From how Yu Yan spoke, she was sure he must have done something drastic and it pained her to even imagine what he must have done, she lowered her head with tears gathering in her eyes and her grip on her phone tightened when she remembers the words she said to him.

"Are you alright?" Li Wei who is standing beside her couldn't help using seeing how shaken she seems.

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She lifted her head then sniffed her nose to send back the tears gathering in her eyes.

"I have to go," she hurried into her car then drove off at a dangerously high speed before he could ask anything else, he just watched her drive off in confusion.

- - - --- -

His lashes fluttered as his lids slowly raised, not only was he having a nightmare but he suddenly felt a splitting headache, threatening to split his head into two followed by a pounding pain in his head.

He shot his eyes open with his hand at both sides of his head as he screamed and winced in pain, he pulled the duvet over his body then dragged himself down his bed.

He struggled as he walked out of the room as he felt his legs weak and his hand muscles failing him, he slowly climbed down the stairs with the railing supporting him, his chest heaved up and down and exhaling and inhaling deeply.

He could feel the tightness of his chest but all that mattered to him is to get a cup of water to quench his thirst, taking his steps little by little, he finally arrived at the kitchen but the moment he raised his half-opened eyes to look forward, he saw a figure in an apron but the figure looks familiar....awfully familiar.

"Why-Why are you..." he muttered weakly

She turned around when she heard a faint sound behind her, her eyes lightened up immediately.

"You are awake, I thought you were never going to-" she took a step towards him but stopped when he held out his hand then moved a step back.

He opened his eyes wider but his chest tightened more, seeing her face makes him feel unable to breathe, he clutched his chest tight then raised his gaze to meet her eyes that are filled with guilt and pain looking at his ghastly pallid face.

His face had turned awfully pale and thin overnight, the fear she felt as she took care of him overnight and even cuddled him to sleep is something she has never felt since he has never been in such a state before not to talk of his face looking like that of a ghost.

"Li Chen, I-"

"What what are y-you doing here?"

"Yu Yan called me to take care of you, you shouldn't be standing up, I will soon be done with cooking the porridge so you should lie down in bed," she answered with her concern and sincerity evident in her voice but he just stared at her blankly before chuckling then coughing.

She stepped forward to help him but-

"Stop!" he screamed despite his weak condition.

Her heart almost jumped out of her chest and her mouth agape as she froze on the spot.

"What are you doing right now...is this some sort of joke?" the accusing smile on his lips and the excruciatingly pained look in his eyes made her heart wrench.

Tears started gathering in her eyes.

"Li Chen, I am sorry," that was all she could say as she lowered her gaze.

"Leave..." he ordered with his hand pointing towards the door, she raised her head instantly.

"But I can't leave you alone, if you want me to leave then you should go to the hospital," she insisted but he only scoffed at her concern then his frown deepened.

"I don't want to see you right now, just leave---" his voice turned into a wheezing sound as he clutched his chest tighter then he turned back to go upstairs but she quickly followed behind him.

"Are you alright?" she questioned as she followed after him but he just ignored her and started climbing the stairs, suddenly, his eyes spun around and his head turned dizzy as the headache increased.

"Aarrgh!" he screamed as his hold on the railing became weak, causing him to fall to the stairs, she quickly held him up before he rolled down.

"L-let me be-" he resisted as he tried to push her away but she held him tighter then started crying aloud.

"Please, let me help you, this is all my fault,"

He couldn't stand the tears on her face and the sound of her crying so he just let her help him back to his room, she laid him back on the bed gently then she poured him a glass of water from the jug she placed by his bedside in the morning which he failed to see when he woke up.

She raised his head then helped him drink the water then she helped him rest his back against the headboard, she was afraid that his asthma might be triggered if she continues wheezing any longer so she quickly handed him his inhaler.

She took it from him after he was done.

"Now leave-" he ordered with his face turned to the other side.

She started sobbing aloud.

Then she suddenly wrapped her hand around his neck with her body leaning over his, he was taken aback but his body froze.

"What do you think you are doing?"

"I am sorry, I am really sorry for saying those things to you, it is all my fault that you are this sick, I have always known you have feelings for me but I also thought you are too good for me and I can only be with someone like me," she confessed with a slight sob.

"What are you saying..?" he pulled her away from him roughly with his eyes bulged.

"Are you saying that you knew all this while that I was in love with you and yet-you tell me about your dates and every guy you hook up with despite knowing how hurt I will be even though I always hid it?" he just couldn't believe that the woman he loves did all those things whilst knowing that he is hurting inside.

She realized she just made things worse so she held his hand tightly.

"...I am sorry, I have always been like this to revenge against my mom but you Li Chen, you were always with me, you know when I am sad, angry, hurt and frustrated, you have fought with numerous guys because of me, I didn't realise it at first but I found out in uni. You were just too good and you deserved someone better than me so I said and did all those things to make you give up and when you suddenly confessed to me, I---I really didn't want you to keep your hopes high so I said those things-"

"You are really heartless..." he scoffed in disbelief, the pain in his heart became worse, all this while he has been thinking he is suffering because of his inability to man up and tell her how he feels with seriousness instead of telling her jokingly.

"I really didn't mean to hurt you,"

"Just get out!" he ordered with his voice raised as much as he could.

"Li Chen..."

He suddenly grabbed the glass cup on his bedside then threw it to the ground causing it to shatter with a shrilling sound.

Her eyes widened looking at the glass pieces on the ground.

"Do you know how much I restrained myself from getting drunk to forget the pain you cause me, how many times I told myself to stop loving you because you are too good for me, everyone in our friend group knew but only you seemed to be ignorant of my feelings that have existed ever since the first day I met you in high school twelve years ago but you---just leave now!"

More tears trickled down her cheeks as she tried to hold his hand but he pushed her hands away, determined to make him forgive her, she wrapped her hands around his neck before he could push her away.

"Let go!" he shouted as he tried to push her away but his weak state didn't let him.

"I am sorry, I wanted to love you but I couldn't, I really really tried to love you, I didn't want to reject your feelings so I did those things to make you end your feelings for me, but with Li Wei, it is different, you could already tell that I have fallen for him so I am sure you must know just how I feel," she tried hard to explain while crying aloud.

He doesn't want to forgive her, he really doesn't want to forgive her but how can he not when every drop of tears she sheds tugs at his heart.