"Don't hate me. I reject you because I'm afraid to fall in love with you".

"I'm sorry".

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Both fell silent for quite a long time until the blue-eyed man held those tiny hands on his chest.

Slowly, those hands asked to be released. He didn't let that happen.

"Why don't you dare to love me?".

The tiny hands really wanted to be released.

"I'll give you everything.. Everything.. Even courage..". She didn't reply, asking to be let go.

When she got away.

"Hendra, are these my shoes?". This girl changed the subject.

She opened the present with a golden ribbon. The ribbon was immediately detached, flew the balloon that was tied on it. She looked up, seeing the balloon was already on the ceiling.

"Why are you always hard to be understood?". Hendra was consistent with the words 'looking for an excuse'.

"Ah, look. The shoes fit my feet". Not sure what she was thinking about, this girl chose to be busy trying the new shoes that fit her feet now.

"Until when will you cover your ears?". Hendra was thinking to get closer.

He got rid of Aruna's messy hair and moved the fragrant hair to the back of her ears.

"I'll keep these shoes carefully". This girl stayed away, got out of the bed in a hurry.

The blue-eyed couldn't accept being ignored. He caught one of the logic destroyer's hands and pulled her.. : "Thud". The pair of shoes fell on the floor, also the body of the girl who almost fell backward. She was immediately caught by the person who pulled her.

This girl ignored him and chose to try picking up the shoes that fell on the floor. The CEO's hands pulled her stronger, didn't give her permission to do that.

Even though they were already so close, Aruna didn't dare to stare at him. Wiryo's grandchild had to turn Lesmana's daughter's chin using his other hand so that she's willing and forced to look in the direction that he wanted.

"You still want to avoid?".

"Now who's the mysterious one? All the anomalies are pinned on me. But you're an unpredictable girl".

Aruna didn't answer at all. She chose to remain silent, speechless.

"So this is what you meant by covering your eyes and ears including your mouth is a choice??".

"I'm fed up with you!!". Hendra was mad because he was ignored.

"Indeed.. Better if you're sick of me". Her voice was flat, almost inaudible.

"Ah, what did you say??". The surprising words were able to make the blue-eyed loosening his grip. Aruna immediately took advantage of it to escape, run fast towards the bathroom, and lock herself inside.

Aruna sat behind the door, hid her face in the middle of her folded arms.

The girl lamented herself, the kid who was known to be the smartest at hiding the anxiety in her heart. Moreover her desires.

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"If you think that this place doesn't suit you. It's easy.. Make Hendra change. Change the love that Hendra has for you. If needed, make that feeling disappear. You'll be free from him faster".

"Love??". (Aruna)

"I think he's just normal towards me". (Aruna)

"Ah. You really don't know?? This marriage happened faster because you were chosen by Hendra. Your marriage with him isn't just a marriage agreement between Mr. Lesmana and the old man, but it's because he wants you".

"As long as his feelings towards you are so strong, he won't let go of what he holds. A year, two years, can be forever".

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_Why does my life become like this?_

The girl who liked to keep many things to herself began to lose to the feelings that appeared in her chest. She paid dearly for an expression of insensitivity and the phrase 'Aruna is terrible'. It was always like that from people's point of view, but it was different from the man that she really had to avoid now. No one had ever pushed her as far and as persistent as Mahendra did.

_Take care of your heart and yourself, Aruna. Calm down, you'll be fine as long as you can suppress your own feelings_

Along with these feelings, there was a stronger desire in Lesmana's daughter's heart. The girl who brought warm feelings, free like air floating in every corner of spatial space in her simple life.

Who could bear the burden of being confined in the Wenceslas's castle? There was no way she would choose this path, the path where the mother walked like a living corpse or the grandmother who lacked affection.

Except for women with different ambitions. She who liked the power of Wenceslas; abundant and unpredictable.

But what did that power mean in the eyes of the girl who could fly with her own wings to find simple corners from the meaning of happiness?

"Ha ha ha… Come here again tomorrow, okay?".

"As long as you become a good kid". Laughing surrounded by metropolitan suburban kids and staring at the world from the worst angle were enough to fill her expectation about the taste that was said to be the goal of many people's lives. She found peace there.

"Runaa.. Runaa.. If you go here tomorrow, don't always bring your work. Bring your boyfriend. Your boyfriend is good at flattering, mothers like us become motivated. Haha".

"Huh?? I don't have a boyfriend".

"Huh?! Who's the long-haired man who likes to sing randomly?".

"Ha?! Haha.. That's a weird kid, Ma'am. His brain is left behind. Don't listen if he claims to be my boyfriend".

Or a simple temptation without roses or an expensive bag already could make her heart burst.

This wasn't her world, not where she should've been. She had a spatial room in a different dimension that she longed for every time.

Every time waiting for the man named Hendra to come home from work, this woman would sit blankly on the edge of the window seat. The room's window box frame captured the serene lake and beautiful trees down there.

The more she stared at it, the more she was sure that she was in a different dimension and her mouth began to chant a mantra to be free. Even if she had to hope for the most impossible miracle, there was no problem.

Aruna wanted to go as soon as possible.

***

"You used my name?".

"Sure. It's the strongest name in my brain". The young man who just got the craziest mandate from his big family also became the vengeful, both to the leader of this strange mission and to the enemy who didn't look evil at all.

"How could you use my name in your disguise?".

"Yeah.. A depressed heart also needs medicine.. Isn't that right, Gibran?".

"Damn you.. Hehe". The young man who hated the scent of coffee averted his eyes from the younger nephew towards the bottom.

Observing his nephew's unique bracelet.

"Since when you became an accessory user?".

"You're so observant.. The wife of your enemy.. Ah, wrong! Our enemies sent a message to her older brother to give a small gift to someone who's interested in her start-up".

"How sweet our target is". His words shook the other person's chest.

"Meanwhile, he won't be our target.. But study it in detail".

"How about you? Are you really going to marry the Baskoro family?".

"What can I do? Those coffee lovers want me to expand the power and the marriage is the easiest way".

"How sad your fate is, Gibran. Hehe…". The young man with an accessory on his wrist laughed as a symbol of sad expression.

"It looks like your enemy is much luckier. His eyes stared at me full of jealousy when I smiled at his wife. He even enjoyed the atmosphere of the newlyweds perfectly". The accessory that adorned the wrist of this person was moving too, he explained it excitedly.

"As far as I know, his marriage was arranged too!".

"Yes.. Exactly. He married the youngest daughter of the Wenceslas Group's president director's former chief secretary".

"Maybe it was just his good manners in front of other people".

"You're wrong, Gib. I saw it with my own eyes they chatted. And that cold man was joking with his wife. His wife's cheerful laughter makes me interested. Yeah, that girl looks warm and kind".

"Is it possible that his cold and mysterious characters were just camouflage? Meanwhile his private life is the opposite?".

"It's possible?! What is impossible for them? Even you have two different personalities".

"Yeah.. I was forced like that. Maybe he was the same".

The conversation between Gibran and someone who made use of Gibran's name as his fake identity flowed like endless river flow.

***

_Ugh.. My soap and lotion are still in the suitcase_

The locked bathroom was finally opened. The barefoot tiny girl was caught nervous because she saw her husband was standing right in front of the door.

"What are you doing? Why are you standing in front of the door?".

"I'm waiting for an insensitive woman who's being waited by her husband".

The pupil in the middle of the blue-colored cornea was in focus, dilated, and stunned.

His girl was walking slowly only using a kimono towel then kneeled to open the suitcase that was just laid down.

_Ugh.. Damn.. Roses, candle scent, and plain clothes without underwear. How can I survive?_

"Aruna, go to the bathroom quickly?!".

"Ah. Why??".

"QUICK!!".

"What's going on with you? I'm tired of fighting all the time".

"My biological instinct has reached the crown".

"Ah.. What?? Argh….".