What did he want?

Si Ning knew what he wanted from the start was to have an easy way out, get rich, have girls in cute maid uniforms serving him, driving the latest sports cars, and be famous. No matter how he looked at it, he already had that in this life only that the cars were replaced with palanquins, horses, and carriages and to have it all was what he deserved because he was working hard in this life as a General and bearing the responsibility his father left for him. His mother and sister were also proud of him yet he doesn't understand what Song Feng meant by him wanting to live quietly in a cottage because that wasn't him.

Thinking about living a quiet life was not bad but Si Ning had always considered himself as a person that wanted fame so he wasn't going to hide somewhere and pretend he doesn't have responsibilities also being an Empress was what he decided because being the mother of the nation would grant him some certain privileges, if Qiu Bai hadn't tried to forcefully have his way with him then there might have been a way for them to reach an agreement without going to way. Qiu Bai might be difficult to forego the war or not contented with having Xilie alone but Si Ning believed they might have work something out that would benefit both Xiu and Xilie because as a person that always wanted the easy way out then if there was no way then he was going to create one.

No matter how he looked at it, his life was not how he wanted to live but he wasn't going to abandon the Si family army nor was he going to hide. The only problem was that he didn't have time to enjoy taking care of his body without thinking of how to solve the next problem and he wasn't about to relax after becoming the Empress because he still had his duty as a General. It was funny that being a General was a post he tried to run away from but he discovered he had been good at it and all he had to avoid was going to war and when he becomes the Empress he would use his position as a means of escape to not ride to war because he doubts that becoming the Empress was going to relieve him as a General because he was now the head of the Si family and if he ends up with half of his army then it was his responsibility to manage them.

Si Ning reached for the bottle of white pills on the table, he twisted the cap and shook two pills out, and threw it in his mouth, swallowing it before drinking water to wash it down to lessen the somewhat better taste. He had already considered Song Feng as his friend and he doesn't want to lose him just because Xiu Zhicheng ordered him to do so but from what Song Feng said, he still had feeling for him which means it was better to keep him at arm's length because Song Feng had already gotten a wife and a baby on the way and to keep the distance between them means he might not get to be the godfather of their child. It was such a pity he won't have a cute boy or girl to dot on after Xiu Yuan.

Thinking about a child means he was supposed to produce an heir for the Si family, from what Si Ning had learned from history was that a family with only a male child would carry on the family legacy and since he was the only male child, he was supposed to have a male child but then why was his mother not considering him having a child because it would certainly be impossible after getting married to Xiu Zhicheng.

Si Ning made up his mind to ask his mother about it because after getting married he would have to move to the palace and won't be coming home frequently which means he would not be the one commanding the household as the head of the house since it was the position he had currently even though he refused to move to his late father's study.

It was so stressful thinking of different things at the same time that it had already become a habit and Si Ning wasn't fighting it anymore, in the modern-day world he was always drinking and hanging out around which was the reason he doesn't have to think much just now that he doesn't even think of taking alcohol nor did he send for it was the reason he discovered he was someone that overthink.

Si Ning sighed pushing his thought aside as he stretched his hands. People that woke up from coma were always weak and need some strength but oddly enough after eating the food Ah Dai brought, Si Ning had strangely gotten his strength and he did not need to rest on the bed because he was afraid to sleep and fall into that nightmare where he had no body.

The rest of the food had gone cold but Si Ning still drank the medicine Ah Dai left for him and even ate the pieces of shredded chicken in the medicinal soup and cleaned his mouth when he was done and suddenly felt like going to see Ah Dai, he had never been to his quarters and the least he could do was to go and see his home. He had considered Ah Dai as his friend and Si Ning couldn't help but think Ah Dai doesn't deserve the way he treated him.

"General, Young Miss handmaiden is here!"

To be honest Si Ning doesn't like Yanlin serving him but since it was Xiao Pei that announced her present means he wasn't going to attend to him because he had handed the job over to Yanlin.

"Let her come in." Si Ning said since Yanlin had come to clear the plates, the least he could do was to give her space to do her work so stood up and walked up to his wardrobe and didn't bother to turn when he heard footsteps, he only opened his wardrobe.

All his clothes were neatly arranged so he fished out a maroon outer robe. Because he was at his residence so he doesn't need to dress properly just to visit Ah Dai's quarters. He was fishing for a sash that would match the robe and keep it in place to avoid the robe sweeping the floor or getting blown by the wind when he felt something wrapped around his stomach.

Si Ning was a little shocked because he heard no footsteps and when he looked down he could see small lean arms wrapped around him. "What are you doing?" He was already stressed up thinking of his life and also he wasn't interested in having an underage girl playing love with him because no matter how he sees it someone hugging him from behind was a way to show they were interested in the person being hugged.

"Young Master please take me," Yanlin replied softly.

"Eh...." Si Ning took her hands and forced them apart to free himself then he turned to scold her only to see a naked Yanlin in front of him.