I need to stop for one moment and take a step back, for beyond all the craziness that fill our lives, I need to allow myself to remember what drives me to make this city, and I shall even go as far as to say the world. What makes this all worthwhile is the beauty that lies in my arms. Should I not have had her presence in my life, I would not have had the sheer willpower to take the impossible on. Not that I say as Vampire Master I would have looked away; I would have left it to others to resolve by risking their lives for our kind. But with Anastasia, I need to prove myself not only as a leader but also as the man I wish she would desire.

To have beauty in your life is easy, but to have the beauty of the woman that you love and the one that loves you in return is the greatest gift that one can experience. I can, with all honesty, say that there is no doubt that she completes my life. To be lonely for eternity can be seen as a life sentence, but having what you crave, is the greatest blessing.

I have never been more assured to have chosen her to be mine for life. I promise her my deepest love, my fullest devotion, my tenderest care through the pressures of the present and the uncertainties of the future. I commit myself to love her. I know that our love is heaven sent, and I promise that I shall be there forever and always. My heart will be her shelter, and my arms will be her home.

She does not only live in her own body; she lives in mine too. We are part of each other; we are one. I hear her footsteps in the passageways of my heart. Her voice echoes through my veins. I can see her face in the mirrors of my memories. She has engraved herself deep into my soul. She will forever be a part of me.

Who would have guessed that I would find her in the last rays of the daylight? That she would look up and smile at me, that she stopped me from running away. Where would I have been if she did not ask me to come back and stay, and I stayed long enough to have her in my arms.

What she brings to my life lay like the beautiful colors of a perfect autumn in my soul. She has made me change in so many ways; I lived with myself for so long that I did not know that I could be a better man. But yet she excepted me the way I was; it scared me that she gave up everything to be with a man like me. She took my loneliness away and vowed herself to spend eternity with me. I pray every day that I shall be good enough for the woman that loves me unconditionally.

The woman that is staring at me with that beautiful smile is the love of my life.

"Sebastian, what has got you so deep in thought?"

"Only you, my beloved."

"I do hope that it is only good things that are running circles in that small mind."

"You say small? Well, I do have something else that compensates for that then."

She only but chuckles at me, then she reaches over to me, and her hand slides around the back of my neck. I lower my head to hers, and our lips touch.

At first, my lips are gentle, exquisitely careful, as if I fear bruising her. She moans at the back of her throat, begging for more; my mouth settles more firmly on hers. The taste of her, her intimate flavor affects me like a drug; I kiss her more aggressively, hunting for the deepest, sweetest taste of her. The tip of her tongue slides through my lips in silken exploration. I am stroking the slick insides of her cheeks, slow and insistent. She has never kissed me like this, feeding her rising passion. I hold her tightly and lock her full body against me. I consume her mouth with patient hunger. Her hands flutter to the sides of my face, stroking the bristle of my cheeks and jaw. I make a quiet moan in my throat. Suddenly she takes hold of my shoulders and eased her way into my body. I gently hold her, still ignoring her whimpering protest. Her gaze is locked with mine for a moment. The stillness is broken by our panting breaths. I want to possess every inch of her body and every flicker of her soul.

I slowly slide from her body and come to stand in all my glory beside her. As I start to drop my pants, my erection pops out, and the expression on her face tells me that she knows that tonight she is getting this full six-seven inches.

"Oh god, Sebastian."

"My beloved, we have not even started yet. I am going to drive you crazy then make you drop down the abyss of pleasure."

I start to move my way up her body. With gentle teeth, I slide and nibble my way to her calf. My wandering hand slide up and but only tickle the edge of her clit. And the moment she gasps out of pleasure, I slowly take it away; I want her to ache.

I run the tip of my tongue from her inner thighs in slow but hard circles, pressing fiercely into her skin.

"You have such soft skin..."

I whisper as my fingers played along the inside of her thighs, driving her mad with desire.

My finger turn in circles around the string of her panties. I tangle and twirl and slide them slower than honey down the hot flesh of her body and finally slipping them over her feet. As eager fingers find their way back to the only place that I desire. I part her legs wide until they but only invite me to delve into her clit that by the mere sight is hard, and I can only smile at the thought at the rate the ache is throbbing. She will beg.

Then I twirl my tongue in circles as I edge my tongue inches and inches deeper inside her. With each turn, I hear her purr like a cat. Then I push harder and slip every length of my tongue into her tightness. She squirms underneath me as she lets out a roaring moan.

…Anastasia…

He moves up my trembling body and settles his mouth upon mine, robbing me of thought.

As he speaks between long, drugging kisses that consumes my senses, he cups one cheek in a strong, warm hand and meet my gaze with a searing look. He kisses me again, growling low in the back of his throat. My hands find their way into his thick, dark hair as he catches my bottom lip in his teeth, nibbling and licking at it until I think I might perish from the intensity of the feeling. I whimper at the sensation, and he rewards the sound by deepening the kiss, giving me everything I desire.

With a wicked grin, he cheekily flips me around. Positioning himself behind me, he wastes no time at all, pushing his hard length to my entrance. Leaning my upper body back, I hook my arm around his neck and kiss him again, and he edges himself into me. The sense of being filled from this position is almost too much. He takes one of my ass cheeks and lifts it slightly so he can ease himself all the way in. I could feel every inch of him along my tight walls. He feels heavenly. As I look back at him and cradle his neck in my hand, he starts to explore my breasts. Molding his hand to them and massaging my already erect nipples. I lean forward away from him so he could take me deeper

He slowly slides in and out of me; I look back as he moves to lift himself over me. It is deep this way, he hits my sweet spot perfectly, and it is almost too much for me to cope with. He knows what he is doing; I see the mischievous grin on his lips and can't help but smile back. I feel myself build again; a flash of heat spreads over my body from my stomach. It feels like my entire body is blushing. Keeping still, I feel the tip of his throbbing erection hit the core of me over and over again.

He positions his erection at my entrance again, and slowly drops me down, impaling me on his hard length. Spreading my legs wide again, he thrusts up into me; the feeling of him pushing all the way inside me, filling me right to the top, is deliciously tight. I heave in passion, my resisting flesh split, and he slides into me. He keeps up the rhythm relentlessly. With each stroke, he slides his hot throbbing flesh completely into me. He drives in deeper, with each thrust increasing pace

He can no longer resist the increasing pressure, pushing him into me even deeper. With one final thrust, he shudders and explodes inside of me. I can feel him spill into my moist depths. He pulls me against him and begins gyrating and grinding himself into me. I heave and convulse into a chain of explosions.

And not having to ask this time, I give him freely what he desires the most beyond these moments of ecstasy. With only one tilt, I lay exposed the throbbing vein in the nape of my neck. I hear him growl from inner pleasure as he sinks his glorious fangs in me and sips the inches and inches that he craves. I feel as every drop leaves my body, and the harder he sucks, the arousal grows in my body once more. Fueled by passion, I give into his touch.

As we lay and wait for the room to slow down from the raging high, I can only smile at the man I gave my life up for. I can honestly say that I do not regret one moment of it. If one could give me the chance to do it all over again, I can, with confidence, say that I shall do it the same way. Sebastian does believe that I am the one that brought meaning to his life, where in fact, he has brought meaning back into mine.

How I do love the way that he carries me on his hands like a porcelain doll. He has seen me at my worst, he has seen the cracks in this perfect woman, yet he does not show them to others; he just but loves them. I love him for making this cracked porcelain doll a better woman again.

If I look up at the dark skies at night, I look beyond the stars and even beyond the ones that one cannot see, and I know that even if I live for eternity, I shall never know the space we live in. Sebastian is like my night sky; I know that I only know him but a small bit, but I know that I look forward to a lifetime of getting to know him. I shall never stop discovering him.

And as this man that I love stares at me, I can see the love boil over in his eyes, but beyond them, there is something else.

"My beloved, will you make this man happy for an eternity and become my bride?"