Chapter 119

Ever since that day, every time Xu Jiamu had a gathering, he would squeeze out time just to go over, but the number of meetings he had with Qiao Anhao dwindled . And whenever they met, she would not speak to him .

The reality that she was leaving his life was much more painful than when he realized that he could not love her five years ago .

Emotions flooded into Lu Jinnian’s eyes as he continued to look at Qiao Anhao . Pain, heartache, sadness, helplessness . . . and a rush of emotions that eventually became misery .

Only when she wasn’t looking did he dare to expose his true emotions .

Even though he acted like he didn’t care, he did . Deep inside, he cared a lot .

He couldn’t help taking a deep breath . Pulling himself out of his misery, he moved, lightly kissing her hair . He wished to be able to tell her “I love you”, but his throat was choked . He tried again, and still he wasn’t able to say it . He stood up slowly and turned to leave the room .

Some love just couldn’t be expressed with voice .

Because the moment it was said aloud, it would be lost .

And he had lost enough . As it was, he would use his entire life to maintain their status quo .

Even if the current situation was horrible .

The words of liking someone could easily be said, but love, it was buried deep in one’s heart .

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The next day, when Madam Chen was about to leave her room to make breakfast, she bumped into Lu Jinnian, who was walking down from upstairs .

She was momentarily stunned, wondering what time had had come back yesterday . After a short pause, she politely greeted him, “Good morning, Mr . Lu . “

Lu Jinnian nodded wordlessly before heading out the door . He changed his shoes and just when he was about to leave the house he instructed her, ” Don’t tell Mrs . Lu I was back . “

Without waiting for Madam Chen to respond, he left .

When Madam Chen snapped out of her daze, Lu Jinnian was already in his car preparing to leave .

She stood at the same spot, her mind filled with questions . She shook her head, wondering why would Mr . Lu try to hide his concern for Mrs . Lu?

The next two days, Qiao Anhao stayed in without leaving the house much . They passed peacefully, without Lu Jinnian coming back, though according to the news he was in the city .

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Once, when Madam Chen was going to the toilet in the middle of the night, she saw Lu Jinnian’s car . It was parked in the front yard and he was sitting inside . After staying for a very long time, he drove off .