Chapter 43

I was holed up in a warded room, agonizing over it .

I moaned and squatted on the bed when I fell and hit my side .

Maybe it was the stress that was bothering me too much, but I got a mysterious stomach ache .

When I got up and thought about it, I felt that I was somehow helpless, and I piled up Ortem and made a tower on impulse, and I almost died because It fell down on me .

I’ve been holed up for six hours now, but I can’t think of anything good to do .

I thought of something, but no matter how I scramble, I can’t help but feel sorry for Gizel .

I’m starting to think that I don’t care anymore even if I marry Gizel .

There’s some resistance now, but maybe I’ll get used to it .

It’s just the way the world is . I’ll apologize to Shibi .

No, but … really, is that all right?

It’s something I’ve been worried about all this time, but Gizel is almost dependent on me .

There’s even a theory that I’m codependent because I just can’t see it myself .

Gizel had been following me almost since she was born .

I guess the reason she’s acting like a brocon now is because he didn’t have a decent relationship with anyone but me .

It’s my fault that I didn’t pay much attention to the bad habits of the Marrens .

The theory that my ancestors were severely Siscon started to grow inside me .

In short, Gizel just had a very narrow field of vision .

If only Gizel had looked around more, she could have found someone else to like .

In addition to the fact that it’s not the same as my memory of my previous life, Gizel’s 14 years of living with me is all that matters to her .

I don’t want to think too much about it, though .

Gizel was even more exclusive than me, a magic recluse .

For Gizel, both Shibi and Firo were just acquainted with her brother .

Originally, I should have made my move earlier, I couldn’t think of anything else besides “I’m troubled because my little sister is cute . ”

It was stupid .

If I had thought about it more deeply, I would have had more opportunities to notice cultural differences and differences in consciousness .

I know it’s not the right place for me to say this after all this time .

I know, but that’s why I don’t think it’s a good idea to just let it drag on .

If I don’t do this, Gizel is going to have no real connection to anyone but me .

In the long run, It’s definitely not going to be a good thing .

I have to get out of this village .

It’s the only way .

My father is very eager to hold the ceremony, and since he believes so much in Marren culture, he won’t listen to me no matter how much I tell him .

To top it off, Gizel is totally on board .

I’ve always wanted to see the world outside the village for a long time .

It’s sad, but maybe it was just the right opportunity .

It’s forbidden in the village, but I’m afraid I’ll have to break it .

I closed my eyes, cut the air, and prayed to the spirits of my ancestors .

This is enough to forgive a lot of the mischief in the Marren village .

Our ancestors were generous .

I used my thick Ortem as a desk and wrote on a piece of paper .

My father and mother, and then a note to Gizel .

I wrote about how I only have feelings for Gizel as a sister and how I’m sorry for that, as well as my anxiety about Gizel dependence on me .

And finally, I added, “I’ll be out there getting married, or I’ll be back when I hear the news that Gizel is getting married . ”

…… I’ll go out of the room temporarily to prepare for the long trip .

There was also a simple map of the area in the Chief’s mansion .

… I’ll just impolitely borrow it and head to the nearest city .

I can use the Ortem Trolley for transportation .

Quickly, I have to load up on preserves and things that could be converted to gold .

The sooner I get out, the better .

Time could shake my decision, and if my father found out, he could tie me to a board and hold me in place .

Besides, if Gizel cries on me, I’ll probably break .

Hiding the letter on my desk, I left the room .

”Brother, you’ve finally come out! I mean, are you okay? After all, you don’t look so good…”

At the front of the room was Gizel .

It must have been more than six hours ago when I entered, but I wondered if she had been standing at the door the whole time .

In the past, it could have been adorable, but this is still not good . That’s definitely not a good sign .

“I, I’ll just go to the Chief’s house for a while”

“In that case, I’m going too to escort you!”

“……No, it’s complicated . Let me go on my own . ”

“Eh………… . ”

Gizel’s expression froze .

Sheesh .

Up until now, I had never said anything bad for Gizel to hear, so there’s no need for her to leave even once .

It was only the other day that I tried to talk to my father about Gizel .

“Actually, there’s something I’ve been thinking about my father lately . I want to talk to the Chief about it . With Gizel around, it might be hard for the Chief to do it . ”

“About father’s?”

“Oh, yes . It’s about the incense leaf . Apparently, the Chief has been wielding the Karlco family at will, so he’s afraid of having power concentrated in one house by assets…… As a matter of fact, I happened to overhear a bad rumor about father the other day . It’s just a rumor… is what I think… but we need to make sure we have a firm report at the earliest opportunity so there’s nothing dark behind it . ”

“Is that so…… At this important period…”

I’m sure Gizel had an idea .

Gizel tightly grabbed the hem of her dress and bit her lip .

She seemed to be convinced for the time being .

The guilt is great, but I managed to dodge it nicely .

I have set my father up as a typical petty villain, but I can’t help it .

In hindsight, Gizel would soon find out it was a misunderstanding .

Maybe he’s just happy with the fact that he’s suddenly getting a lot of money and people around him are starting to praise him .

There’s nothing to be concerned about .

“I’m sorry . ”

I put my hand on Gizel’s shoulder and walked past it .

“Brother . ”

A few steps away, he was called off .

“What is it?”

I stopped in my tracks and turned around .

Relax . Gizel shouldn’t have any suspicions .

”That’s why brother… you’ve been troubled lately, haven’t you?

“Eh? Ah, Ahhhhh……”

I bit my tongue unthinkingly in surprise at the way he spoke as if he was confirming it .

It’s okay . Don’t panic .

It’s a guilty conscience that makes me upset by a single word .

The identity of the ghost, the seeing and withering silver flower grass, is something I used to say even in my previous life .

When you’re scared, everything seems to make sense .

I cough lightly and take a gesture that says something is wrong with my throat .

It was an appeal that he was not at a loss for words because he had something dark behind him .

“… A-Ah, Yeah…… That’s right……”

”I hope father is innocent…… I’ll be waiting for you when you get back . I’m sure you’re not in great shape, so take care not to collapse on the way . Don’t force yourself, and turn around as soon as it gets tough, okay?”

“… R-right, right . Sorry to worry you . ”

I turned around and walked out of the house to go to the Chief’s mansion .

Good, I got through it .

It seems that there is no reason to be suspicious after all .

Nonetheless, I’m glad the lies and acting came through .

I thought I wouldn’t make it since I couldn’t make eye contact with her, but Gizel didn’t seem to mind .

That’s about the only thing that bothers me .

This kind of skill at bargaining may be due to the difference in experience in a previous life .

If I got to the city, It wouldn’t be a bad idea to try to become a famous actor .

I’m curious how much knowledge this world has on this type of culture, though .