'm pregnant with another child, all kinds of things in the past will be buried.

I wry smile, "yes, you think as long as we love each other enough and understand each other enough, we can still live together and become an enviable couple. But Fu Shenyan, ask yourself, can we really ignore the past? At least, I can't

He looked at me, a pair of black eyes, like the winter ice in general, deep cold.

He was stunned, I choked, "you clearly know, yes, I love you, but so what? I could have had children like other women, but because of your selfishness, you let me go through hell, made me lose a child, and made me never be a mother. You also make me unable to face up to my biological parents. You make us kill each other and become enemies. Are these not enough for me to push you away? "

"Fu Shenyan, what do you want from me?" I kind of collapsed. "Don't you know why I pushed you away? I can't have a baby. You've done all this. I am also a girl who needs the love of my parents. Since I was a child, I envied that other girls could ride on my father's shoulders. You have destroyed all my expectations of my parents. Are these not enough? "

See I don't open mouth, he sneer, "how, even oneself all feel guilty?"

Chin was pinched by him, he forced me to look at him, eyes firm, voice low introverted, "hide what? Just tell me, what are you afraid of? "

Life is long, all of these have to start from scratch, the next life, I hope we do not have to be too amazing, do not love each other vigorously, just ordinary encounter, ordinary go to the white head.

This night is doomed to be a sleepless night.