He pursed his lips and looked embarrassed. "So, are you going to use your own?"

"What else needs to be done?" He sighed, a little helpless.

I nodded, went into the door and said, "was she OK last night?"

Open the door to see me and Fu Shenyan, he Leng for a while, then face calm way, "four seasons just fell asleep."

I took Fu Shenyan to Yuntong apartment. Chen Xing company has no holiday and is still busy. Jon takes care of Siji.

Mrs. Zhang doesn't spend the new year with us, so we are left with Fu Shenyan and me.

It's the end of the year. Most companies have taken annual leave, and Fu Shenyan has nothing to do with it.

……

I didn't speak. I was too stupid to know how to deal with this marriage.

Building me for a while, I lean on his heart, his voice is low and introverted, "no matter how we fight, we can't divorce casually, Shen Shu, I won't let you go, and I won't divorce you."

He is late Leng for a while, slender tall body slightly stiff for a while, he stretched out his hand to embrace me, some helpless, "silly!"

I shook my head and looked at him. My eyes were a little uncomfortable. "No, I didn't want to hurt you. I just didn't feel safe. I'm afraid you'll leave. I'm afraid you don't want me!"

He looked back at me, his eyes deep, "so, you ignore all my feelings? In the heart put all people, only to hurt me? "

I can't say what it's like in my heart. This action is almost subconscious. "I want to put you first than anyone else, but I'm more afraid that one day I can't leave you, but you leave suddenly."

"Shen Shu, you are good." Seeing that he turned to go, I reached out and held him.

For a long time, he released me, some decadent back two steps, self mocking hook lips, relieved.

The light in the bedroom is dim and gloomy, but his eyes are particularly bright, four eyes are opposite, but I have no way to speak for a moment.

What Fu Shenyan wants, in fact, I always know, is just what I need and put in my heart.

Fu Shenyan looked at me with deep and complex eyes, "what about me? For you, am I not even an important person? What Gu Han left you is a pity. How about me? What is it? A dispensable husband? "

Because of love, I put myself in his shoes. This child is like this to me. I give her all the good I can do.

I don't know how to love others, and I don't know how to accept others' love, but I know that there is another word for love, which is good to him.

For a long time, I said, "the child is premature, not in good health, and there is no breast milk. Now it's a three-month-old child, but it looks like he was just born. Fu Shenyan, I was an orphan since I was a child. My grandmother raised me. It's lucky for me. Now my grandmother and Muzi are gone. She entrusts the child to me. What I have to do is to do my best to protect her 。”

He was silent and did not speak.

I pursed my lips and felt angry in my heart. "Fu Shenyan, are you interesting?"

"Massage and other ways?" he suddenly sneered, "massage yourself? And then what are you going to do in another way? " His words are full of satire.

"The doctor said, with massage and other methods..." I pursed my lips and didn't say anything.

I honestly explained, "Chinese medicine for lactation."

He frowned. "So, do you do it yourself now?" He was a little displeased. "What did you eat last night?"

"Yes I was an adult, and I had a child myself. Looking at him, I said, "when the child is taken out, it belongs to natural childbirth, so I have milk at the beginning. Later, because the child is not there, there is no stimulation from the child, so there is no prolactin secretion, so naturally it is broken."

"Well, it's good!" As he spoke, his eyes fell on Fu Shenyan, but he moved away.

Thinking of his college meeting, I couldn't help looking at Fu Shenyan and said, "this is Jon, my college classmate. You should know him."