They were cuddling each other on the couch quietly for a big moment.

"Do you know? I'm so scared that you count the days waiting to walk out of my life. And I had never been afraid of anything like that before. "

He confessed the thought that he carried in his mind all the time. Wirata smiled to hear the man who was the love of her life spoke his mind.

"Since when the big mafia learned to get scared?"

She teased him. Her beautiful face was resting on his chest. Stefan smiled. He hugged her more tightly than before.

"Since I accidentally kissed a girl four years ago in Boston."

The harsh voice said above her head. Wirata raised her eyebrows in surprise.

"Four years ago? Really?"

"Yes, since then, I have never forgotten the young girl who dared to refuse me. I always tried to find her, I thought just to teach her who she was dealing with."

Stefan murmured. When looking back in the past, it made him laugh in his throat. All pictures about her were still very crystal clear in his mind as if it was only yesterday.

"You mean to hunt me down? You were very crazy."

She corrected his words, thinking of her second-semester break when she was running for her life when his men were chasing her like crazy.

Stefan laughed with her words. He kissed her hair.

"But when I found that the girl I couldn't get her face out of my head turned out to be my brother's girlfriend. I felt so frustrated and so disappointed. It was unexplainable about my feeling at that time. It was like the thing I secretly wanted had slipped away. So close to reach but couldn't touch."

"Really?"

Wirata liked listening to his confession. She could not believe he would have any positive feelings toward her four years ago. She never expected that. She was thinking he hated her and wanted revenge as she gave him a punch on his face.

"I never thought that only a kiss would be able to spin my head. And that's what happened to me. I was charmed by your innocent sweet scent and tough attitude."

He said with a hint of amusement in his voice.

Both of them cuddled and fell silent. Stefan did not feel any pain in his hands. Because now his heart was full of joy and great pleasure to know that she loved and cared about him, no less than the way he loved and cared for her.

"I apologize again for tonight. I didn't mean to take Melissa to mess with your feelings. Do you believe me? I'm sorry for the slow feeling, that I couldn't read through your mind to know that you care about me too. "

He still felt sorry and did not feel he apologize enough for his stupidity. Stefan pushed her shoulder out a little so that he could see her face. He looked at her beautiful face, her eyes were sparkling with delight and he could see the love she felt for him now.

Wirata touched his cheek gently.

"It's okay. I was stupid, too. I thought I was a sensible person, but tonight just proved that I was only a woman in love, could be weak and blinded from any reason when jealousy took over the sensibility."

The soft voice said. Wirata did not want him to feel so guilty about tonight. She would never wish the man she loved to suffer from the mistake he did unintentionally.

"Remember, Wine. From now on. If you have to cry, I will make sure it will be only the tears of joy and happiness. I promised. "

Stefan said. His voice was strong and serious. Wirata smiled. She knew he wanted her to be happy. But he could not promise something like that. The man still thought he could control everything in his hands. He was so adorable.

"Don't promise anybody like that, Stefan. It is very difficult to stop someone from crying especially, women. Just like tonight, you didn't have any intention to hurt me. But I still found a reason to cry. You can't determine and control the feelings of others. If you want to promise, just say ... You will be a good person. You will love and stay honest and faithful to me. That's all I need. "

Wirata shared her thoughts with him. Stefan kissed on her forehead. He felt very fortunate to be the man who owned her body and her heart. The woman who was so beautiful inside out, her looks, her personality, and her soul. She had a strong sense of justice, responsibility, intelligence, and self-awareness that he did not think could easily be found in a person.

"I love you so much. I promise I will be faithful to you. I will cherish every moment we spend together. I will do my best to make you happy forever. Is this okay?"

He said and asked her. Wirata laughed. She knew he was sarcastically teasing her the end of his statement.

Wirata nodded. She believed he would keep his words. Stefan Mackenzie would not give a promise if he did not think he could follow it.

"I believe you. Can I ask you to do one thing for me?"

"Yes, just tell me. I can do anything for you, you should know that. But you are not going to ask me to shoot myself, aren't you?"

he joked.

"Oh, no. I don't want dead Stefan. I want the alive one. I want to stay with you for as long as possible. And that's what I am going to ask you. "

"I am listening. Just say it. I am ready to be a man who obeys his woman. But don't tell anyone that I say this. It is no good for mafia's reputation. "

It seemed he was back to normal and be himself again. The tall figure lied down stretched his long legs on the couch and put his head on her lap.

"What I want to ask you is... Can you stop doing anything that risks your life?"

The soft voice asked. Stefan smiled lightly.

"Do you remember we talked about off-record loans when we were at my mother's place? You said you want me to quit."

He asked. Wirata nodded. That's what she was talking about right now.

"I have already started the process. I called every debtor and arranged the meeting individually. We've made a new agreement appropriately. Everyone seemed satisfied and happy with the deal."

Since returning from his mother's house, Stefan began to do it immediately. Stefan asked his men to dig deep into each case to find out the debtors' situations and gave them a fair and suitable deal. Some cases, if not much money and they were nice people. He just tore the contract and let them off.

"I am glad to hear this. Do you know why I asked you to sort this out? "

At this time, Stefan became getting used to the way she talked. He thought she liked the test his intelligence. So she asked him instead of giving him the explanation directly.

"I have to admit that talking to you, I have to think every word before saying out."

The harsh voice said and laughed. He grabbed her hands to kiss and put them on his chest.

"I think ... because you love me and afraid that I will be hit by a bullet in my chest and gone to heaven or hell before my proper time. Right? By the way, say the three words again. I love listening to you telling me that. And from now on, I will require you to say it as often as you can."

Stefan said and lifted her hands to kiss. Wirata smiled.

"Yes. Because I love you so much. I want to spend a lifetime with you. So to live a long life. You have to get rid of the risks you take. Reduce it as much as you can. Life is too precious to be wasted. Do you know that it's very difficult to be born as a human being?"

Stefan knew she was going to lecture him or test him again.

"Tell me about it. I am listening."

Stefan felt so relaxed and happy by lying down like this. He had never thought that he would have the opportunity to meet someone he could talk endlessly and never got bored of listening to her. He wished to be with her like this forever.